My case against sexuality

[Kuba Powiertowski]

The only reason why are all here is LOVE. Race for LOVE. Who loves whom more. 
That would be nice. But one of the main reasons, if not the main reason for our existence here in THIS REALITY is passing on the genes. That's why we're all here, for sex. Race for sex. Who fucks whom more. And with "every new model of an iPhone" we become more and more primitive. New communication technologies have made it possible for marital infidelities on an unprecedented scale than ever before. Cheating on your spouse is slowly becoming nothing unusual. Universal access to pornography, all these applications like Tinder, Badoo, Tiktok show our true nature. Nature to fuck. Btw, imagine facebook, being just the book without the face:)
Anyway. It's nothing unusual. It's the very core of survival, of evolution, of natural selection. It is at the base of all our behaviors. It's built into power, money, everything. Nothing wrong with that. Or is it?
Believe me or not, I don't care really, but at the end of kindergarten when I was six, I started realizing how completely fucked up this all is. How extremely unfair. You may think, poor, ugly guy with miserable sex life. Sure, of course. But it's very the opposite. As women say, I was a very pretty boy, now at 43, tall well-built, very handsome, according to what I hear from women, leading successfully my own business, practicing "so-called extreme sport" for nearly 30 years. What else? Big dick? There You got it! 138 IQ, according to mensa testing. In a word, a cookie! No, it's a kind of a curse... Ok, stop this self-masturbation. I don't have a Facebook, Instagram (I have an empty account to access some climbing topos of my friends), I don't put my photos anywhere (my wife, maybe, if she puts some photos of us, or me, I don't know) I don't give a shit about it. Anyway, when I was in kindergarten I was picked up by probably the prettiest girl from my group to be her "husband" in a way that kids play the adult roles. I got another female friend at the time, that I didn't want to hurt, so I refused. And for the first time in my life, I felt a kind of sexual desire for that pretty one, in a very narrow sense, of course. Then the problem arose. Why, just why, for fuck sake, my friend was punished, in some way, for not being such an attractive one? For the same reason, why some people are simply punished for their physical appearance? Because that's how they were born in that way? It's not fair, it never was, and never be. As all this survival, natural selection, or "so-called" evolution.
I feel deeply against this state of affairs. 
For a few years now, I've been trying to practice sometimes, as I say, a conscious orgasm. Trying to observe what so amazing is happening during it. And You know what? There's nothing there. Nothing. A split second relief for tension in the nervous system. There's neither Love in it, nor during all sex. As sex is, especially for men, a road to orgasm,  a road to relieve tension. That's ALL. Everything else is a fairy-tale, even tantric love, sorry.
During trad climbing, highball bouldering, alpine climbing, You sometimes enter the level of hyper-awareness of mind and body, that gives You such incredible inner integrity, solidness, the peace that "there's no sensation to compare with this, suspended animation, state of a bliss" as Pink Floyd sings. And this "bliss" stays with me way, way longer. Gives me strength and motivation to be a better person. Sex never did anything alike for me.
When I meditate, when I go really deep, as I can, I cannot see the smooth connection between sex and True Love. Sex is always about duality, is always about the best, the sexiest ones. Sex is about the most fundamental attachments Your ego creates. True Love is nondual. It's about everyone, everything, it's about letting go. Going towards True Love is about exceeding the limitations of my body, is about leaving all this crap, that doesn't really matter, behind. That's true evolution. Everything else is nothing but lying to myself. 
You may disagree, I may be terribly wrong. 
But for now, that's the way I see things.

"tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound
misfit I"
I burn in hell anyway, someday...:)

[Emerald]

You're adding a lot of ideas onto sex. 

Sex is just as much part of one-ness as anything else is. And Tantra is about experiencing being the universe, playing itself out as a physical representation of Yin/Yang... the Dao. 

Now, we could say that people tend to be very dichotomous in their approach to sex. And sex is motivated by physicality and instinct on the more relative level. 

But even that more animalistic aspect of ourselves is part of that which is. There is no true dichotomy there.

[Kris Kolecki]

Everyone since childhood has some limitations, feels some kind (sometimes more than one) handicap. Seems that You have such blockage on combining love with sex (and sex with fulfilment) so that is obviously the topic for You to transcend (or more psychologically speaking - to heal). Any advanced techniques of tantric love are to be proceeded with easing one`s layers of unconscious shame. Maybe that`s the case here. Or maybe Emerald is wright - You simply put too many false assumptions on what sex is and should be, and should feel like.

[Kuba Powiertowski]

You both Guys have probably right about me, personally. The problem is I haven't reached it yet, or don't want to see, or simply I maybe got lost at some point.
But what I really wanted to point You, is that our sexuality must be taken seriously if we want to evolve as humans. 
Since the cognitive revolution fired up in our heads, we've become a truly murderous species. What makes us civilized now is this fragile structure called civilization that we created. I recommend Yuval Harari's book Sapiens. And his entire trilogy in general. We are still primitive creatures with supercomputers in our heads that we don't really know what to do with. For all the fantastic technology and knowledge we've discovered, we're closer to self-destruction than ever. Because we have not learned to fully consciously control our primitive instincts, among which the sex drive is the PRIMARY one. But I will develop this thought in a separate post.
Greetings to everyone

[Kuba Powiertowski]

And "it's high time, Cymbaline"!

[Kuba Powiertowski]

Think about this sentence by Thomas Campbell. This one from Big TOE. The reality, of course, at our basic level of consciousness, as a low entropy trainer for consciousness. Smacks of exact science, but I like it. On point