5MeO - terrifying yet beautiful.

[SamueLSD]

Out of all of my high dose trips, I have not once felt overwhelming fear. I've suffered during trips, sure, but I've never been actually terrified until 5MeO.

I found it difficult to breath at the start which is probably what set me off - I became instantly worried that something was wrong which led to my breathing being fast and not in rhythm. 

I'm trying my best to articulate what happened - but I don't really know. I was just genuinely scared. The mind seemed to have this grip on me - creating a maze of troubling thoughts , veiling the infinite beauty that I just had a glimpse of.

I don't think I was resisting anything , or even scared of dying, I was just so shocked at the intensity of the experience I guess. Letting go was harder than I thought.

Can anyone relate, or is anyone able to give advice for the next time I smoke it?

 

 

[Carl-Richard]

16 minutes ago, SamueLSD said:

I don't think I was resisting anything 

Letting go was harder than I thought

?

[SamueLSD]

27 minutes ago, Carl-Richard said:

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I wasn't consciously resisting anything. The egos job is literally to resist death though, lol. 

Maybe I needed a higher dose

[vladorion]

Resistance is rarely a conscious choice though, if ever.

[Grateful Dead]

I can relate very much brother ? Although it's very terrfiying I also find it interesting and kind of funny in a way.

But I also haven't been able to fully let go on 5-MeO, as you say I think it has a lot to do with the right dose. How much have you been smoking?

The only advice I can give you is to laugh about whats happening^^...

I am going to try plugging today for the first time.

[SamueLSD]

@acidgoofy

I was laughing after it happened. I looked back at how spooked I was and just thought.. holy shit I was NOT expecting that. I felt fine afterwards, not traumatized or anything. 

I wasn't planning on tripping hard, my friend had the first hit and while he was laying down I thought I'd finish off what he left in the pipe so nothing was wasted, and it turned out to be a full-blown trip. 

I was so keen to die until I actually felt like I was dying. 

As for how much I'm smoking, I don't really know. I don't have a scale so I'm just smoking small-ish amounts building myself up. I've been told that if I smoke more, there is less chance of panic. But I'm also scared of doing that because if I don't go all the way I could really end up scaring myself away from such profound potential. 

[SamueLSD]

9 hours ago, vladorion said:

Resistance is rarely a conscious choice though, if ever.

True. I guess the experience has also shown me how I'm kinda letting my ego get out of control with unconscious habits and desires, and I'm experiencing all that discomfort and fear that it leads to condensed into a short yet insanely powerful trip.

[Leo Gura]

@SamueLSD You get used to it. Don't worry about it.

5-MeO-DMT is actually one of the most benevolent substances. After a few breakthroughs.

[SamueLSD]

26 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

@SamueLSD You get used to it. Don't worry about it.

5-MeO-DMT is actually one of the most benevolent substances. After a few breakthroughs.

I definitely believe you there. 

The ego is what makes it feel malevolent...

Gonna try again tonight.