Joseph you hurt me - breakup journal

[Preety_India]

I don't know who you are or who you were. 

But I know that you were the most important part of my life. 

You left me in so much pain. 

Yes I left you. I broke up with you. 

A part of me always stayed with you. 

I don't fall in love many times but when j do I crash really hard.. 

You took my heart and broke it. 

You shattered me into many pieces.. 

I will always hurt thinking about you. 

 

Edited March 4, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I know this much that when I die, i'll take your name one last time before my last breath. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

It was a 4 year relationship with you that I ended after a lot of pain and abuse you put me through. 

 

You were special to me.  I considered you my sacred corner, my soulmate. 

Yet you betrayed my trust. 

 

It stayed with me. 

I wish things were different between us 

 

I wish we were happy together but you ruined everything because you didn't really love me. 

 

 

[hyruga]

Sorry to hear but When was the break-up?

I think you need to read/watch more Tony Robbins or Zig Ziglar. Stop reliving your past and be a good finder. 

[Preety_India]

@hyruga  whats a good finder? 

Did You mean good at screening people? 

 

[hyruga]

13 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

@hyruga  whats a good finder? 

Did You mean good at screening people? 

 

No. It means to find the good in every situation.

TR says that a lot.

'Things happen for me, not to me.' (Look for the benefits).

 

[Preety_India]

1 hour ago, hyruga said:

No. It means to find the good in every situation.

TR says that a lot.

'Things happen for me, not to me.' (Look for the benefits).

 

I'm already aware of that. 

But I'm not into that kind of thing. 

My therapy involves venting out excessively. That's what's helpful to PTSD victims. 

Venting to the point of finally getting it out of the system. 

Because I tend to hold up inside a lot because of my introversion. 

So journaling helps a lot with venting out the deepest feelings. That's how healing comes to me. 

 

[hyruga]

Ok noted. Jia you!

In chinese, we have a saying called 'jia you' which means to 'add oil'. Add more power and keep going strong! 

[Preety_India]

@hyruga oh I didn't know you were Chinese. 

Nice to meet a Chinese!

 

[hyruga]

2 hours ago, Preety_India said:

@hyruga oh I didn't know you were Chinese. 

Nice to meet a Chinese!

 

Haha Thank you.

2 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I'm already aware of that. 

But I'm not into that kind of thing. 

My therapy involves venting out excessively. That's what's helpful to PTSD victims. 

Venting to the point of finally getting it out of the system. 

Because I tend to hold up inside a lot because of my introversion. 

So journaling helps a lot with venting out the deepest feelings. That's how healing comes to me. 

 

Venting is okay and if it helps you, good for you.

However, I think you should also check out Leo's video on

 I also know you have watched it before. You have to watch it again and fully feel the emotions and probably letting go is a great choice.

[Preety_India]

 

You were a precious part of my life 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I felt deeply wounded by your actions in the relationship.. 

But one day I will reflect back on it and think how deep our connection was. 

How genuine my heart was for you. 

 

[Preety_India]

You were an important person among the list of my boyfriends. 

I never really loved my other boyfriends the way I loved you. Because you were special. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited March 4, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Joseph you gave me so much hurt and pain. 

But this thing. 

I'm grateful to you despite all that 

 

 

Because of all your hurt, I'm a strong woman today who knows how to keep her boundaries from being broken. 

 

I don't get stepped on anymore..

 

 

I don't know if you really loved me and I don't care. 

 

But your dynamic changed my fragility forever. It made realize that I had to put myself first in everything. 

And not allow pigs like you to mess with my brains. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Now that I am done with you, thank God I can move on.

It took such a long time to get over you. 

 

[Preety_India]

But I definitely feel better after dumping you 

 

 

[Preety_India]

You say sorry but you are not. 

 

[Preety_India]

You took advantage of my situation. 

You're a sick person. 

I wish I could file a lawsuit against you for the continuous abuse. 

But I deleted a lot of the evidence. 

I so wish I hadn't deleted it and kept recording all incidents of your abuse and then submitted it to court. 

You lied about jail. 

You lied about a lot of things. You're a vicious man. I hope you end up paying the price. 

I wish there were better laws for emotional abuse 

 

You have blackmailed and threatened me on several occasions and I've recorded you.. 

But since you requested, I deleted them. I wish I hadn't. 

You're a pathetic guy. 

You'll pay the price in the end. 

You must go to jail. I'm the 3rd girlfriend you abused 

Your second ex put a restraining order on you. 

You're extremely manipulative and you turned the whole situation around to make her look like the bad one. 

You cheated on your first girlfriend but made it look like she left 

You're a coward.  You fed me with lies and tried to draw empathy for your situation. 

You're a psychopath who skillfully manipulated me.. 

The truth is only coming out now.. 

I hope you get exposed. 

I got scammed because of you.