road to self improvement

[parizat]

i have never really been a good student, and in general i think i am a little boring of a person sometimes. but i realise that no one is born mastered with skills ,so i start today by trying to work on my focus by :

first, testing what my current focus level is

second, and then increasing the amount of time i spend on productive things gradually

lastly, i intend to stop feeding my mind junk.

i will be making daily logs in here btw. * wishes myself, luck or the will to do all of this *

 

[parizat]

it has been 10 days since i was last here. i did not really get much done but i have been attending all my classes +waking up on time(mostly). the studying and everything in general gets me stressed so i have been trying to meditate for 2  or 3 minutes regularly, idk if it will actually help or not. i hurt people because of my own low self esteem ... it was fun to argue but it is dawning on me that that was a very bad thing to do. idk how i am supposed to apologize for being like this.  

 

[ted73104]

Do you think your low self esteem has to do with your performance in the classroom, meaning studying and passing exams? Maybe if you could add a perspective to how you observe and measure yourself, you would understand and feel better about yourself?