Emotional talk. No entity

[Preety_India]

Sometimes this helps me. 

 

Edited April 18, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Sometimes I want to feel like I just don't exist. 

 

[Preety_India]

How does it feel just being a non entity. 

 

[Preety_India]

It's like everything hurts. 

This is an important journal. This is where my soul speaks. 

[Preety_India]

I am not even considered an ex girlfriend. 

I'm considered a bimbo. 

 

[Preety_India]

I have realized that I'm the only one for myself 

There won't be anyone 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Anyway. I just have to survive some how 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Not give into miserable thoughts. 

Life is hard. But you gotta do what you gotta do. 

You can't keep thinking about things that drain your soul. 

 

[Preety_India]

I just want to be with a man with whom I will feel completely safe 

 

Otherwise 

Nooooooooooooooo

 

[Preety_India]

If a guy ever wants to be my friend, you better create that trust in me before I say yes to you. 

And I'm going to call you my Mr Buddy if we really get that close. 

 

[Preety_India]

Sometimes I feel like if I had been given enough love, I wouldn't have turned out like this 

 

[Preety_India]

 

On 16/04/2021 at 4:31 AM, Preety_India said:

 

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[Preety_India]

This earth is garbage. Just stick to yourself. 

 

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I was walking alone through the hallways of nothingness.. 

Maybe I was walking towards ultimate silence, a place of peace, a place I could call home. 

Through every door I could hear echoes of my alter egos  talking to me,  where was my authentic self lost in those egos that society built?

 

[Preety_India]

This forum has bad energy for some reason. 

Avoid it. 

It creates unnecessary social games. 

There is no beauty here. 

@Preety_IndiaWhy don't you just focus on something else that is interesting and oriented with learning like a new skill outside of this forum. 

Everyday there is something disappointing happening here 

 

Everyday I wake up to a personal message that creates a disappointing or upsetting feeling. 

Just put an end to it and focus on something outside the forum and write about it. 

Don't involve with the material here.  The material here is bad energy and toxic. It corrupts the mind. 

Don't check personal messenger. Someone is always writing something mundane or mean 

No support, no encouraging words, just bad juju all the time and angry manic hostile competitive energy here 

 

It makes sense. It's a self development forum after all. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Eventually I'm the winner, that's what I need to tell myself. 

The road to healing happens when you  embrace your struggles and call yourself a winner. 

 

 

Edited April 23, 2021 by Preety_India