Stumped in my Relationship

[White Monk]

Hello,

 

Lately my relationship has seemed very unhealthy, a ton of arguing fighting and int always seems like an upcoming fight, where I find myself not even wanting to relate to my girlfriend because there always seem to be some negativity and reactions. I have been doing my end to uphold my responsibility and being more present through my interactions, but sometimes my heart doesn't feel in it anymore. I don't feel respected, valued, or like I want to play a part in this relationship where the dynamic doesn't feel healthy. I don't know if I can fix it, but my heart is just feeling like ehhhhh.... idk about this, its not on the end that seems flowing, equanimous and easy. 

I don't know what is goin one but I would like some reflections and input. Relating to her seems to be feeling like such a hassle and not like I am looking forward to it in many ways. Almost looking past it sometimes or questioning what I am doing in it. I think at one point it was very authentic for me but I am not sure that it is anymore. 

 

Thanks, 

White Monk 

[Chew211]

Move on. 

We're biological apparatuses that only have a limited amount of energy per day. An SO draining you of that energy is only going to worsen you in all aspects-- including your endeavor to elevate your consciousness.