Exploring my sexual side

[captainamerica]

27 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

I feel like committing suicide. 

I just don't feel good anymore 

 

People are so judgmental. 

 

@Preety_India People here are less judgmental than the avg. public.

You are loved here. 

[Megan Alecia]

@Preety_India Why kill yourself? 

Nobody in this world - I mean nobody - is better than you are. 

Your soul is the only one you should listen to. 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Megan Alecia

[Preety_India]

@Megan Alecia thank you 

[Megan Alecia]

@Preety_India Hope you feel better soon. 

[Preety_India]

Sexual talk is very therapeutic to me. 

Whenever I  write about it, it works like a release. 

 

[Preety_India]

Imagine if I had the worst neighbors on planet earth. 

Now that would be great suffering 

 

[Preety_India]

Do you ever reach a point in your life where you feel like telling the other person "I don't know what else to tell you. "

 

[Preety_India]

I love the way you are. 

Touching  my sexy body so smooth. You're an image if greatness.  

My fantasies of you and me joining in erotic pleasures.  You're properly made to seduce me in the freakiest mindset. My lips touches your soft skin, travels inch by inch. Your lips on mine. 

As I prepare you for what comes next,
properly displayed in this text.
. Kissing me softly on my pussy. Juices in you flowing into me. Tongue kissing me in place of dialogue. 

press your face deep into me. 
Suck my nipples, while fucking me  in
this sexual session. 

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Sex is such an intimate act. An act of submission and surrender. 

It's beautiful when two people can be so deeply intimate. You can have all that pillow talk.  It's a novel experience. You forget all the worries of the world. Everything is all energy. Energy of two bodies fusing into one. 

Sex is when someone loves you deeply. You fuck like rabbits 

Reminds me of Andrew. 

Thousand ways to love a person. You make me feel come alive.  Your lips make me wet.  

I remember our first kiss. Everything is so beautiful about you. When you gaze into my eyes, all I feel is fire. 

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

How long can I hold myself waiting. 

There's so much to say. You calm me down. You are everything I need in a man. 

You are my v room. 

We're naked when we sleep beside each other. It feels like we're at camp. Adulthood is a crime. Because you are punished for wanting sex.  But when you are a kid  you're not punished for anything.  

When you are adult suddenly love is a luxury. It pains me so bad to see the painful faces of Incels 

 

[Preety_India]

Porn destroyed sex the way fast food destroyed food. 

 

[Preety_India]

It is not your conversation. That keeps me entertained. But rather the way you look at me. That makes me feel sustained. It's the curve of your lips. 
And the curl of your hair. It is not your intelligence that drew me close to you. 
It is not your sense of humour. It's the touch of your hand. 
And the thoughts in your head... 
It is all of the little things. The things that don't get said. It's not your vivid history. That's made me fall in love
It's not your comprehension. Of the world or what's above. It is your soft temperament. And the way you smile at me. It's not when we are talking
That I want to know some more
It is the time we spend alone. And the time in utter silence. That form a strong alliance

It's not the job you work so hard
That shows your true commitment
It's not your crazy habits my lovely heart. 

It is the way you use your hands(on me)
Oops.. And the way I have been chosen

Why I know silence is golden

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

This is my v room and you're with me here. Where silence is golden and touch is benevolent. 

[Preety_India]

When you have an intimate conversation and relationship, it's the most beautiful thing in the world.  You create space for love and understanding. That's all we really need to get by in life. We need each other. We need intimacy to know each other. This is sex. It's life. Without sex there is nothing. Sex and spirituality have a connection. Because both are about intimacy. All conflicts are gone during sex. It's free. It's liberating. All differences resolved. It's the most intimate connection. I feel like sex is teaching me something, something deep. Like I need to accept all the harshness in this world, that would make my journey easier. Being intimate is the only way you can truly be yourself.  You can be truly free in your self expression. You can simply be yourself. This is where healing begins, because when you're intimate, you aren't judged anymore.  You are loved in intimacy. You're made to feel secure. You can be you without all manipulations, you can be free, away from the world, you can say whatever you want, just anything. You can say anything. It's such a relief because finally you can feel free and not stressed out anymore. You can feel healed. You can vent out, let out. It's like deep talk therapy with a psychiatrist. It's one of the reasons why sex is so therapeutic, it can literally cure anything in the world. Do you want something that can simply cure your brain right now, a powerful cure that energizes each and every cell in your brain, that creates a beautiful garden, now I understand what Buddha meant by a beautiful garden, sex is a ginormous about of energy activated. It's an extreme release, it is this intimacy. It creates a beautiful feeling in the brain, like pure bliss, a strong protection against psychic attacks, it's almost like giving a cleansing bath to your brain computer. Sexual healing. There is just no repression. Absolute freedom. 

When you feel this release, this powerful free self expression, it's the deepest release of all held up swallowed karmas, everything rises to the surface. You feel absolute surrender and peace. If your mind is, even for a minute, held in a rapture of sudden pleasure, release, surrender and absolute understanding, you become liberated for a minute, you reach a different mental state, a state of pleasure and joy and in this state you feel rapture and you feel free, in this state, nothing bothers you anymore, survival looks lame, people seem petty, you do care about life but you aren't as affected. You feel healed, all tensions thrown out and then you come to homeostasis. 

There is no repression. Your deepest feelings are confronted. You only talk to yourself. There is no more manipulation of your sentiment or feeling. Just rotate your fingers in a circle around your breast. 

There is no hurt and no room for hurt during an intimate session. This is where healing begins. It's the same as self love. When someone knows you inside out, it's like you're loving yourself. If somebody asked you to describe how you look, it's difficult without a mirror, but with a mirror it's much easier, when you love yourself, it feels hard like a routine, but when you are loved, it's much easier. It's like medicine given  to children with a sugar pill. It digests better.  Same way. There is a sweetened elegance and ease when someone loves you intimately. And when they do understand you thoroughly, it's like self love, the only difference being someone else is loving you as though you are loving yourself. It's like a twin mate who understands you inside and out. And now that you have this mate, it suddenly feels like self love. The healing begins slowly. You get renewed courage and you feel like you can take on things. You can finally get the love to fuel your actions and positivity. 

 

 

Edited February 18, 2021 by Preety_India

[Just Timothy]

What do you think about solipsistic aspects of sex? Do you experience  loneliness/wholeness of it and how does it make you feel?

[Preety_India]

3 hours ago, Just Timothy said:

What do you think about solipsistic aspects of sex? Do you experience  loneliness/wholeness of it and how does it make you feel?

No idea what that means. 

 

[Just Timothy]

Lemme clear context:
In some sense we are alone forever in our reality, thats our existential nature. Everything including people we are having sex with is our conciousness, we are everything. Kind of "In love with themselves" rather then in love with our partner, we are projecting everything, self deceiving ourselves in a way, considering that "I" and "you" don't exist in non-dual worldview. If we are considering the possibility that other "people" do exist, when love act happens "everyone" is in love with themselves.

That's all kind of tricky and when i was thinking about all this I realized that I have both male and female sides in me, both needing love and attention. So it makes it possible to love ourselves without needing external partner. Thats in a way how masturbation works.

So basically how do you integrate love relationships with non-duality?

[Preety_India]

@Just Timothy  I don't believe in non duality at all.  That's how I integrate it. 

I believe in the duality of life and the universe. 

 

[Preety_India]

I saw a guy on this site.  I absolutely loved his face. 

He looked so cute. I even complimented him.. 

His face was perfection. 

I like men like once in a blue moon. 

I happened to like his face. 

I rarely ever compliment a guy. 

The next thing.... He took down his picture. Unbelievable 

He got shy...... Lmao. 

I happened to adore men maybe once or twice in my life. Bad luck. 

He asked me to be his girlfriend. 

I turned down. Shucks.  

But he was cute, not gonna lie. 

It's just that I already have a boyfriend. 

Not gonna lie, I was actually thrilled that he asked me. 

 

Edited February 24, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

When I lie down with a man, I want him to kiss me. Kiss me deep 

I want to feel belonged. 

I want to feel your hug. Your words turn me on. 

I've started developing  a fetish for Asian men. 

I dream these fantasies that I'm sleeping with an Asian guy who hugs me in my dreams.. 

Especially this guy. He is how I want the man of my dreams to look. 

Edited February 24, 2021 by Preety_India