Exploring my sexual side

[Preety_India]

Decided to journal this part of me finally 

 

self-actualization-journals

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

Sometimes when I think of a man in terms of desirability, I'm bit confused as to which man is better. 

A good boy or a bad boy? 

Of course, I don't want an abusive asshole. 

The first one - bad boy. 

But there is a strong innate attraction to a cocky, demanding, persuasive, persistent, tough dominant, especially a strong sexual attraction. 

(The second one) 

On the other hand, a guy who is protective, leader type, not demanding, but caring, generous, patient, loving is also equally attractive. Here the attraction towards this kind of a man is more of the love heart type of emotional (less sexual) attraction. 

Both types of attraction are equally tempting. One is sexually tempting and emotionally stimulating. The other is emotionally tempting and sexually stimulating, meaning there is area for creating strong sexual chemistry. 

Both are paradoxical attractions. 

One is good for falling pregnant. And the other is good for husband material. Of course both are going to be good with sex (I might be lying though since option 1 sounds more sexually enticing) 

But the first option only looks good sex wise. It doesn't create long term love feelings. 

The second option looks like it's set for life and very happy and satisfying long term. 

Decisions are split between the heart and the pussy. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

K

I’m as horny as a teenager waiting for their touch. Engorged and throbbing in readiness. I’ve missed him too much

Wanton and greedy for stimulation

Genitals are aching cannot wait for his vibration

I will conceal nothing from him

I’m growing sticky and wet

Subjected to many long hours of torture. I've worked myself into a frenzy. With not even masturbation being my friend

I need some uncensored love making. Climaxing and shaking

I’ll just fantasize about him penetrating me deeply

His long muscular cock and me being so needy

Yes I have my shortcomings and patience isn’t one.. How about I go over to the neighbours

In twenty minutes I’ll be done. Hehe. 

Just kidding. I need my bf, not neighbor lol. 

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

What I would want to say to my bf though. 

I'm a bit shy sexually. But I've hidden feelings. Feelings of feeling trapped sexually 

What will I say to him -

Come over here. You alluring gentleman. Just teach me anyway you can

How you do sexy time

Will you be my man?

I have the perfect place for your instrument

Yes, touch me there please.

I will kiss your soul. Run my hands all over you. Teach me baby. I haven’t a clue. Intertwine with me. Let’s join forces while joining juices.... Grrr. 

Suck every part of me

Bring me to my knees.yep. I want him to bring me to my knees so he can pat me on the back, you know where. 

[Preety_India]

Right now there is romantic music playing in the background at my neighbors. . And my romantic heart is fluttering. 

Accommodate me in your strong arms please. 

My heart yearns. I want more of your ice cream (of all kind ). 

You take me to a different place. Away from the human race and World. 

The air of sensuality

And feelings of sexuality

You're my sunshine 

Who extends his ray beams onto my soul’s mess

When we have sex 

And we spill our secrets. In between lovers sheets.. That I know only you will keep

This dream I’ll keep dreaming

Because I never want to wake

 

 

Always save me.

I find this music very sexual 

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

You are that bad boy who should really bang me. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm a heart bird and a love bird.  I like love, sex, romance, tantra, and intimacy. 

It fills me with wanting and craving. 

I'm the eternal romance bird. 

I feel so horny right now. 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[captainamerica]

 

@Preety_India

You can use OneNote to want to post things that are more personal.

It has options to create unlimited one-page journals such as these.

Edited February 17, 2021 by captainamerica

[Preety_India]

@captainamerica  I want to post here. 

There's no problem in writing whatever I want to write in public. 

I'm not sexually repressed. 

No thanks. 

 

[Preety_India]

What rubbish. Guys write about porn all the time in journals. Nobody tells them that it's personal stuff. 

And people from my country come bothering me to to tell me what I should or shouldn't do with my body or mind. 

So sick of this sexual repression garbage attitude 

Don't like then don't read my journals but don't bother and upset me for no freek reason. 

Who does this other than people from my country?

Just leave me alone in my journals. 

 

[Preety_India]

What I do with my personal life and personal information is completely my  personal right and comfort zone. 

I was in such a good mood and this pathetic comment above ruined it. 

(these people don't have any problem in watching endless porn and jerking off but the moment a woman from their country is trying to feel sexually free then they suddenly find a problem. )

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India

[captainamerica]

7 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

What I do with my personal life and personal information is completely my  personal right and comfort zone. 

I was in such a good mood and this pathetic comment above ruined it. 

(these people don't have any problem in watching endless porn and jerking off but the moment a woman from their country is trying to feel sexually free then they suddenly find a problem. )

 

You are overreacting, my friend.

I have seen you make several threads and thought maybe you could use OneNote as it offers better organization and options than the forum. It's not even about this one thread.

[Preety_India]

@K Ghoul lol. I'm just expressing my sexual feelings because I like to write about stuff like that. My innermost feelings. 

People write erotica journals all the time. 

I'm not into all that only fans kind of stuff.. That's for advanced freaks. 

 

[Preety_India]

1 minute ago, captainamerica said:

You are overreacting, my friend.

I have seen you make several threads and thought maybe you could use OneNote as it offers better organization and options than the forum. It's not even about this one thread.

It's ok. I'm comfortable here. 

(I don't think people bother to read my journals anyway )

 

[Preety_India]

Haha this is so awkward... 

. I'm laughing hysterically right now. 

I'm not even too sexual by the way. 

I didn't even try lol. 

 

[Preety_India]

So how about tantra sex?

I like Connor Murphy's videos. I was thinking about it. 

[Preety_India]

I think the time has come to explore sexuality seriously at least in terms of spirituality. 

I can see so many similarities between sex and the universe. 

I wrote about this in the other journal. It was the inspiration for this journal. 

The universe as a primordial body arising from nothing and then suddenly exploding into creation. And the same goes for sex. Sex begins with nothing and then proceeds into climax and an explosion of feelings and of course the end result being fertilization. 

It's the same way. Everything is tantric. 

 

[Preety_India]

Sex is the inspiration for life. Sex is everything. 

Yet we tend to ignore it so much. 

It's the most important part of life. 

 

[Preety_India]

Sometimes when I was deep in my depression, I felt like sex was the only thing that made me feel good. I have no words to describe it. 

 

[Preety_India]

I feel like committing suicide. 

I just don't feel good anymore 

 

People are so judgmental. 

 

Edited February 17, 2021 by Preety_India