My journey so far.

[Peter124]

Hi, so I've been experiencing this phenomenon recently where each day more and more I can see things that don't make sense anymore. Like my entire paradigm of thought just seems dumb to me now when I used to take them seriously.

Secondly, I'm realizing that what constitutes my identity and ego is literally just made up. As in, rooted in language not reality.

 

Reality/Consciousness is God/ the I.

 

Finally path forward is very clear. I'm going to college have a stable job no credit card debt yet...

 

I still always feel extremely uneasy and uneasy. My thoughts are always ALWAYS running. I'm always questioning what I'm doing, don't feel like I'm doing what I aught to do, I'm feeling like selling my new XBox S because I'm not a "gamer". It's confusing.

 

Also literally everything I do think say feel and how/why I do it seems like the most important thing in existance and it's all I've been focusing on. With heavy constant criticism from my thoughts.

Does anyone have advice?

 

 

Edited April 9, 2021 by Peter124