Confession - a difficult word to define

[Kuba Powiertowski]

The last few days have been very hard for me, but everyone has their own way. It is enough just not to search for others. My way, Your way ... Each is equally important. Each one is different from all the rest. I have long felt that I want to understand my actions. Perhaps because I was once strongly associated with Christian ideals, somewhere in the depths I hear a voice that speaks to me through these ideals and the symbol of the cross most clearly. Only now do I begin to understand what he is saying. Someone once "broke the bonds, lose the chains, carried the cross and all my shame" ... This Manifestation is for me ... "Despair and deception pretend to be ugly twins of Love, I let them in. Now that I know that I am my own punishment for all my former sins, I let Love in. " I finally began to understand what confession is. I started it and it immediately crushed me so that I was unable to get up ... I started asking God for support because I knew and I know that I would not be able to handle it. And He / She / It came ... And in fact, it was /is /will be here with me all the time. He does not give absolution or excuses ... He immerses you in such deep Ocean of Love, Acceptance, Understanding, and Forgiveness that, as Leo said, it almost literally "kills" you ... Understanding is constant overworking yourself, it is a constant confession in this Ocean. No one else will do it for me. I have to lift my cross, all my shame, and carry it to the end ... Understanding and overworking my suffering has the deepest sense at this stage because it is the way to Acceptance. Each escape from this very difficult and painful process will solve exactly nothing.

I still picking pieces of myself off the floor...

[Kuba Powiertowski]

Watch from 1.56.00 to the end.

The core of confession... for me.

[Kuba Powiertowski]

Few paraphrases and quotes to add...

"my visions about reality prove that I have a big imagination.
But not big enough. Reality is much more simple"

"who am I to even think I may know the difference between Good and Evil?"

"I don't see what it is. I see what I want to see"

"pleasure - it's a difficult word to define"

"when God is just a story, one of many, a lie, an illusion, I abandon Him"

"God is the answer to all questions"

"Self - Love is the Highest Teaching in the Universe"