Feel too laz & angry to improve my health & energy & my life

[Striving for more]

I'm too weak mentally to fix my health issues. 

I spent months exercising, eating a "perfect" diet, optimizing sleep & there's soooo much more to do. 

It's soo mysterious & it could be 1 of 100 things, know I could try everything & maybe nothing works, it's hard to maintain morale. 

When family just laugh at you & think you're lazy, & those fat fucks can eat whatever drink tap water & they still able to focus on their work, no brain fog,

I have to detox heavy metals, do tons of other stuff, get a better water filter, move out to a place where healthy living is more encouraged & accessible, Improve my income so I can keep buying organic food & tons more check if I have viruses, allergies 

.... blah blah blah

& I have to do all this whilst I feel tired & have brain fog, low morale, no friends or encouragement. 

 

How do I motivate myself when I just feel shit & tired all the time, Right now I go to get an ice cream because I feel shit & diet doesn't make no difference. 

I know I have to keep trying, but I'm not strong like some people, I need the easy path, I can't keep going

 

TLDR ;

I feel very tired & groggy all the time & there's apprarently all these mysterious things to try that might solve my problem, but my fatigue & brain fog makes me too lazy & angry to do anything 

Maybe I just need to move out right away because I need shit ton of psychological spritiual energy to get me going, otherwise I'd need modafinil but the side effects can make it backfire.

 

 

Edited February 26, 2021 by Striving for more