How to handle OCD

[LearningPodo]

So this has been a problem all my life basically. So my parents are really old fashioned and they grew up in much poorer times in less developed countries. As such, growing up their worries were about getting food on the table, and they can't even comprehend why I would have issues like anxiety, for example.

Anyways, they have no emotional intelligence and when I'm around them I usually feel like I don't exist because they kind of just talk at me (things like are you hungry? did you eat yet? have you finished classes), I never feel like I'm being talked to, just talked at like I'm a robot.

Anyways, that's the problem. I like being alone so when I'm not around them I don't get lonely or whatever, it's just that being around them gives me SOOO much OCD because if you can imagine two people talking AT you all day but the conversation is so mechanic and like they're not talking to you. Basically I developed all these OCD habits just as a way to manage how much of a lack of control I have when I'm around them and they're complete lack of perceptiveness to anything.

I don't hate them by any means, and I'm very grateful for all they've done for me but this is an issue that I don't know how to handle and it's affecting my focus and concentration in online classes because how am I supposed to focus if for hours a day I deal with OCD compulsions? Is there like a way to transcend this or somehow detach from my OCD??

[Consept]

Ocd is tough and can be around for a while or go very quickly depending on how you deal with it. There are no shortcuts though so don't look at ways to just bypass it or transcend it. The key word is acceptance, as in you have to fully accept that it's there and not fight it or even want it to go, just see it for what it is, which are thoughts. If you are in the mindset of how do I get rid of it or what can I do to bypass it, that will counter intuitively keep it around longer. 

A good way to face it directly is erp or exposure response preventation, which is basically being around what triggers your ocd and not responding, just letting those thoughts and sensations be there. This is a practice just like meditation or shamanic breathing, you have to do this everyday and do it the right way. So I would advise looking into that more and going ahead with it. Its not an easy journey but definitely can be improved