Am I really being tired or I'm just thinking that I'm tired?

[bastih]

Hi, so I am the type of person who didn't really have to do much work in school in order to get good grades. I guess because of that I had a fixed mindset, that is I thought that I was someone special and I was gonna become very succesful in life even without any hard work. I had always been leaving everything until the very last moment before deadline and most of the time I'd chill play games, watch esports etc. Then after reading a book about fixed mindset and growth mindset I realized that I was so wrong and to accomplish something meaningul I have to work hard and strategize.

I started with a small steps and in the first week I meditated for 1 minute per day, then I added 1 page per day. I've added some other things too and now I read a lot like 50 pages a day (I've read 7 books this year so far) and I meditate 20 minutes per day. I don't add anything new because I've started feeling overwhelmed with other things like work and school. It came to the point that I am only able to do my basic morning routine which takes up to 2 hours, 1 hour or 2 of studying and then 3 hours of work. I work at home, I am trading on greyhound racing and it's pretty easy strategy so I am able to listen to actualized.org videos in the background without losing much focus.

So I wake up around 7 am and my work ends around 2 pm so it's only 7 hours but after that my brain feels exhausted. I am not able to learn anything new even when I try to focus I just can't and it doesn't get any better till the end of the day. I have evening session of trading between 6pm and 9 pm where I too listen to actualized.org videos and sometimes I even listen to them after trading but the next my brain feels like it was melting and I can't focus on anything.

Is it because it's really tired or I am just thinking that? When I think of programmers for example who are able to code for 10 hours straight without break I am amazed and I think to myself that I'd never be able to do such things. Is it going to improve with time or I'm at my limit already? If there's a book on how brain works in this regard I would love to read it because I'm really lost. Also I don't know how to rest properly. I used to play games but the only game I really like is League of Legends and it doesn't relax me in any way haha. I've tried meditation to rest my mind but I can't focus when I'm tired and my mind wanders a lot. I don't know if I should keep pushing myself or not.

[Tim R]

What's your diet like? Shitty food can make you feel like shit pretty damn effectively. 

Don't push yourself from 0 to your max. That's not a sustainable strategy. Discipline is a muscle, you can't just hit it like mad and expect it to accomplish much for long. Incremental steps is the way.

[bastih]

@Tim R  I am on keto, I feel much better on it rather than on my normal diet which was so bad. So you're saying that with time I'll be able to do more during the day if I stick to my schedule but listen to my organism?

[Tim R]

Yeah, something like that. Look, if you've never worked out and then hit the gym and lift weights like mad you'll get tired very quickly. So equally,  don't overdo it in life. And yes, listen to your organism.