Becoming Fearless

[Christine Alaby]

We all seek the same thing: HAPPINESS

The true essence of happiness is to flourish and gain fulfillment and joy from what you GIVE TO the world as oppose to what you GET FROM the world.  

Once all of humanity realises this, then the Kingdom of God will awaken within us all. 

In November 2015 I made a vow that I would find true happiness. From the moment I made this vow, my life has been miraculously unfolding in ways I could have never imagined. Thus I write this journal to share my experiences as I embark on my commitment to life-long learning and a pursuit of self-mastery. 

I hope to be able to connect with people on this forum in order to disperse further wisdom, love and peace. 

As I follow the bliss that is within me I become more fearless. I am on a hero's journey and I am ready to fight my internal wars in order to enable me to impact the world with what I can authentically offer to humanity.

I have a long way to go, but I will not back down. For growth is an infinite process and fear is an illusion.

So bring on the challenge!

May peace, love and happiness be with you all!

My experiences so far as I awaken:

20th-21st January 2016 - what felt like a high consciousness dream

I had a dream. I am not even sure if it was a dream, but from what I could make of it, I was experiencing some sort of emotion. My heart was beating fast, and my body was shaking. It felt like I was having an anxiety attack. My thoughts were all over the place.

Then a peaceful voice inside me said: ‘now transcend it’. And at that moment, I felt a deep sense of inner peace and wholeness consume my entire body, both internally and externally.

I feel like it was a message. A message telling me that if I face challenges or hardships, I should accept them without judgement. Take responsibility of them and remain awake. Remain aware of my emotions and observe them. And from that awareness I call onto my inner being and transcend these emotions that would normally enslave me. I felt that with this knowledge, I could transcend anything. 

Has anyone ever experienced something like this before?

Physical experience (almost indescribable) 

I was in my bed, in a light sleep with thoughts fluctuating through my mind. Then something happened to my body. 

I believe I was laying on my back and all of a sudden I felt what I can only describe as my heart bursting open, causing a sensual blast of warm tranquil blood consume my entire being (es blood). It was as though my heart AND chest were previously confined in shackles of deep confinement, and were now unlocked into their true nature of pure peace. It was as though a strong shining light exploded in my chest. But it didn’t FEEL like an explosion. There was no pain of any sort. Just the feeling of wholesome bliss.

Since then. Truths of our existence have been revealing themselves to me, as though pieces of an infinite puzzle are slowly coming together.

What’s ever more strange, is that I feel all I am discovering is not new knowledge to me. It feels like I am remembering…

27/01/16 - Realisation that woke me up from my sleep 

It's hard to explain, but I didn't actually remember my dream. I just woke up randomly at 6am in the morning, turned on my laptop and typed this up:

Ego is developed as a mechanism to protect itself.

As an adult, the ego is immature. Still like a child in an adult body, refusing responsibility for own decisions and refusing/denies/resists having to deal with the consequences.

Believes in an ‘I’. This solid individual. Solid entity.

As adults we have an undeveloped ego (some more than others). We need to let the illusionary individual self-die. Rebuild the ego. Resist no longer. Take responsibility and ownership of your past experiences. Forgive yourself and learn to love yourself again.

Take the leap and follow your bliss in order to be in alignment with your true being. Take responsibility and deal with the consequences in order to regain power over your life.

Has anyone had an awakening experience that woke them up from their sleep before? 

 

 

[Christine Alaby]

Just now, Christine Alaby said:

We all seek the same thing: HAPPINESS

The true essence of happiness is to flourish and gain fulfillment and joy from what you GIVE TO the world as oppose to what you GET FROM the world.  

Once all of humanity realises this, then the Kingdom of God will awaken within us all. 

In November 2015 I made a vow that I would find true happiness. From the moment I made this vow, my life has been miraculously unfolding in ways I could have never imagined. Thus I write this journal to share my experiences as I embark on my commitment to life-long learning and a pursuit of self-mastery. 

I hope to be able to connect with people on this forum in order to disperse further wisdom, love and peace. 

As I follow the bliss that is within me I become more fearless. I am on a hero's journey and I am ready to fight my internal wars in order to enable me to impact the world with what I can authentically offer to humanity.

I have a long way to go, but I will not back down. For growth is an infinite process and fear is an illusion.

So bring on the challenge!

May peace, love and happiness be with you all!

My experiences so far as I awaken:

20th-21st January 2016 - what felt like a high consciousness dream

I had a dream. I am not even sure if it was a dream, but from what I could make of it, I was experiencing some sort of emotion. My heart was beating fast, and my body was shaking. It felt like I was having an anxiety attack. My thoughts were all over the place.

Then a peaceful voice inside me said: ‘now transcend it’. And at that moment, I felt a deep sense of inner peace and wholeness consume my entire body, both internally and externally.

I feel like it was a message. A message telling me that if I face challenges or hardships, I should accept them without judgement. Take responsibility of them and remain awake. Remain aware of my emotions and observe them. And from that awareness I call onto my inner being and transcend these emotions that would normally enslave me. I felt that with this knowledge, I could transcend anything. 

Has anyone ever experienced something like this before?

Physical experience (almost indescribable) 

I was in my bed, in a light sleep with thoughts fluctuating through my mind. Then something happened to my body. 

I believe I was laying on my back and all of a sudden I felt what I can only describe as my heart bursting open, causing a sensual blast of warm tranquil blood consume my entire being (es blood). It was as though my heart AND chest were previously confined in shackles of deep confinement, and were now unlocked into their true nature of pure peace. It was as though a strong shining light exploded in my chest. But it didn’t FEEL like an explosion. There was no pain of any sort. Just the feeling of wholesome bliss.

Since then. Truths of our existence have been revealing themselves to me, as though pieces of an infinite puzzle are slowly coming together.

What’s ever more strange, is that I feel all I am discovering is not new knowledge to me. It feels like I am remembering…

27/01/16 - Realisation that woke me up from my sleep 

It's hard to explain, but I didn't actually remember my dream. I just woke up randomly at 6am in the morning, turned on my laptop and typed this up:

Ego is developed as a mechanism to protect itself.

As an adult, the ego is immature. Still like a child in an adult body, refusing responsibility for own decisions and refusing/denies/resists having to deal with the consequences.

Believes in an ‘I’. This solid individual. Solid entity.

As adults we have an undeveloped ego (some more than others). We need to let the illusionary individual self-die. Rebuild the ego. Resist no longer. Take responsibility and ownership of your past experiences. Forgive yourself and learn to love yourself again.

Take the leap and follow your bliss in order to be in alignment with your true being. Take responsibility and deal with the consequences in order to regain power over your life.

Has anyone had an awakening experience that woke them up from their sleep before? 

 

 

Illuminate the world like the sun illuminates our onesong.  

[Guest]

Some things to consider as meditation:

On 2016-02-09 at 5:13 PM, Christine Alaby said:

I am on a hero's journey

Why not on your own journey?  Why add another false identity to the one you already are trying to understand?

On 2016-02-09 at 5:13 PM, Christine Alaby said:

I am ready to fight my internal wars

Can an internal war be resolved without fighting?

On 2016-02-09 at 5:13 PM, Christine Alaby said:

Believes in an ‘I’. (referring to ego)

Did you know that the word "ego" is Latin for "I"?

On 2016-02-09 at 5:20 PM, Christine Alaby said:

what I can authentically offer to humanity

Are you not humanity ?

On 2016-02-09 at 5:20 PM, Christine Alaby said:

follow your bliss

Did you know that this phrase originated with Joseph Campbell and it does not refer to following your fancy, that it does not mean following your personal ideas of what you think you should be doing.  Here is a quote by him:

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JOSEPH CAMPBELL: If you follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Wherever you are -- if you are following your bliss, you are enjoying that refreshment, that life within you, all the time.

How Joseph Campbell came up with his idea of "follow your bliss":

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Now, I came to this idea of bliss because in Sanskrit, which is the great spiritual language of the world, there are three terms that represent the brink, the jumping-off place to the ocean of transcendence: sat-chit-ananda. The word "Sat" means being. "Chit" means consciousness. "Ananda" means bliss or rapture. I thought, "I don't know whether my consciousness is proper consciousness or not; I don't know whether what I know of my being is my proper being or not; but I do know where my rapture is. So let me hang on to rapture, and that will bring me both my consciousness and my being." I think it worked.

   -- Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth, pp. 113, 120

You have many great ideas - do not get lost in them.

Joy

 

Edited February 13, 2016 by walt
typos

[Christine Alaby]

Hi Walt,

Thank you for taking the time to comment on my comments. 

I understand your analysis here. 

I am also aware of my rapture and so I am following it. 

Exactly has Joseph Campbell stated: 

If you follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Wherever you are -- if you are following your bliss, you are enjoying that refreshment, that life within you, all the time.

When I came to this realisation within me, by myself,  I experienced eudaimonia.

I also realised an intense love for life. And it keeps on growing every day. That is what I am following. 

In that following, I have made the boldest decisions in which I would have never let my past self even imagine.  

Self-discovery into the authentic self has no limits. 

What is the hardest for the mind to grasp is that there is in fact no 'I' and no 'self'.  We are in fact a thought experiencing life. 

Yet when 'my' ego discovered this, it felt liberated and awake, as though veils had been blocking its view to the ultimate truth from the very moment it formed itself. 

'My' ego appears very supportive of this path. For that 'I am' grateful. 

 

Edited February 15, 2016 by Christine Alaby

[Christine Alaby]

“The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are”. Joseph Campbell

 

Edited February 15, 2016 by Christine Alaby

[Guest]

Great!

Wonderful that you are so clear about all of this.

A refreshing approach.

Joy

 

[Christine Alaby]

Language is a major barrier when it comes to explaining the nature of being. But we can use no language to explain it. Just live it  

 

I laughed in agreement when I read this:

"Enough roundabout discussion of what makes a good man. Be one!" Marcus Aurelius - Meditations 

 

Thank you. 

All the best.

[Christine Alaby]

We are literally in God's dream! In a dream there is no concept of past and future! We need to surrender and let go! Live in the moment for that is where reality truly lies!  

If we don't surrender, then we remain lost souls constantly seeking our home in a state of dead sleep.