I wanted to share my enlightenment experience

[Seemore]

So okay I have been chasing enlightenment since I was about 18. I have been non-stop traveling the U.S. basically surviving minimalistically with no income whatsoever looking for a long term habitable spot within nature. I have seen some beautiful sights as well as not. During all this time I had one place I would talk to normal people online with my government 4gb phone. This place has kept me going many times just because of the things I would look back on that I have shared with everyone. Call it what you want but anyway I messaged this girl saying I would marry you, and she said on the main area not to joke around about marriage or something, anyway it became a back and fourth of us just pouring out our honesty for a couple years. We messaged a couple times, we both had been sharing pictures with everyone but we both knew who it was mostly directed towards. (I feel jittery now writing about this) I became so in tune with her and her multiple profiles seeing if it was her or not. Everything began to look like it was becoming directed at me on the chat site. I have over 6 years on this and basically I was starting to get really pissed off but in awe of this girl as well because she is really out of the box and probably does have like 15 accounts. I took a long break all the while thinking about all lol of it. Idk why I was so emotionally invested but I went back on and said something out out of near impulsion I said "so you created this place" all of a sudden my account was deleted instantly and I knew. I had a dream we were talking just barely like we were drugged almost and she wanted me to be there but when I stopped talking she was hurt bad and my testicles in real life hurt like they were being squeezed super hard I woke up and I still remember the pain. I wasn't going back for a while. But when I did I knew we wouldn't be together and I had to leave for good. I let everyone especially her know I didn't want to be there anymore, I posted enough to let her know I didn't feel manipulated or anything negative but I just felt it was time to grow up. So slowly I left and the day I did I remember right after my last post I had a rush of feeling content about everything. Soon after I felt extremely high for no reason. Just amazing. I believed I was in love with her and our souls emerged. I don't want to scare anybody but the freedom it brought to my mind was almost unbelievable. I was naturally high for a week or more. I was lead into a series of awakenings. Let's just say I had a very impulsive urge just to jump off of a cliff and die because I could hardly contain the love. The universe was speaking directly to my soul. I witnessed first hand.

[Seemore]

Oh and she said I saved her and she could feel my emotions wherever I was