Feeling trapped - Chronic Fatigue

[Striving for more]

I ate rice today. I hope that was the reason for my severe fatigue & fog, but I doubt it because I experienced fatigue so often.

Yesterday it was headaches, now it's fatigue. I even slept 8 hours last night, but I feel like a 100 year old old man. 

It's hard to stay positive when I feel so trapped, because I don't even know what's wrong with me. 

 

But I have to stay positive, miracles can happen. I just prey it happens quick. I don't want to lose all of my 20's, I already lost my whole childhood & my formative years are coming to an end in not long. 

I still haven't tried mercury chelation yet, I just need to double down on my health & say goodbye to my goals & trying to make money or other stuff because I don't have the enrgy for anything. 

Just need to find a solution, no more brain fog, no more diareeah, no more feeling like a 100 year old woman, need to solve this mystery. 

Need to stick to the no thiol diet & clearly no rice, see if that works. If it doesn't maintain hope. 

Need to remove my fillings & get some tests done. So annoying you have to wait 3 months to chelate, I want change right fucking now. Fucking bored of this shit. 

But have to apply "requisite variety

Going to try Kambo too & maybe try more supplements / nootropics. 

I've just wasted so much money on supplements to no avail, some made me worse

 

Need to actually visit a doctor for once, I just have such low expectations of institutional doctors, but I guess it's another angle. 

 

Fatigue so bad, I would struggle to fuck right now, I never would have thought that even at this age I could lose my sex drive. 

I only have bursts of energy when I consume a stimulant or watch a motivation video, then I come crashing down to reality & fall harder. 

Should I stop wearing bluetooth headphones? Is that fucking it? How the fuck does anyone find out. I just need these tools 

OK ENOUGH > NEED TO FUCKING GO SEE A DOCTOR & TAKE MORE PROACTIVE STEPS. But these caps are misleading because I feel so docile & dead inside. 

Health is so fucking confusing, it's mostly just a lottery ticket lets be honest. 

Leaving this forum now, too tired to even think