You cannot be following Actualized.org and not meditating, it is a must. Weird stuff will arise while you meditate and it’s not all butterflies. The side effects or meditations are (may last for a whole month): ·         Hyper annoyance and crankiness ·         Expect hyper judgmentalism ·         Mood swings (can last for weeks) ·         Feelings of loneliness, disgust, anger and frustration (for mild to strong forms) ·         Crying ·         Insomnia (manic episodes with tons of energy) ·         Depression (serious spells) and meaninglessness (you’ll self-improvement is meaningless) ·         Interference (you will think that your work and career are meaningless and you’ll want to quit your career. It will come and pass. ·         Interference with your relationship (you will think you chose the wrong person) ·         Rush judgments (like quit my job and go to meditate on a cave or liquidate all your assets) ·         Suicidal thoughts ·         Freak-out moments ·         Ego backlash: As you are meditating you are dissolving your ego but when the ego gets dissolved too much too fast, it usually come back stronger o   Go back to old bad habits ·         Hyper hornyness ·         Expect old repressed memories ·         Family issues ·         Crazy monkey mind (waves of insanity and madness) ·         Self-doubt: You will doubt your technique ·         Expect nightmares and dreams ·         Expect spiritual arrogance (“look how unconscious people are”) This is common stuff you will have to expect. These are weirder side effects ·         Shaking, tingling and pain in your body ·         See lights and auras ·         Vivid sexual fantasies (homosexual fantasies) and will tend to seduce you ·         Behave like an animal ·         Paranormal phenomena (reliving the past or seeing the future) or out-of-body experience ·         Might see/hear spirits (angel or demons) ·         Samadhi states (negative or positive): Stop existing as an individual object and merge with reality ·         Kundalini awakening (energy shooting out your spine and going to your head) ·         Total blackout or the void ·         Ego death ·         Your reality will be shattered ·         Dark night of the soul: When you start to see that everything you knew about reality is false and completely delusional (reality has no purpose nor meaning) ·         Depersonalization: You start to think that you don’t exist as a person (you want to treat it as temporary phases that you need to work trough What to do with all these stuff? ·         Relax, all these stuff is normal. ·         Not get distracted with these stuff too. ·         KEEP MEDITATING; IF YOU STOP, THE EGO WILL WIN. Remember that all the negative stuff is a sign of growth. ·         Remind yourself that everything you are feeling is a phase, it will pass. ·         REMEMBER TO TRUST YOUR HIGHER SELF! ·         It is supposed to be a process of self-love (be kind and gentle on yourself) ·         Your job is to sit and be mindful ·         If you really need, just take a break for a short time (you should always come back) ·         Read spiritual books   You are not necessarily encounter with all of these stuff, so don’t go hunt for it. The trick with these things is to not get triggered by them and make a rush move as a reaction against the negative emotional energy. What meditation do is surfacesing stuff from the subconscious mind but if you don’t expect that, you can get into trouble. YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT THESE THINGS ARE TEMPORARY. MEDITATION MAKES YOU MORE SPIRITUAL ONLY IN THE LONG RUN, NOT IN THE SHORT RUN. Meditation and growth is a battle; you have to burn through old beliefs and thought patterns. You need to purge all the shit that is in your mind! When you are meditating you are forcing your mind clean itself but in an unconscious way and the only signs you are gonna experience are these emotional reactions. You need to be conscious enough that this is what is happening in the big picture. See all the emotion turmoil as purging all the toxic thoughts and emotions. Once the purification complete itself, you will end up being all clean and happy (10-15 years from now). This purification comes in waves so expect several stages of neurotic behavior. When you are experiencing something negative, realize that it is a consequence of your growth and purification.