Origins: Towards Higher Sovereignty

[Origins]

This journal is disposed to painting the actualizational boundaries of my existence through the lens of the beginning musical note of my existence. This will explore standard modes of enquiry, answers of which repaint experience through the lens of the higher self, in this sense, towards higher sovereignty. In the limited practical sense for now, this will involve basic laws I will refine as it concerns self-orientation. Self-orientation that reflects values of self honesty, self acceptance, self boundaries, self power, self actualisation, self boundaries and more including their appropriate ordering through a basic geometry.

Firstly, my introduction:

What point do we weigh our experience against?

Why would it be any other place other than the beginning of the universe itself, for, isn't any other place a beginning to our experience anyhow? 

Thus, even if there was no "true beginning" why not make it that way, to correctly, relative to what you would otherwise do, backtrack experience as far as you can take it autobiographically, theoretically and existentially (i.e. feelings, impressions, intuitions and various other subconscious stimuli become apparent in this category). 

Isn't this the beginning of my song, for, the beginning of the universe, backtracking my experience there, allows me to correctly compare any one perception I have with said experience, allowing me to self-derive self-ownership and through that, divinity. The recognition of my own divinity enables me to contrast futility with comparably, divine action.

What is divine other than following the truest creativity of the universe? Isn't this the way my being is taking me now and has been taking me? Why should I delay this growth, if so, what am I delaying it for? 

To turn my entire experience into music and visual art and through that the re-engineering of experience (as this is the such result of creativity that I speak of) in its entirety feels lonely, as if I don't wish to step into this unique inevitable divinity the universe obviously had planned for me for fear of being more socially estranged than I had previously.

But, this inferior emotional disposition is merely a lack of alignment with the values and beliefs that allow me to find people how would be open minded and capable of enough of growing towards a similar light, secondly, why am I afraid to stand out? Maybe, I am meant to stand out. Maybe I'm meant to overcome the natural disposition towards being in the shadows towards being the highest light, and move between the two so much as it serves me to do so. 

How can I now, as I step into this natural divinity, speak as truly as possible, without isolated instances to stray from any truth whatsoever about what I believe to be existence through my existence?

This is the sole goal might I add, as I have spoken about. 

For truth, is all that lays bare for us in reality, that there is only so much truth we can actualise in our life, that the assumption is that the most and deepest amount of truth is a revelation of the highest life, thus we must focus on truth in all moments no matter how varied.

What is truth? Truth is embodiment, thus it is emotion, cognition, psychology, intuition and body made whole.

Thus, to search for the truth of my origins through all those avenues and more, via the artistic feedback of consciousness as it travels in autobiography to abstraction first imagined via the senses. Reimagined through music, for this is the tonality that I've imagined to be the greatest chord to play in order to hold, express and imagine truth. Music after all, is carried through time, we perceive our existence via the lens of time, and what do we do with music other than to ensure we create, play and listen to music which is pleasing to the ears? The abstractions then of music, in as much as they can be at the very least analogised to all aspects of experience, we have the reconceptualisation of all experience through the context of notes, chords, melodies to single instances of time, collective instances of timed and patterns as well as connections between time. Who is a person, further who is person to person or persons, other than the clash of melodies, notes and chords? Why should I force myself to experience life through the lens of how general society passively views life? I have to move a dramatic step beyond the horizons of all of culture if I am to survive the inevitable winter that is coming to general societies perceptions of life as we face radical shifts in our way of life for a myriad of reasons. 

Why does anything need to be of concern to me outside the discernment and expression of truth through the lens of music? 

Why do I need to do anything then, other than to create music, in the ideological, practical and literal sense? Out of fear of social loss? Haven't I already lost in the real truthful sense by following their paradigms? If someone loves me they will love me in spite of my directions here, if I love someone it will be because they are already highly interested in my directions here. So I have nothing to lose then, everything else there is illusion.

This is my new paradigm, so I have no need to appease any prior paradigm I've been in or any paradigm society is in or that a person is in.

I am my own divinity, thus I am my own authority.

The origins of my life, held in a song I will uncover. The first single note of existence, hardly separate from me thus hardly separate from joining me on this endeavour. We play this note together, to bring its full song into existence. 

Who will come with me to change the world? No one? So be it. Someone? Not good enough. I need people that seek to understand as much as I, this is not an ordinary path to follow, it is intolerant of a lack of devotion, openness, transparency and of course, truth.