I thought higher doses are always better, maybe I'm wrong.

[TheSpiritualBunny]

Whenever I used psychedelics, I always used huge doses, like after some point at least 500ug LSD or beyond heavy doses of other psychedelics because I very rarely had a bad trip, but most of them also didn't do anything for me, except for a 275ug ETH-LAD trip where I experienced a completel nondual state for the first time, since then I got really interested in psychedelics again.

After not taking them for months, I grew some mushrooms, and I suck at that, I managed to get like probably less then 1g of dried golden teacher mushrooms. Since I never tried mushrooms up to this point, I decided to take the 1g to get some mild effects and see what it's like. About maybe 20 to 30 minutes of taking it, I absolutely started feeling the come up, and it got stronger and stronger. Since I didn't expected much more, I just decided to watch a video from Chubbyemu where someone injects brewed mushroom tea into his arm, just for fun. I also started to see moderate visuals, which I didn't expect.

But at some point I just didn't feel like watching anything anymore and took off the headphones. I was so surprised at how intense it got, I just was sitting there for over an hour staring at my screen and just observing the almost rythmic buzzing sounds in my head. I just started to get kind of a glimps of what my most intense experience was like. The idea that I'm a male, or a human started to fade a little and I felt a bit like I just was this empty, infinite being with no gender, no personality, and I just started to observe it for a while, it also felt quite loving.

During the quarentine, I just started texting with several girls from a few dating apps, but I couldn't really connect with any of them. But during the experience it became appearent to me that I should just put more effort into it. I would often forget things I talked about with one girl, and I saw how this was kinda disrespectful and I should put more effort into doing that. 

Anyway, it could have been stronger, but I didn't expect it to even be nearly as intense as it was. I also often just watched videos during trips, and I realized that this might have been a reason for why most of them didn't get me anywhere.

I got a better harvest now, and I'll keep doing this every once in a while without distracting myself, thank you for reading!

 

[Leo Gura]

High doses are rarely better.

You got your rule of thumb backwards.

[TheSpiritualBunny]

6 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

High doses are rarely better.

You got your rule of thumb backwards.

I also think it might have to do something with my provious intense high dose experiences. When I started with psychedelics normal doses wouldn't do it for me, but I guess at that point I still just used psychedelics for fun. Btw, what do you think about going outside on low doses (but still not microdoses)? For me, walking though Vienna or doing everyday actvities on 100ug of LSD or ETH-LAD was always quite interesting and insightful.