Struggling with anticipation

[Tovius]

The main problem with my practices is anticipation when there should just be an openness.

I've moved past anticipating an awakening and have come to meditate just to meditate. Sit in silence just to do it and practice it.

However when I sit in silence I pay attention to sounds, but when there's no sound it's like I'm waiting for the next sound to come. No thought with it telling me I'm anticipating but I feel the body bracing, just waiting for the next happening. 

[Brittany]

The appearance of anticipation is also perfect.

Waiting for the next sound to come is also perfect.