Exploring my sexual side

[Preety_India]

.my sexual fantasy.

Im in a dream. I am wearing a bright white spacesuit up to my neck and fluffy pink short tulle skirt. 

I'm flying into a garden and fluttering like a butterfly. Then a gentleman came with a gun in his hand. A big gun. He stared at me. Then he came closer. I said no. Then he placed his hand on my shoulder. And slowly slid his hand to touch my breasts and asked me how I felt. At first I felt nothing. Then I felt a bit warm in my breasts. He continued touching me there. I simply allowed him to. I was too scared of his gun. He looked at me and read my fears. He gently kissed my hand and told me I had nothing to worry.. 

Then he continued touching me. I felt hesitant but allowed him anyway. He told me I was so silly. He told me that he liked my curves . I felt shy and looked away. 

I wanted to get out of the garden. So I ran off. I wore a tiger tail on me  

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He came after me as I tried to run. 

He came closer and told me that he wanted to fuck me . I was confused.. 

 

I was dancing around in my tulle skirt. 

 

I walked out of the garden.. 

 

And then I saw Tarzan.. He was cute and covered in tiger skin. 

 

He saved me from a bunch of attackers. 

 

And I kept looking at him. 

 

Dreamy eyed.. 

Edited March 24, 2021 by Preety_India

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I will call him the Tiger skin guy. 

He was so protective of me.. 

Then he came closer and asked 

"I think you like me." 

And I smiled. Then I ran off into the woods.. 

 

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There are so many of these men that tried to get my attention. 

But I couldn't  love everyone. 

I found each one of them cute and funny. 

I like these men. They were nice. They touched me gently and softly. 

I wanted to sleep with them. Just for a night and not more.. 

I was dreamy eyed. Wanted them to flirt and play with me.. 

One of them said that I had a nice ass and told me to bend over. I was like - nope nope. Never. My tulle skirt is my protection from their hands.. 

Preety... Hahahahahaha... You suffer from Stockholm Syndrome lol. 

 

 

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I am trying to mend my sexual relationship with men. 

My earliest sexual experiences were being constantly stared at and being groped by older men... 

So i began to look at men as something undesirable and bad... 

This basically blocked my desire for men. 

I didn't want to be loved by men. I didn't want male affection.. 

I saw them as exploiters of my body.. 

I didn't want to be their sex slave. 

But recently I came across some men who were showing interest in me. 

They wanted me. They also respected me. They expressed their romantic desire to be with me.. 

And why would I push them away? 

My sexuality was so repressed for so long that I couldn't imagine loving or liking a man. 

The only time I loved a man was when I was in a relationship with him. 

Other times I didn't even bother to look in a man's direction. I was so tensed and scared around men. 

But for the first time, some men gave me safety, affection and respect. They gave me love and affection. 

And I was surprised to find that such men exist who actually care about me.. 

Then I wanted to dance in a tulle skirt and see if I could find such men in my dreamland. 

If I find them in the woods, maybe I will eat an apple and let them fuck me. 

 

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I have animalistic sexual desires.. 

That is.... When a guy has sex with me, I tell him to spank me really hard. 

When I had sex with my ex, he talked about using a paddle (small) to spank me in the bathroom till my skin got red. He was good at spanking me. 

That used to turn me on. 

When a guy has sex with me, that's when my femininity is in its full flow.. 

 

I feel very womanly when i have sex. 

I don't remember having a bad sexual experience because I carefully chose men in that regard.. They had to be respectful in the bedroom. 

I don't like the exploitative pervy ones. Nope. 

I like gentle kind caressing men in the bedroom. Who know how to play with my body. 

My ex used to turn me over while making love. Hehe. 

My current one is a bit boring. But it's ok. 

 

Edited March 24, 2021 by Preety_India

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I love the touch of his hand.. 

Especially when he runs his hand over my belly.. I watch him do that. Then he rubs my soft skin  against his face. 

He makes me tickle. 

He says he likes the shape of my ass.. 

I like the shape of his heart. 

 

I remember my ex sending these lyrics to me. He would sing this to me so often whenever I was around him. 

It's Gonna Be Me

Song by NSYNC

 

Lyrics

 

It's gonna be me
Ooh, yeah

You might been hurt, babe
That ain't no lie
You've seen them all come and go, oh
I remember you told me
That it made you believe in
No man, no cry
Maybe that's why

Every little thing I do
Never seems enough for you
You don't want to lose it again
But I'm not like them
Baby, when you finally
Get to love somebody
Guess what
It's gonna be me

You've got no choice, babe
But to move on, and you know
There ain't no time to waste
You're just too blind, to see
But in the end, ya know it's gonna be me
You can't deny
So just tell me why

Every little thing I do
Never seems enough for you
You don't want to lose it again
But I'm not like them
Baby, when you finally
Get to love somebody (somebody)
Guess what (guess what)
It's gonna be me

.... 

The song became like a weird turn on for me because my ex Joseph had been blasting that song into my ears for so long. 

 

Edited March 24, 2021 by Preety_India

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Why toxic love is so beautiful? 

I kinda feel weird that I have to admit this as a woman. It feels a bit shameful to admit this. But at the same time I need to be brutally honest about my feelings so that I'm not being pretentious about being a woman.

I find bad boys appealing. I know pick up culture teaches this to men. 

I think pick up teaches guys to treat women like that. it's more effective than being nice. But it's not even healthy. 

Yet I can say very honestly (I don't mean to say a perfect asshole), that I felt at ease with a bad boy than with a nice man. I won't say that the nice man was boring, just that being with him was challenging, I always had to be prim and proper with him. I always had to be polite. 

But with a bad boy, there was a certain freedom. I could wear anything I wanted and he wouldn't mind. I could use swear words and he wouldn't mind at all. I could be lazy and be hurtful or mean sometimes and he wouldn't judge, rather he would understand my bad side, just the way he understood his own bad side. 

But with a good boy, or a nice man, no such freedom existed. I always had to be on my best behavior. It's sort of a pressure. Everything felt claustrophobic. 

Plus with a bad boy I tend to win Brownie points. How? Well, he would say some nasty angry shit to me, like Eminem barking toxic lyrics in my ears, but later apologise and the fact that I put up with his anger, was an assurance to him that I loved him, whereas with a nice man, there is no automatic way to assure him that I love him. The emotions are kinda raw with a bad boy. The emotions are kinda tame with a nice guy. 

Nice guy versus bad boy confusion. 

 

 

 

 

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What I would like to wear while enacting my sexual fantasies 

This. 

 

 

 

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I got some more ideas on what I can wear while being in the bedroom doing my sexual routines. I don't want to be too spicy because then the attention is more on sex and less on roleplay 

So this is how my ass looks like in a spacesuit 

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This is how my ass looks like in a spacesuit. 

 

 

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What else I can wear to spice up my bedroom 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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                 I wanna be your spacesuit girl with a thicc ass

 

                     

 

 

                        

 

 

                          

 

 

                               

 

                      

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                              

         

          

                    

                                           

 

 

                                 

                                   

 

                                 

 

 

 

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       Okay...... I want to wear a tutu skirt especially a bright  pink tutu skirt over the bright white skin hugging spacesuit. 

 

   

 

This one will look so cute on me 

 

 

 

This one will make me look great, especially I want to be sitting on his lap while wearing this 

 

 

 

This skirt is kinda lame. Reject. 

 

 

I wanna try this one sometimes. It's like a peekaboo skirt. All I need to do is bend over. 

 

 

 

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Now coming to the last part of my perfect bedroom sex roleplay dress. 

I want a Tiger Tail attached to my tutu skirt. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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When I used to have sex with my ex, I used to wear a bright pink plastic-like knot  bra and skirt . Like this. 

 

 

 

[Florian]

@Preety_India Thank you for letting others read this lol

Reading this is actually helpful to me since I have some problems with believing women don't want sex and don't have these feeling and if I want sex with women I'm bad cause they will always hate me for it no matter what.

[Preety_India]

 

Sex and music. 

  For me music during sex is an absolute delight. 

The songs/music  that I generally prefer during sex is this :-

I wanna have sex to all of this music.. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My favorite among these 

 

 

My another favorite 

 

 

 

My ultimate favorite. This song drives me crazy in bed. It's a bit fast tempo. 

 

 

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Edited March 24, 2021 by Preety_India

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Am I a heterosexual female. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yes.