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Making sense of first "enlightenment" type experience while on LSD

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I had my first ever Enlightenment type experience while on LSD last week where I experienced myself as the Universe. I realized very intensely that I was the universe knowing itself, and that even a conversation was merely the universe speaking to itself. Another example was that I was speaking to my friend and forgot a word, then realized that the Universe had forgotten a word just so it could watch itself try to find it again. While I was sitting there just basking in this feeling of union I would think about certain people, familiar or strangers, and feel an intense feeling of love for them because they were me. It felt like everything in the room was myself.

Interestingly, the feeling of "I" was still there. I still existed and so everything I experienced was still related to myself and my identity. I remember jokingly thinking, "oh now that I'm fully enlightened now I need to start a cult." I was conscious enough of the ego to know that it was very much still in place and that this was merely a first step. 

However, that is the trouble. Since this is my first experience, and it was on a psychedelic, I want to be sure that this was an enlightenment experience. And so that's really what I'm asking here. Is that experience really what we're getting to here? I feel that I'm overthinking it, and asking for permission, but I want to get second opinions to make sure I'm not falling for a psychedelic-induced ego trap. 

The following is an optional read of an unedited paragraph that I wrote while having the experience. I think I've summed up enough already so if you want to skip it, go ahead, but this more clearly encapsulates exactly what I was experiencing at the time:

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If I am talking to somebody, I am doing the conversation to myself. In the act of engaging with that person I am setting up a situation in which I will have more material to work with and to play with. No matter what it is, it is all for my own entertainment (yes even the anxiety, that's why you fantasize about things going wrong, you want to feel that anxiety). This may at first seem solipsistic until you realize that you are the universe doing it to itself in that act of conversation. The universe is literally playing as each person in the conversation discussing whatever it is that the universe has come up with to be discussed. You may say that the anxiety is a bodily reaction that extends from outside the "mind" self, but that is the universe also. The universe is giving itself anxiety through its own experience of it, which is what you perceive not as you, but as it. It is itself the building blocks from which the neurological structures of anxiety are built. You're it! You are God experiencing itself. You cannot stop being the universe experiencing itself at every moment. No matter what you do or what you think, that is the universe doing it to itself. Stop and look around. Everything that currently is, is exactly as it needs to be because that is the universe. No matter what you do or where you turn the universe is creating universe for its own enjoyment. There can be no denial or refutation because the denial and the refutation of the current universe is ultimately the current universe doing the denial and refutation of itself for its own enjoyment. For its own enjoyment? Why else. Its all you, why not enjoy all of it. As I type this I am the floor and the furniture and the keyboard and the fingers and the consciousness of those things. It's all me. It's all you. Experience yourself experiencing yourself in everything and enjoy.

 

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It's hard to make boundary for an enlightenment experience. You were certainly more conscious and experiencing stuff from a higher plane but in the end it's up to you whether it was an enlightenment experience or not. Nobody can tell you for sure.

Someone who's more experienced with different kind of ''enlightenment experiences'' can probably relate and say that your story sounds familiar, but with all the theory, literature, beliefs, prejudice and mythology around enlightenment makes it really hard to say from one's description.

What you shared sounds really similar than an awakening experience I had some time ago on shrooms.

 

 

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