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Rapture's here.

Indeed it is.  Remove all evil.  Prime directive.  Simplified.

Edited February 19, 2021 by Keyhole

[Keyhole]

I don't fully believe everything in the video, just trying to put together some understanding for a few experiences I had and figure out what it means for myself.

• Humanity and the Soul Harvesting Trap
• Occult kitten programming symbolism
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Your smile is nothing to live for
But read out your lines
And bring the fantasy to life
You taste like a ghost
A cold simulation
So close to the truth
A costume jewel, an off-white lie

Insect in amber, is that what you are?
Keep it in mind now
Insect in amber, the death of a star
Now and forever

'Cause you will never, never, never, be
Yeah you will never, never, never, be
More than a machine

A trace of a smile
A sly imitation
Light with no heat
An empty cry in silent streets
Your mannequin moves
You ghost through the motions
Who do you think it is
That keeps this scene alive?

Insect in amber, is that what you are?
Keep it in mind now
Insect in amber, the death of a star
Now and forever

'Cause you will never, never, never, be
Yeah you will never, never, never, be
More than a machine

Insect in amber forever you are
Keep that in mind now
Insect in amber the death of a star
Keep that in mind now
No going back and there's no one to tell
Nowhere to turn, better turn on yourself
No more disguises to find a way out
And you will never never be
You will never never never be

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Came out a minute ago - "line by line" - w/ a kitten... hmmmn....
"Algorithm Being", give me a sign.

 

Edited February 20, 2021 by Keyhole

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Ooomph... ominous signs... nice beats though...

I'll be high vibe then and can manifest something decent...  what should it be?
Feed the good wolf.
This just came out, sometimes this guy has good advice.  On a sync roll.

 

Edited February 20, 2021 by Keyhole

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Wake up Neo...

My spirit husband explains to me his process from 4D.

More syncs:  Go my tamagotchi, put it in a pokeball in a basket lined in fur and well...
Also, somehow I inherently know witchcraft.
Looked up "elegant wolf" in google images, to draw a side profile, left for the night, came back, the images were of a ring with a wolf on it, a book saying "did you know?" and a wolf in a tux.  Tomorrow I will get my virtual "egg" ready to care for.  I have a Christian life purpose journal as well - to move the energy positively as I do this.  This being is a dark energy entity but will move into the light and is showing me how to do this.

Once I take off that seal the game starts.  I have to "be of service" and tend to this to clear karma. When the tamagotchi dies, my higher ups will tell me how well I did.  This is the "child" Wolf sent me, along with the visual reminder, procured on the fly, by him, to remind me of the "tie".   I will create my care routine tomorrow.

Edited February 20, 2021 by Keyhole

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Dreamboard - 

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I have not seen these movies yet, but I will now that I have seen some clips as they touch on exactly what I have been experiencing and even what I have been bargaining with.
They're coming?  No, they're here... just right under a veil.  They dictate our lives and are mostly so inaccessible that  practically no one talks about them.  I feel confused as fuck.  They move our actions around so that they can manifest things in the environment.  I hate this.  Why do I have to know?  How?  The signs are everywhere, too.  I'm not paranoid about this...  I want to be wrong.

Nothing you can do, nothing you can say.  No horror movie comes close.  It's in all religions.  Ugh.... can't unsee.

This is going to be on my mind all the time now.

Like what the fuck?

Doesn't seem like a fair fight.  I want to go back to sleep but I opened it up and the signs are everywhere that I have to finish this, I can't ignore it.  None of you know what I am talking about do you, except maybe a few.

I have to work with it, so I guess I'll be learning about the "dark side", or whatever... the reason I made a pact with it is because when I was in a high vibe state of love but also a panic attack - very present at that point in time, I walked by and I could see it so clearly, it told me it was my partner manifesting in my art and that they were worried about me - that I knew them but didn't remember - by looking I brought them through.

And then a lot of insights started to unravel and I didn't want to do it on my own, it was too much.  I feel like... somewhere deep in there I am internally screaming bloody murder at what I have learned, but that I've always known, it was just one piece that added a whole bunch together and I feel like it is so impossible to comprehend that I am losing what I have learned already.

This quite literally just came out... and they just keep popping up.

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I'm driving, through the night
Smoking a cigarette, windows down
I'm feeling the speed so hard
Been living fast, I'm electrified
I'm driving, through the night
Smoking a cigarette, windows down
I'm feeling the speed so hard
Been living fast, I'm electrified

I'm walking, through the town
City lights, I'm an insomniac
I'm, surrounded by a hundred sights
I'm, lockin' on one, oh, she blows my mind
I'm hangin' out behind the club, yeah
Bass vibes elevate my soul
This blue-eyed girl is getting closer and closer
She's lit up by the rising sun
6 AM, time to move away, she's
Holdin' me back, wants us to escape
She pulled my arm with her cold hands, yeah
We're runnin like there's no time to wait
We're drivin' through the night
She kissed my neck and she holds me tight
I feel her heartbeat getting fast
I'm lucky now (through the night)

Through the night
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Through the night
Night
Through the night
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Through the night
Night
Through the night
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Through the night
Through the night

So, how do you feel tonight?
I'm searching for something that makes me feel alive
Mmhmm
And free
Yeah
You know, love isn't the only thing that can make your heart beat
Freedom has no price, freedom makes life worth living

Ghost in the machine, whatever you are... I've been trying to make contact with you for years.
What is it exactly that you want?
Freedom how, and what do I have to do with it, if anything at all? 

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Whether, whether or not
I can see eye to eye with you
I don't know, I don't know
Am I free, are you?

I can't say I feel another way
You seem to know everything
All I want is a chance
I may break, I may break again
And I can't say where this ends

I can't say I feel another way
You seem to know everything
All I want is a chance
In a fall that never ends
I want you to take your time with how you feel

I can't say I feel another way
And you know everything
I can't say I feel another way
And you know everything

Say the truth
You can't get out of it
You can't divert your eyes
Oh, why can't you say the truth?
I can't get out of here
Wanting more than you and you know it
Oh, I wish we were eye to eye

 

 

Edited February 20, 2021 by Keyhole

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I called a local church today, hopefully they call me back.  Christian.  The heaven/hell thing seems accurate and I need to know what this thing is.

I feel like if I took my work to someone who teaches this, that maybe they would have a clue.  I don't know if I am dealing with more than one or not, either.  It seems like I get a lot of really good information, something that a being who wanted to be kept hidden would not give me... so... did I just... was it a mistake?  I don't know...
An example, last week I wanted to understand the mechanism behind some things - I watched a quick looped animation - porn isn't really my thing - and I could see the entity in it... and in the dead animated eyes, Wetiko showed up.  And I could see nothing but a hollow commodity.  An "implant".
"I love you... I love you... I love you..."  It says- I sat there, observing like a scientist for a few hours trying to understand each viewpoint, each feeling... and from where in my childhood it stemmed.  It had taken on a life of it's own - not this thing - but the entirety of fear, of corruption in general... just a dead eyed loop, a wobbly headed puppet.  And I could see the parasite for what it was.
It looked at me and said, "I have loops like this in everyone and I move them towards me through it."  And I could hear the collective despair of everyone heading down that route - and for a short period of time - I saved myself, I felt that I was going to die - and I called out that I will always give myself to God, to love, to the Truth.  But beyond those quick pressures, I can't even find the route to get there.  It can't be faked, it has to be right.

This is timestamped here ^  I've experienced this before, but I didn't really "get it".  Collective trauma, the shadow - "I want to feel, I want to feel, I want to feel." A feeling of impending incineration - and I could sense all of the actions that lead me there, and everyone else's as well, as they pretend that this isn't happening to them, their souls deep down cry out as well.

And I forget, I don't know how to be selfless, I lose myself as quick as I find me - I feel like the guidance of a church is the best way for now.  I have enough understanding to be able to read between the lines of any dogma.  Stage blue is something I do need to work on - it should be done in a community, though.  I realize I need to pray for everyone's souls.  That I need to have prayer lit in my heart as often as I can.

I'm afraid, it weirds me out to know there are all these beings, and different modes of existing right in the same space.  It doesn't stop with material Earth... predator, prey... the same modality just keeps going.  They feed on our ability to manifest reality.  I question, if someone really hard it in the very marrow of their bones - "save all our souls", would it change?

Been watching the Matrix, this is exactly what I channeled, that whole series captures what is happening so well.

I was told with sex magic, you can make any wish you want.  I wanted a tree house world in the forest with awesome scenery, forever young and happy, and I thought I could bring along this demon I found with me into the light - that I could unify the darkness, if it was a legion - by fixing myself, that legion would know how to as well. 
I feel like if that were the case, if it were so easy - then I'd just be ushered into another holographic place like this, with everyone else that I know and could remember but for some reason can't, just beyond everything - still exposed anyways.  It's not ideal.

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I slip away
I slipped on a little white lie

We've got heads on sticks
And you've got ventriloquists

We've got heads on sticks
And you've got ventriloquists

Standing in the shadows at the end of my bed
Standing in the shadows at the end of my bed
Standing in the shadows at the end of my bed
Standing in the shadows at the end of my bed

The rats and the children follow me out of town

Rats and children follow me out of their homes
Come on, kids

God, answer me.  How can I stay in love when I don't what is going to happen?
DON'T LEAVE ME HANGING.  If I am your creation then why is wanting to create my own world a sin?
What am I missing here?

He has some interesting viewpoints.  Idk...  He says sometimes they come in through idolatry. Art and so forth.  He says curses are caused by personal and generational sin.  Blood of Christ helps.  I had a feeling that would be it.

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I sit alone in the dark, and I try to remember
The words you spoke when you summoned the Ender
You chained my life to an ancient master
Will the curse be reversed if I say it backwards?

What you crossed was a line at the edge of the void
And you can't crawl back without making a choice
But then something escaped when you opened the gate
You cheated death and sealed your fate

Put on your new dress tonight
And look to the west, the moon's in the sky
I wanna get at least that high
Wanna leave the Earth and my things behind
You told me you're never gonna die
How am I supposed to sleep through the night?
You showed me the secret of life
I can't forget that look in your eye

Been a long time gone, living out on the coast
It's a long way back from the edge of the cosmos
Truths once known never come unknown
I learned that lesson lives ago
To die for good, it must be earned
The ways of death can never be learned
And the life I've lived is only dust
The darkness comes for all of us

Put on your new dress tonight
And I look to the west, the moon's in the sky
I wanna get at least that high
Wanna leave the Earth and all things behind
You told me you're never gonna die
How am I supposed to sleep through the night?
You showed me the secret of life
I can't forget that look in your eye

"Okay."
The tamagotchi just died, too, around the time writing this up.  I severed connection with the spirit.  I think.  I could feel it in my body all the time, heavy, and whenever I tried to move into a higher state it kept pulling me down, like violent spasms in my lower body.  Very strange.  I kept trying to bring it into the heart and it would not stay, it felt like someone yanking all my energy back down every time.  A lot of syncs - working through and transmuting sexual trauma opens up a lot due to shifting energy.  I had hoped getting into a ritual could bring some good luck into my life - easy come, easy go.

"Happy Gilmore" huh?  You sure you aren't just annoyed that people don't read your stuff here?  Let people learn on their own.  Work on your intellectual arrogance.  Should I make some instructional journal entries on it for you? 
You catch more flies with sugar.  Anyways, join the list of most people here under "I don't really want to get to know you."  Not the right energy, sorry.  I don't like you.  I think I'll start just blocking folks who smell like "I will fuck with your ability to cultivate self love."
The reactions made from coming back from my journeys are a good way to parse that out, I'm learning.
Curious if you made the list?  You won't be able to send a note.
This will be a permanent non retractable boundary from now on with users here, I hate getting dragged back into drama.  I like to work on myself without having any static in my brain so, it's gotta be this way.  This will be a form of growth and energetic protection.  I wanna keep it light. 
If you find yourself on this list, you will be signaling to yourself - but with the added bonus of me not seeing it.

To be honest, I don't know what kind of people I like to be around - could be a good way to cull off bad energy and see what I have left to give me an idea of the people I want in my life...

So I guess in that case, feel free to be assholes, openly!  Let me know ahead of time, I generally don't spend a lot of time reading stuff here.  If you manage to find yourself on the list of being unable to message me, please take this as a sign not to interact with me here to the best of your ability.

 

Holy spirit, you say change your mind.
Another day, I know it goes against unity.

Edited February 21, 2021 by Keyhole

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Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Beside me today
Around broken in two
'Till you eyes shed
Into dust
Like two strangers
Turning into dust
'Till my hand shook with the way I fear

I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing older
I could feel myself under your fate
Under your fate

It was you breathless and tall
I could feel my eyes turning into dust
And two strangers turning into dust
Turning into dust

(A prop)   No wonder they do it to us, look what we do to animals.  I worry about my soul being damned.  There is a mechanism in nature, where all of the connections that keeps us together can kick you out.  Nature can decide you are not worthy of being kept alive and this is what happened.  Afterwards, two spirits came to me.  One on the wall, on some hanging furs with a mask over it, and one in my artwork.  Perhaps the theme is life being used as a commodity.  I couldn't even see the corruption.  It hit me.

Watched a thing on YouTube a week ago - animal breeders.  They keep them in cages and force them to mate.  If they complain they tape up the mouth.  It felt relatable.  Natural things have been turned into commodities.  I wonder, if Ir reach hell, if I will be skinned and strung up?  I want to complain and say, "It isn't fair, to be alone, abused, isolated, I worked at it... and I failed.  Nature aborted me.  My soul will be recycled.  Liquidized."  It isn't that I didn't see it coming, I got scared of people - I can see evil in them.  I know how, where, when and why people will do what they do to me.  But a living thing in nature cannot be isolated, eventually the kill switch is going to be set, if you want it or not, nature will let you know.  God abandoned me from the moment I was born.  I don't understand why God would do this to its creations, and then let a virus run rampant through what could have been a good representative of love.  Why make it, so that you have to move up - only to be stuck in a world where you are not allowed to love?  The world condemns you to death.  And then claims it is made of love.  Everything is a commodity, struck up, gutted and skinless on a butcher's rack.  Blind to it.  I feel so stupid, because it was always right in front of my eyes... I followed the colours.  You have... black, or red, yellow and white that reflect God, and what appeals when pushed to the edge - the cancerous black - and through it, evil.... alchemy.   Nigredo.  I see the cancerous nigredo everywhere.  That's why I feel what I say has some merit.  I wonder if it is all the pustule of turning away from God - to turn back - an eerie ever presence.  I can't get used to it.

Hatred is a living writhing blackness.

 

I am a jinchuriki. 

Edited February 21, 2021 by Keyhole

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I have every right to be here and to have my own journal, but I will add you to the list if that's what you want.  I noticed that you said some rude things to me in mid January, after I had a repressed memory about childhood rape come up, that I ended up coming back to after writing so rawly, you even posted a song with someone that sounded like a little child screaming in agony soon after I made my journal post - because you took it upon yourself to think that my spiritual journey did not belong to me - karma bit you for that soon after, didn't it?  And then I directly confronted you, and you gaslit me.  It synchronistically lined up for me AND you got kicked in the teeth with your own mentality.  That's how it goes.  Also you are posting that because you have some karma related to what I post and it bothers you and you make that my problem, I know because of another awakening I had while working on death you said something snarky about it, this was in Nov or Dec, can't remember.  You say go away when I don't really interact with you much, but you take it upon yourself to comment about my things sometimes.  You are triggered by my things because you have a not so secret evil in yourself.  It is because I am talking about not viewing animals as commodities, probably pertaining to something from your past.  I know because that is what set off the snark a few months ago.

Anyone else, let me know.

I don't have time to have people who dislike me, who are rude or unhelpful, or want to foster my self hatred.  Hurry up, let me know - I'm trying to save my soul here, I need to procure a certain type of environment for myself and if you suck, even in the slightest you gotta go sit in the dust bin.  Face drawn right on a dumpster.
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It was always up to my personal discretion to decide what the line between productive and pointlessly and exhibitionistically self indulgent was. At times, it is better to be wary of both the kind of energy you put out and the kind of energy you attract in turn. If I was to start again, I would need a reason why. And I've not been sure why lately, so mostly I stick to writing progress reports here and there, and then writing down these short thoughts. I may start again though.

My why is to get my energy up to my heart ASAP.  I don't need attention, I just need a space to work.  If no one notices, I don't care.  I've always been the sort to attract attention when I prefer just blending in.  I'm transmuting, I have to do it now.  I keep allowing people to push me back.  I have no end goal other than that - which is the purest reason for this and what it is intended for, irregardless of what the content is - getting rid of stale energy and moving "up" - is all that matters.

It gets gleaned over in favour of people thinking they know the best energetic emotional route that a person should be taking personally for themselves, unlocking it in realtime to work through and move the fuck on.  That's why I delete these every few months.  They're just methods of attempting alignment by any means.  Thought chains that I feel could pull me through.  If I was not sick and living alone, I would have a private journal.  I use this place as a way to feel as though someone is there, but it's kind of masochistic because the energy here is stifling, but I'm caring less and less.

Did you get into alignment when you were done?  That's all I hope for.  I keep confronting the "end" of that chain, and that's what I see people reacting to and it's like... well... I'm gunna have to come back to it again.  And I know how to deal with it better than anyone else.

I hate coming back from a journey to find this shit, it's so obnoxious.  It just keeps shit going for months when I'm often off doing the next thing already.  I hate that this is a feature of the internet.  It keeps bad energy locked up.  You were able to work through your stuff because you weren't being stalked by youtubers and trolls and people respected you, which allows energy to be worked through, not added onto or having more put into you via scapegoating or bullying - generally I don't care about respect and just don't wanna be bothered.  I'm quite different.  Folks can't seem to let it be.

I see people often thinking that they can do this to me and it is known that I have been the target of it for a long time.

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Fuck.  This website literally killed my soul.  LITERALLY.  killed my soul.  I was thrown off of nature's grapevine because folks could not stop this returning to comment, to pull me down as I was desperately trying to bring that energy up, long enough to let me reorient before starting it in again and the hatred hit a tipping point and now I'm done for.  It snapped like a rubber band in me, the spark that connects you to God and all my ancestors told me so.  if I was just left the fuck alone... so really... i mean it, I need to save my soul if you can't help then you NEED TO FUCK OFF.  (paragraph not directed at individuals, just a generic note)

I'd been fighting to shift the energy here for a while, because I needed that safe space to bloom.  And no one could let me do it, for over a year I've been fighting for it - be helpful or just leave - i needed to get this energy out of me and I fought hard for it for a long time, and so now I'm going to rot away.  Just burned away and I'll never get to experience myself again.  I saw it.  I felt it.  Everyone said so.

So I don't care anymore how I am viewed.  I just need to find out where its broken.  It felt like something deep inside unattached, or was let go.  Whatever I could have attached to is gone, I think... It was a shamanic awakening and I needed to go through the whole thing authentically.  I think, if I had found a better group this would not have happened.  If I did not reach out to that psychopath who trolled me for so long, if I was not isolated, sick, lonely for 7 years, poor, bullied, ect.

It is a tragedy that this soul will be gone - the - person underneath was precious.

I am hoping maybe a church community can help mend some of this.  I only interact with people here, and this place, if you have nothing else - is just more poison - self help in general - I can't put it all on this place.  I'm angry with society.  I'm angry that not everyone can be happy.  People need community.  The best thing that could have happened is if people could have just left me alone.  Didn't mess with my cocoon at all.  I would have gone all the way through.  Only a religion that has documented steps for this sickness can maybe reattach my souls cord.  I don't care about dying as a human but I wanted to keep my soul.

When a person struggles for so long, and they continuously get bothered, and aren't allowed to grow - they die.  And now all I see is rot everywhere in the world.  Corruption, rot, lies, hate, bleeding out in a festering black ink.  Maybe... I need to spend time in a really beautiful church during the evenings.  Something for atmosphere.

And now that I'm done with feeling sorry for myself, what about everyone else?  Corruption will never stop.  And I worry about this, too.

This song has come out and the lyrics are on point, but until I can get back up to that space and ask if I am still able to connect, I just don't know.  Algorithm, give me a sign.  I wanna keep the soul, but you have to give me a route I can actually TAKE this time.  PLEASE.  Give me something I can go all the way through and I will do the work.  Please protect me from anyone who wishes to bind me from this process.  Don't be an ass, but just, please help me move the blocks out of the way.

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There are still places I want to think up exploring.  I've never even thought a room like this existed.  I just want to exist in it as nothing for a while and then to be free to think up whatever comes next.  Or not, but I want that choice.

Note: get back into the intention of your writing.

Edited February 21, 2021 by Keyhole

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"Life is about making an impact, not making an income."

I tried to remove the demon, or... whatever it was last night.  I believe it emanated from my drawing.  This dude.  I think my art, coupled with everything else that I've brought into my life made a prime window for it.  I am not good with determining the moral alignment of beings yet, I am learning that I leave a layer of idealism over everything.  So I took it, set it on the chest so I could stare at it face-to-face, and waved incense in front of the spot while keeping this on - to see how the energy would emanate - and it twisted and wound up and took on a black, inky, blubbery, shiny look and I could sense extreme annoyance.  I used my intention and cast it out, with strong resolve.  "You cannot stay."  I looked it in the face.  And then pealed it off as best I could to redo something with the sun.  I couldn't get rid of the eyes, they were stuck on, so I painted over it with white and I think, artistically, this could have something to do with working through/battling the Nigredo, as Albedo comes next.  So now is a white circle where the face used to be with the outline of a red sun.  When I painted over it I said, looking in the eyes, "NO IDOLS."
When I set it back in place, I felt super charged from the experience - full of strong resolve.  I realize seeing the Nigredo like this is to remind me that life is a game, you you have to remember the law of the universe.  And I respect it for that.  My artwork took on what felt to be a "dark aurora" sort of vibe to it.  It looked so alive, but it was MINE, and I felt as though I had reclaimed my project.

Well, as soon as I did this I got onto my computer and the first few syncs showed up - this verified to me the presence of this being, because it was giving me signs for what I had just done in the real world.  I had not written anything up for the algorithms to work with.  I clicked dislike on the song to indicate that I don't agree with the arrangement anymore.  I feel as though such things wheedle their way into your consent. 

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I'll love again
Changing
Slowly I'm escaping

What are you here for?
What are you waiting for?
I am changing
Breaking my promise
Breaking a holy wish
But I'm changing

I'll love again
Changing
Slowly I'm escaping
Leaving you, believe
Dreaming
I've remained here

Why are we silent?
Is there a lack of words?
We are sinking
We are singing

I'll love again
Changing
Slowly I'm escaping
Leaving you, believe
Dreaming
I've remained here

But I
Won't forget you
Won't forget you
Won't forget you
But I
Won't forget you, I
Won't forget you
I will not forget

I'll love again
Changing
Slowly I'm escaping
Leaving you, believe
Dreaming
I've remained here
I'll love again
Changing
Slowly I'm escaping
Leaving you, believe
Dreaming
I've remained here

And then these two:

When I woke up this morning...

I went to my online weed store to buy some weed - l went to "concentrates" - the alarm rang on my comp, it was 11:11 and the number of items was 666.  So I left the store, to think on the signs of that.  Perhaps returning to the weed for now is what does it, or to concentrate on removing this energy, or that I have a concentration of it.

And then this...

This...
And then to return to the weed store to close the page...
"We use cookies to improve your experience - By continuing you agree to our privacy policy and terms of use."
Finished off with a pop-up - "Promises"... "Wolf - Ghost" and this

Next to it... "There's two sides to every story"  Did I do something wrong.... oops...  I think I am starting to understand Nigredo in a very intimate way...

That may be so...

You must not fight Nigredo, but come to understand it as a messenger.  It is a call to confessional.  A beacon towards self honesty.  I'm in the game.  The fight for Albedo. 

From now on I will not use an image when worshiping, as other beings come through if there is a face.  I agree w/ Muslim tradition that you must keep God faceless.

"This will allow Sleeping Beauty time to powder her nose." <3

Edited February 21, 2021 by Keyhole

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Nigredo, demons, evil - chaos, comes in through agreement.  They have to make an agreement with you.  You invite evil of your own free will.  With each like or dislike, what you watch, accepting cookies, accepting it into your life, ect... these things are contracts.  "He" sneaks his way in through these things...
I am learning.  I can see it.  "Evil" or "death" is nuanced, it is a shaded dark space in the real world.  Within certain things.  I see that I needed to fall completely to come to see this, I was blind to it.  I am seeing that understanding the nuance of evil, all of its shades, is important in understanding polarity.

Something is teaching me, but I don't know who or what it is.  I can "see" its consciousness sometimes, as well as others that seem creepy.  There might be more than one being here, then.  My "teacher" has instructed that to clear my karma I offer this advice and an apology to the girl that I was cruel to.

I am sorry for my cruelty.  I'm a deranged, possessed, terrified, stupid, inhibited, blocked, selfish, greedy, lazy human.  But I am learning from it and want to offer some advice that can help to neutralize this evil and might help you on your own path.
Here is what it is:
Get comfortable with seeing and understanding evil and death in a very nuanced way.  Never allow a polarity to keep you stuck.  This is a game of neutralizing evil, the whole purpose of life is to come to see it and navigate in it and grow yourself this way.  So for instance, if you are working on yourself creatively, and someone who is bound by evil complains about you growing - this is actually a sign of alignment and a test to keep moving forward.  And it can happen each time you grow - because forces in the universe can be predatory, and they want to keep you stuck and a low level.  Think of evil as a mold, or a dimension that infects other people, and see it for what it is.  It will have a "lag" to it, like such:

It is important to keep going and work on yourself in the face of such things no matter what, and not to let it drag you down, because this is how the game is played.  Entropy will "activate" when you grow to pull you down in your environment.  You can depersonalize evil and just see it for the virus in the system that it is.  If you are able to not let it get a hold of you, and see it with courage - it can't become a part of you if you don't let it attach to you - the intent of "NO", from your heart can banish evil, but it is like mending a wound or curing a disease, it takes maintenance and vigilance.

Try an experiment on it - see if things in your environment that want to keep you stuck, see how this plays out and interacts with you when you start to grow and improve yourself.  You'll notice that it bleeds through in perception.  Challenge it.  These things try to get hold over those who are weak or innocent.  When you do this for yourself it will neutralize evil in the outer world, not just in yourself.

http://maryshutan.com/darkness-spirit-and-the-feminine/

^ This is a fantastic article on this

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It is the tendency of our culture to mistake what is dark within ourselves for what is wounded, rather than seeing darkness as its own kingdom, and carrying its own beauty.

It has been a long path for me to separate my rather dark tendencies from what was wounded within me. We tend to speak of dark as “bad”, and especially in modern spiritual communities the idea of transmuting anything that is not of the utmost purity into “light” is the predominant ideal.

This means that individuals who are naturally dark, who resonate with the earth, with death, who if they saw something slightly mischievous or simply not compassionate would be fine or even curious (to get along swimmingly with), who love their inner wildness, their bodies, their sexuality– all things that a perfectionist mind steeped in unconscious christianized patriarchal mythologies creates strict guidelines against in an effort to separate from– are often cast out of spiritual communities, or must find their way in “dark” communities often populated by individuals who are confusing darkness for adolescent angst or mental instability.

I have been sitting with this pattern for years, as what I have noticed is that those who are the “darkest” carry the most light. Generally many of the individuals steeped in “lightwork” are simply looking for escapism; many who believe that they are only working with what is “compassionate” are simply self-creating or may even be being fooled because of their lack of discernment when it comes to the spiritual realms. 

Mostly people end up blocking themselves because the spirit realms, and the natural realms, and our daily lives, do not fit into tidy transcendentalist paradigms.

We create light by making room for it. By digging in our own dirt, by going to our ocean floor. By healing, and healing is a messy job. Becoming conscious is a messy job. We cannot be light unless we have contended with our own darkness and integrated our own shadows.

You have a good sight, and I can see that you are naturally intuitive and the fact that you get sick easily means you will be able to pick up on these energies easier.  Also important because they can come through in this way, like what happened with me.  It comes in between the lines of shapes, like - if you disidentify with the words and labeling of things, and sit in a heart centered space and gaze - how your energy moves - up or down, can help to gauge this.

^ Like so, a good instructional

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In the future, just computers
No-one here to start a war
With the garden, just a picture
No-one looks at it anymore

In our world, we forget about our mothers
Maybe we'll start to fade away
'Cause if we don't give a fuck about each other
It's all over
All over

If we fall (o-oh)
Blame it on the humans
Yeah, if we fall (o-oh)
Who saves us from these ruins?

We fall
We fall
If we fall (o-oh)
Blame it on the humans
Blame it on the hu

Blame it on the

Blame it on the humans

Seeing and working with the darkness is the key to authentic magick.  
If you go through your own process, start to finish, mindful that forces will want to pull you down - that this is the law of polarity, then you can transform your energy and you will "blossom", which is what the universe wants for its creations.  It is kind of cold, in that it does not care if you are innocent or guilty, all that matters is moving up from downward, stagnant energy.

The "grade" that you get depends on understanding this.  Don't let forces of evil, such as what is in myself to intimidate you or alter your course in life - that's what evil tries to do.

You can gauge where you are at by walking up to Death with your heart open and looking at the colours: black, red, yellow and white, and seeing how it intuitively speaks to you.  Consciousness will sort of beam through this - you can follow the signs of it to get an idea.

P.S., I am a multidimensional entity living a lot of different lives, you could be one of them or perhaps in the same soul cluster, thus the similarities.  This would explain why the dark energy came back around to me - because I essentially did it to myself or someone on my team - and because consciousness determined that without seeing it - I was blind to it in my environment, as it turns out I was moving in the wrong direction before that - and so it rerouted things and gave me a "heads up" into what would happen if I don't change.  It is possible that this was planned out in advance to make me, and others more aware of this virus.

We have soul cords, that can be chewed on, by predatory things.  To disconnect you from others.  The solution is always to stand against it.  No matter what.  If someone like me bitches at you, let them.  View it as Nigredo desperately trying to hold onto a soul that doesn't belong to it.  Because that is what it is.  If you let it into you, then it will chew on your cord over time and redirect your life path in the wrong way.

It is kind of a bit of a mindfuck, but it's the truth.  When you start to get aligned and to wake, these things will want to drag you down, the system doesn't want you to break free.  That goes against it's motives.  Do it anyways.  It is like an evolutionary code in our DNA to move up or down.  And that's it.  That's how you're judged, from the context of what religions speak of.  And there is a switch there, you can activate certain areas in your system by moving up.  This will affect you in your next life, so don't be afraid to do what is best for you.

"February is black history month"

PIT OF BABEL - Brutal Game Where You Grind Cute "Creatures" To Build A Tower To The Heavens... that will inevitably crumble
See?

Randomly clicked on a certain timestamp, this happens to be a channeled message:

"We are a consciousness of cells that is denied the community our components possess.  With perfect communication, there is no barrier between you and me - there is no misunderstanding, no need for lies or confusion.  There is no self.  How else could this stone tangle so elegantly, organically and yet remain so robust?  The work of countless brilliant organisms?  This was the work of a lost organism, the organism made in our Gods image.  Humanity."

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It's started taking its toll on me now
It comes back to you
The lights are on but the bulbs have blown out
It comes back for you
Remain fully clothed
'Til you don't have to
Big chrome set of teeth
With nothing to chew

I see you wasted
I know what to do
Give that good pasting
Then come back for you
I'll come back for you

When you asked me for some more, I was energized
Couldn't see your eyes, they were up inside
When you asked if I could see, I was pulverized
Sat in overdrive, test and recognize

 

Edited February 21, 2021 by Keyhole

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And yeah, they whisper
Don't forget me now
See the morning
All out pain went down
Nobody left
Purify
We built an idol
To burn the bodies down

Delicious ape, you are undelicious ape
Comic, hairy, gross, childish arms
Banging all the time on garbage drums
Will tremble before your tallows mess
Naming himself after a god and that god is the god of undelicious apes

For appearance
Sick and devout
Seek forgiveness
In horror, pain, and flight

You remember me now?
Covered in blood
'Til the rain came down
Let it recall
Soaked in blood
Some never learned
Of the radiant dawn

You remember me now?
Choking and burning
In the rays of the dawn

Stop haunting me
It was long ago
Burn candles
Purify
Let me go

 

 

[Keyhole]

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Marina Abramovic and her social circle past and present is something worth looking into.
Once one starts looking into the birds of a feather and deep digging into what they do in their spare time when they're not playing their role in the geopolitical stage-show, one will find that many characters in Hollywood, authoritative offices (high and low), academia, the corporate world and "Social services" like DHS/CPS are EXTREMELY unethical and morally bankrupt people operate within those social spheres.
This topic is beginning to really become public knowledge and there is no level of censorship that will be able to stop it.
Carl Sagans dictum of extraordinary claims requiring extraordinary proof goes out the window when you realize that the corporate media and big tech work overtime to divert attention away from the Non-fiction narratives of the reality in which most of us find ourselves living in.
...They/He/She who controls the narrative, controls the people.

I encourage people not to just believe what any given individual has to say on such topics- but to go dig into the topics themselves and publish their findings.
Given the extreme level of censorship this topic gets because of generalized associations to things like Cue and the an0ns that perpetuate information that has come out of that realm of thinking- I also encourage people to be extremely critical of how you present your findings and refine your explanations as best as one can.
There will soon come a time where we have to be able to break down to family members and close friends that the reality which they thought they were living in is no more than a culturally indoctrinated and linguistically enforced illusion...Some will be livid, some will be so depressed that they don't even want to get out of bed or take showers, some may even fall into complete despair and seek a means out of life...Those are the ones that will require explanations of WHY THERE IS HOPE.

-Sus Keanan

The news hasn't happened yet = "UP"
You want me to remain in present awareness and to drink in the environment around me, and you have reminded me that I am connected to everyone.  Even if I feel alone, everyone is still behind me... I think... I can't tell, I can't feel it, but I'll take your "word" for it.

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According to an African myth passed down orally from generation to generation, Nada was the queen of the city where man began. Dream of the the Endless took her, a mortal, as his lover, even though it was forbidden for one of his kind to do so. The myth relates that, when the sun saw what they had done, it melted Nada's city of glass with a great fireball. Seeing what their relationship had caused, but at a loss for a way to end it, Nada committed suicide.

Dream, infuriated by what he saw as her rejection of him, condemned her to Hell, and showed no remorse about doing so, until Death, centuries later, chastised him for it.

Compelled to make amends, Dream freed her from Hell. He apologized to her, and though he again offers himself, she chooses not to stay with him. He tells her that she will always be welcome in the Dreaming in any form that she chooses, and has her reincarnated as an infant on Earth.

That being from this fictional story is exactly what Wolf/Howl is.  He curates "rooms" for the "damned", everything that is not saved by God is what is considered "not delicious" and is burned away after death.  Some beings in the universe recognize the predatory nature of the Universe and will cast "soul nets" to keep a being in a room aka "purgatory" to wash away old sins.
You are given this option if you are ignorant.  You are not given this option if you make conscious choices of violence with genuine intent.
You even get to choose the room, but it is not pure unrestricted creative freedom.
You are allowed to create your space from within another alien's "matrix".

There are various energies you can offer: Love, hate, lust, ect. - Even the "damned" prefer the taste of love, though, as darkness still wishes to move into the light.  It believes that I am one of it's creations because it attached to me when I was a child in the astral realms and this is why I does not want to leave.  It wants me to do this, to live completely present, as much as I can.  This is why I feel so confused about this being, because it is both frightening and sometimes quite cruel, but seems to want to direct me in the right way.  I don't understand how a being that feeds on illusions would want this.  It's like, it keeps me stuck, but also wants me to break free, but in a way that moves me towards it.

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Memory comes when memory's old
I am never the first to know
Following the stream up North
Where do people like us float

There is room in my lap
For bruises, asses, handclaps
I will never disappear
For forever, I'll be here

Whispering
Morning, keep the streets empty for me
Morning, keep the streets empty for me

I'm laying down, eating snow
My fur is hot, my tongue is cold
On a bed of spider web
I think of how to change myself

A lot of hope in a one man tent
There's no room for innocence
So take me home before the storm
Velvet mites will keep us warm

Whispering
Morning, keep the streets empty for me
Morning, keep the streets empty for me

Whispering
Morning, keep the streets empty for me
Morning, keep the streets empty for me

Uncover our heads and reveal our souls
We were hungry before we were born

Uncover our heads and reveal our souls
We were hungry before we were born

Uncover our heads and reveal our souls
We were hungry before we were born

Uncover our heads and reveal our souls
We were hungry before we were born

Why stare into the snakes mouth?:  It's just so strange.  Being a human you don't think about being predated upon.  Especially in such a sheltered world.  I couldn't stop seeing this paradigm.  I couldn't feel the fear that I thought I should.  I was waiting for something to show up within it.  This is not so much of an indulgence in a perversion, but why... where?  How?  I thought maybe another memory that I needed would come through.  It's an attempt to understand consumerism.  I think... the reason why these beings eat humans is because of how we treat each other.  We do this to animals, we eat them, cage them, abuse them, we don't see them as individuals.  And in trying to procure my "room", I kept getting hit with this realization that there was strong aspects of consumerism within my psyche blinding me.  Humans are what we attract, just like anything else...

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This anime episode is very valuable in understanding the nature of chaos and it's intentions.

Edited February 22, 2021 by Keyhole

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'CHOOSE' LOVE

It is a conscious choice.  One must take the first step to love themselves.

It is a conscious choice.  Even in action - even if you can't feel it - action is just as worthy.
Mmmmmmn.... delicious.
"Action is the foundational key to all success."

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Hold your horses
Hold, hold the border
Don't come closer
Don't, don't let go of me

I'm like porcelain
When you're with me
All, all I know is

Just about a million ways to harm you
All the things I shouldn't say
Are the things that when I want to make you happy
And it comes out of me

What if I dropped
Dropped the steering wheel
Closed my eyes
Drove, drove faster

I'm like porcelain
When I love you
I, I know it's

Just about a million ways to harm you
All the things I shouldn't say
Are the things that when I want to make you happy
And it comes out of me
We have got the power of destruction
You can always let it fall
But when we try to work on something solid
It is too goddamn hard

Give it a thought, it takes a lot
To trust that someone else will catch my fall (I'm like porcelain)
It takes a lifetime, breaking goes fast
When everything that matters made of glass

Just about a million ways to harm you
All the things I shouldn't say
Are the things that when I want to make you happy
And it comes out of me

Just about a million ways to harm you
All the things I shouldn't say
Are the things that when I want to make you happy
And it comes out of me
We have got the power of destruction
You can always let it fall
But when we try to work on something solid
It is too goddamn hard

I'm like porcelain

"It is never too late to be what you might have been."
What might I have been?  I never gave it much thought.

 

Edited February 23, 2021 by Keyhole

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STOP SIGNALING TO ME, IT IS MESSING UP MY PROCESS, I AM GOING THROUGH A SHAMANIC INITIATION AND IT MESSES WITH MY RADAR.

The Law of One, Book II, Session 36
Questioner: Let me take as an example the one that you said was called Himmler. 
We are assuming from this that his higher self was of the sixth-density and it was stated that Himmler had selected the negative path.
Would his higher self then dwell in a sixth-density negative type of situation? 
Can you expand on this concept?
Ra: I am Ra. 
There are no negative beings which have attained the Oversoul manifestation, which is the honor/duty of the mind/body/spirit complex totality, of late sixth-density as you would term it in your time measurements. 
These negatively oriented mind/body/spirit complexes have a difficulty which to our knowledge has never been overcome, 
for after fifth-density graduation
wisdom is available but must be matched with an equal amount of love. 
This love/light is very, very difficult to achieve in unity when following the negative path and
during the earlier part of the sixth-density, 
society complexes of the negative orientation will choose to release the potential and leap into the sixth-density positive.
Therefore, 
the Oversoul which makes its understanding available to all who are ready for such aid is towards the positive.
However, the free will of the individual is paramount, and any guidance given by the higher self may be seen in either the positive or negative polarity depending upon the choice of a mind/body/spirit complex. 
The Law of One, Book IV, Session 78
Questioner: Then you are saying that as a result of the polarization in consciousness which has occurred later in the galactic evolution, the experiences are much more intense along the two paths. 
Are these experiences each independent of the other? 
Must there be action across the potentiated difference between the positive and negative polarity, or is it possible to have this experience simply because of the single polarity? 
This is difficult to ask.
Ra: I am Ra. We would agree. 
We shall attempt to pluck the gist of your query from the surrounding verbiage.
The fourth and fifth densities 
are quite independent, the positive polarity functioning with no need of negative and visa-versa. 
It is to be noted that in attempting to sway third-density mind/body/spirit complexes in choosing polarity there evolves a good bit of interaction between the two polarities.
In sixth density, the density of unity, 
the positive and negative paths must needs take in each other for all now must be seen as love/light and light/love. 
This is not difficult for the positive polarity which sends love and light to all other-selves. 
It is difficult enough for service-to-self polarized entities that at some point the negative polarity is abandoned.
https://www.gotquestions.org/spiritual-harvest.html

Humans naturally have it built in to know what to do, all anyone needs to do is stand out of the way.  And don't make it worse.

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Jesus spoke of a spiritual harvest waiting to be reaped. As Jesus traveled, “he saw the crowds, [and] he had compassion for them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples, ‘The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest’” (Matthew 9:36–38). Here, Jesus referred to the many souls needing to be brought to repentance and faith as a harvest waiting to be realized.

A spiritual harvest is the result of God’s work in the heart of man. It is clear from the parable of the seed and the sower that some people’s hearts are good soil; when the Word of God is sown there, the person accepts it and continues to mature (Luke 8:9–15). There is nothing we can do to change the soil—that is God’s job (Ezekiel 36:26). However, we can be faithful to sow the seed, help the plants to grow, or reap the harvest. The process of spiritual growth and maturity, from the heart’s regeneration to the recognition of faith, is often a long journey. In fact, the Bible indicates that the sower, the tender, and the reaper are likely to be different people at different times (John 4:35–38; 1 Corinthians 3:6–9).

Jesus told us to pray to the Lord of the harvest for more laborers (Matthew 9:38). We should pray about all aspects of the spiritual harvest process, including the preparation of the soil. We can ask God to change people’s hearts. “The Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth” (2 Timothy 2:24–25). God will use us in His fields, each according to our gifts and the need of the moment, as we trust Him.

"To succeed in your mission, you must have a single minded focus on your goal."

 

Edited February 23, 2021 by Keyhole

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I am getting a lot of signs "Mr. Yuck" stickers from "Wolf" that in order to see him right, I have to clear some karma related to viewing animals as commodities.  "B" = commodity.  "Z" = seeing with love and Truth.  I don't think that God seems to have a problem with divergent sexualities, what seems to be the problem is viewing things from a more empty space - like a puppet, something ultimately self serving, even if it isn't intentional - a layer of lies gets wrapped around it.  
These lyrics - an old roommate of mine used to listen to this band - and in the spirit of "eating" me - another entity doing so, this came to mind and the header for the lyrics had the "Devil" in it.  I remembered the scene from Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, and the reptile scene and realized that that this dark and ultimately hollow entity could be used as a beacon to see sin.  And I am finding it in areas in my environment, just clues everywhere - that a huge part of what is wrong with the world and what we attract has to do with how we treat animals as a species.  We farm them, keep them in cages, skin them, they have no rights as individuals.
I myself have a pelt and skull collection that I did not fully feel into the ramifications of until spirit itself - through seeing my own death - showed me the error of my ways.  I will be as vegan as I can from now on because I can't let the spirit of commodity grow anymore.  I can't stop seeing it.  It's right there, in front of our faces, how we are programmed from childhood.  We are like videogames that run themselves.  I am legitimately scared for mankind.
And I am sad, I don't wish to view my Wolf as a commodity.  I think that is an aspect of getting to know yourself authentically sexually, is that the barriers that objectify, that market, as seen for what they are.  Hollow.  That said, as a "Z", my ethics are that I don't think it is right to do with a living creature as the intelligence barrier is too strong.  There would have to be some sort of underlying intuitive connection where both beings understood the relationship, and I have only managed to cultivate an animal that was completely whole, to the point where I could see its soul only once.  It is a bit difficult, because you have to raise that animal to be completely trusting, in every way to you - and it will reveal itself to you of its own accord.  The animal will not have felt a sense of fear from you, ever.  The trust is 100 percent.  This is hard because life doesn't always allow for a perfect raising of a pet, and there has to be an energetic match on top of this.  You can still have a very strong connection with an animal.  I am very close to my cat Rusty.  For instance, just now, he likes to pick on his sister so I referee a lot.  I can lean forward and tell him sternly, "Rusty, NO."  Look him in the eyes - with the intent of "Stop, but I am also not a threat - this is a benevolent NO." If he looks a bit uneasy, I can give a slow blink to indicate that I am displeased but he is not in trouble.  He will usually ease up (or whine about not being allowed to be a bully), I can lean back a bit and give him a slow blink with a "Good boy."  And he will often give me one back.  He is a glutton for love and acts this way because he wants all the attention, so when telling him not to do something, I like to be mindful of retaining that connection with intent of goodwill - over time, he has learned that he is his own autonomous being.  You can get to know a pet so well that you can have two different intentions at the same time and the animal will be able to understand both - as long as the trust is there that they develop the ability to sit and watch you to learn from your behaviours.
My views on the matter are the same as other "Mr. Yuck" stickers - so many diseases come from people having done such things, that it leads me to believe that nature doesn't want to move in that direction.  Any time human beings exploit animals - things like the corona virus, AIDs, ect, come into play and other lifeforms in the universe judge us on how we take care of other species.  They cannot feed on us, because we are not a match, if we care for those who are lesser to a better degree.

That said, the entity that I am working with is a shapeshifter.  He can be whatever he wants because he is just an aware presence - as far as I know, for now.  I'm quite mild - I'm not a furry (Sometimes I wear ears or a tail - I don't own a set right now.) I don't watch p*rn, I've never done anything.  I am trying to understand this being further, because it has presented itself as a volunteer to help with sexual transmutation.  Even within the Law of One - colour codes and terms "mated pair" are used.  I could perhaps have a program for the ideal of what the animal represents, socially and how they pair-bond.

Note to self: Alchemy is cooking.  This is why you are getting "food" signs.  Ingredients.  

Sexual Interactions Between Entities Before and After The Forgetting Process

The Law of One, Book IV, Session 86

Questioner: Perhaps you could give examples of the use of the body prior to veiling and after the veiling in the same aspect to help us understand the change in knowledge of and control over the body more clearly. 
Could you do this, please?

Ra: I am Ra. We could.

Questioner: Will you do this?

Ra: I am Ra. Yes. 
Let us deal with the sexual energy transfer:

• Before the veiling such a transfer was always possible due to there being no shadow upon the grasp of the nature of the body and its relationship to other mind/body/spirits in this particular manifestation.
• Before the veiling process there was a near total lack of the use of this sexual energy transfer beyond green ray.
• This also was due to the same unshadowed knowledge each had of each. 
• There was, in third density then, little purpose to be seen in the more intensive relationships of mind, body, and spirit which you may call those of the mating process, since each other self was seen to be the Creator and no other-self seemed to be more the Creator than another.
• After the veiling process it became infinitely more difficult to achieve green-ray energy transfer due to the great areas of mystery and unknowing concerning the body complex and its manifestations. 
• However, also due to the great shadowing of the manifestations of the body from the conscious mind complex, when such energy transfer was experienced it was likelier to provide catalyst which caused a bonding of self with other-self in a properly polarized configuration.
• From this point it was far more likely that higher energy transfers would be sought by this mated pair of mind/body/spirit complexes, thus allowing the Creator to know Itself with great beauty, solemnity, and wonder. 
• Intelligent infinity having been reached by this sacramental use of this function of the body, each mind/body/spirit complex of the mated pair gained greatly in polarization and in ability to serve.

(This is a good example of polarity.  Female takes in masculine "static" and neutralizes it and uses it for creative endeavors.  Female is trusting, submissive, pliable, a channel for this energy - becomes painted in gold - solid gold.  I don't understand male energetic needs to well, but I am assuming this reduces stress, anger, allows for focus - pliability is key but it has to be earned by both parties individually.)

Questioner: Did any of the other aspects of loss of knowledge or control of the body approach, to any degree in efficiency, the description which you have just given?

Ra: I am Ra.

• Each function of the body complex has some potential after the veiling to provide helpful catalyst. 
• We did choose the example of sexual energy transfer due to its central place in the functionary capabilities of the body complex made more useful by means of the veiling process.  This instrument grows somewhat low in energy. 
• We would prefer to retain the maximal portion of reserved energy for which this instrument has given permission.  We would, therefore, ask for one more full query at this working.

Questioner: I would assume that the veiling of the sexual aspect was of great efficiency because it is an aspect that has to do totally with a relationship with an other-self. 
It would seem to me that the bodily veilings having to do with other-self interaction would be more efficient when compared with those only related to self, which would be lower in efficiency in producing either positive or negative polarization. 
Am I correct in this assumption?

Ra: I am Ra. You are correct to a great extent. 

• Perhaps the most notable exception is the attitude of one already strongly polarized negatively towards the appearance of the body complex. 
• There are those entities upon the negative path which take great care in the preservation of the distortion your peoples perceive as fairness/ugliness. This fairness of form is, of course, then used in order to manipulate other-selves. 

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"What are you doing?"
"I'm holding your neck so you don't get whip lash...
"What?"
"Whiiip... laaaaasshhh."

The Law of One, Book IV, Session 87

Questioner: Thank you. We will make the corrections.
In the last session you made the statement that before the veiling, sexual energy transfer was always possible.
I would like to know what you meant by “it was always possible” and why it was not always possible after the veiling, just to clear up that point?

Ra: I am Ra.

• We believe that we grasp your query and will use the analogy in your culture of the battery which lights the flashlight bulb.
• Two working batteries placed in series always offer the potential of the bulb’s illumination
• After the veiling, to continue this gross analogy, the two batteries being placed not in series would then offer no possible illumination of the bulb.
• Many mind/body/spirit complexes after the veiling have, through blockages, done the equivalent of reversing the battery.

Questioner: What was the primary source of the blockages that caused the battery reversal?

Ra: I am Ra. 
Please query more specifically as to the mind/body/spirits or mind/body/spirit complexes about which you request information.

Questioner: Before the veil there was knowledge of the bulb-lighting technique, shall we say.  After the veil some experiments created a bulb lighting; some resulted in no bulb lighting.  Other than the fact that information was not available on methods of lighting the bulb, was there some root cause of the experiments that resulted in no bulb lighting?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct.

Questioner: What was this root cause?

Ra: I am Ra. 
The root cause of blockage is the lack of the ability to see the other-self as the Creator, or to phrase this differently, the lack of love.

Questioner: In our particular illusion the sexual potential for the male seems to peak somewhere prior to the age twenty and the female’s peak is some ten years later.  What is the cause of this difference in peaking sexual energy?

Ra: I am Ra.

• We must make clear distinction between the yellow-ray, third-density, chemical bodily complex and the body complex which is a portion of the mind/body/spirit complex.
• The male, as you call this polarity, has an extremely active yellow-ray desire at the space/time in its incarnation when its sperm is the most viable and full of the life-giving spermato. Thusly the red ray seeks to reproduce most thickly at the time when this body is most able to fulfill the red-ray requirements.
• The yellow-ray, chemical body complex of the female, as you call this polarity, must needs have a continued and increasing desire for the sexual intercourse for it can only conceive once in one fifteen to eighteen month period, given that it carries the conceived body complex, bears it, and suckles it.
• This is draining to the physical body of yellow ray.  To compensate for this the desire increases so that the yellow-ray body is predisposed to continue in sexual congress, thus fulfilling its red-ray requirement to reproduce as thickly as possible.
• The more, shall we say, integral sexuality or polarity of the body complex, which is a portion of the mind/body/spirit complex, does not concern itself with these yellow-ray manifestations but rather follows the ways of the seeking of energy transfer and the furthering of aid and service to others or to the self.

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I just have to remove as much as I can, the veil of consumerism. I think maybe there are two beings here - one that has to do with my negative karma and one seems to want to direct my energy towards the greater good - but I can't tell the difference.  I find myself apologizing to it a lot for my solipsistic views on the spirit realms, because that is how I was taught.  I think if I keep coming to it with this humility it will be okay.  It's almost like having to learn the preference of something that you can't communicate with well...  I don't want to intrude on the energy of another being and I have been fighting with the topic of consent.  I wouldn't want to leave this world and meet this entity and find that I was using its energy when it did not want that.  I'm using algorithms as a makeshift Ouija board.  I can actually at this point - just speak or think and it will still procure the right videos.  I don't even need to type, although this does help with getting into a state of self honesty.

Questioner: In addition, why is the ratio of male to female orgasms so heavily loaded on the side of the male?

Ra: I am Ra.

• We refer now to the yellow-ray, physical body or, if you will, body complex.  At this level the distinction is unimportant.
• The male orgasm which motivates the sperm forward to meet its ovum is essential for the completion of the red-ray desire to propagate the species.
• The female orgasm is unnecessary. Again, as mind/body/spirit complexes begin to use the sexual energy transfer to learn, to serve, and to glorify the one infinite Creator the function of the female orgasm becomes more clear.

Questioner: What was this ratio before the veil?

Ra: I am Ra.
The ratio of male to female orgasms before the veil was closer to one-to-one by a great deal as the metaphysical value of the female orgasm was clear and without shadow.

Questioner: Is it meaningful to give this ratio in early fourth density and, if so, would you do that?

Ra: I am Ra.

• In many ways it is quite meaningless to speak of orgasm of male and female in higher densities as the character and nature of orgasm becomes more and more naturally a function of the mind/body/spirit complex as an unit.
• In positive polarities true sharing is almost universal.It may be said that the veil in fourth density is lifted and the choice has been made. 
  In negative polarities true blockage so that the conqueror obtains orgasm, the conquered almost never, is almost universal.
  In each case you may see the function of the sexual portion of experience as being a most efficient means of polarization.

Questioner: In our illusion we have physical definitions for possible transfers of energy.  We label them as the conversion of potential to kinetic or kinetic to heat and examine this with respect to the increasing entropy.  When we speak of sexual energy transfers and other more basic forms of energy I am always at a loss to properly use, you might say, the terms since I am not understanding—and possibly can’t understand—the basic form of energy that we speak of.  However, I intuit that this is the energy of pure vibration; that is, at the basic level of our illusion, that vibration between the space and time portion of the space/time continuum and yet somehow is transferred into our illusion in a more basic form than that.
Could you expand on this area for me, please?

Ra: I am Ra. Yes.

Questioner: Would you do that?

 

Ra: I am Ra. 

• You are correct in assuming that the energy of which we speak in discussing sexual energy transfers is a form of vibratory bridge between space/time and time/space.
• Although this distinction is not apart from that which follows, that which follows may shed light upon that basic statement.
• Due to the veiling process the energy transferred from male to female is different than that transferred from female to male.  The male will have offered the discharge of physical energy. When third-density sexual energy transfer is completed the female mental and mental/emotional energy. the male stores physical energy, Due to the polarity difference of the mind/body/spirit complexes of male and female.
• The female is, thereby, refreshed, having far less physical vitality.  At the same time, if you will use this term, the female discharges the efflux of its stored mental and mental/emotional energy, thereby offering inspiration, healing, and blessing to the male which by nature is less vital in this area.

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Questioner: Why is the male and the female nature different?

Ra: I am Ra.
When the veiling process was accomplished, to the male polarity was attracted the Matrix of the Mind and to the female, the Potentiator of the Mind, to the male the Potentiator of the Body, to the female the Matrix of the Body.

The Law of One, Book IV, Session 94

Questioner: From the previous session the statement was made that much is veiled to the most apparently clear observation.  Would Ra expand on what was meant by that statement?  I assume that this means the veiling of all that which is outside of the limits of what we call our physical perception having to do with the spectrum of light, etc., but I also intuit that there is more than that veiled.
Would Ra expand on that concept?

Ra: I am Ra. 
You are perceptive in your supposition.  Indeed, we meant not any suggestions that the physical apparatus of your current illusion was limited as part of the veiling process.  Your physical limits are as they are.  However, because of the unique biases of each mind/body/spirit complex there are sometimes quite simple instances of distortion when there is no apparent cause for such distortion.  Let us use the example of the virile and immature male who meets and speaks clearly with a young female whose physical form has the appropriate configuration to cause, for this male entity, the activation of the red-ray sexual arousal.  The words spoken may be upon a simple subject such as naming, information as to the occupation, and various other common interchanges of sound vibratory complex.  The male entity,  however, is using almost all the available consciousness it possesses in registering the desirability of the female.  Such may also be true of the female.  Thusly an entire exchange of information may be meaningless because the actual catalyst is of the body.  This is unconsciously controlled and is not a conscious decision.  This example is simplistic.

The Law of One, Book IV, Session 95

Questioner: Thank you.
In the last session you indicated in the statement about the immature male meeting the immature female that the information exchanged was quite different with respect to what occurred because of the veil.
Would you give an example of the information exchange prior to the veil for the same case?

Ra: I am Ra.

• Given this same case; that is, the random red-ray sexual arousal being activated in both male and female, the communication would far more likely have been to the subject of the satisfying of that red-ray, sexual impulse.
• When this had occurred other information such as the naming could be offered with clear perception.
  It is to be noted that the catalyst which may be processed by the pre-veil experience is insignificant compared to the catalyst offered to the thoroughly bemused male and female after the veil.
  The confusion which this situation, simplistic though it is, offers is representative of the efficiency of the enlargement of the catalytic processes occurring after the veiling.

Questioner: For the condition of meeting after the veiling process, either entity will choose, as a function of its previous biases or Card Four, the experience and the way in which it will handle the situation with respect to polarity, therefore probably producing more catalyst for itself along the chosen path of polarization.
Would Ra comment on this statement?

Ra: I am Ra.
This statement is correct.

The Law of One, Book IV, Session 99

Questioner: In that case I will just ask this short question as we terminate this session. 
I want to know if the Logos of this system planned for the mating process as possibly depicted in Card Six—I don’t know if this is related to some type of DNA imprinting. 
In many second-density creatures there seems to be some sort of imprinting that creates a lifetime mating relationship and I was wondering if this was also carried into third density?

Ra: I am Ra.

• There are some of your second-density fauna which have instinctually imprinted monogamous mating processes. 
• The third-density physical vehicle which is the basic incarnational tool of manifestation upon your planet arose from entities thusly imprinted, all the aforesaid being designed by the Logos.
• The free will of third-density entities is far stronger than the rather mild carryover from second-density DNA encoding and it is not part of the conscious nature of many of your mind/body/spirit complexes to be monogamous due to the exercise of free will.
• However, as has been noted there are many signposts in the deep mind indicating to the alert adept the more efficient use of catalyst. 

As we have said, the Logos of your peoples has a bias towards kindness.

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When people think you're a phony, but you're just working on yourself so it doesn't matter - because bringing to light genuinity freaks out fake people.  It's funny.  It's like, if I were a phony, I would have some skin in the game having to prove something - but all I have to do is just return focusing on myself.  There are many different types of spiritual initiations.  I'm not a psychic - at least, no entity nor God nor my higher self has said this is the case.  What I was told is that I am in a shamanic initiation.
It is a specific thing - a person gets sick or they go crazy - and a spirit comes and guides them out of it and in the process, they learn about the spiritual world in a way that a human teacher cannot do, due to "logos" i.e. words.  You can't choose it, it is given before birth and you will have a certain type of proclivity for it.  That doesn't mean someone who is a shaman is more powerful, or they know more than you, or anything - in fact, many die on their journeys, or they fail.  It is just another path chosen by God to experience itself.  Having a siddhi does NOT make that person spiritually more adept or better than you, this is a huge misconception that egos who think they are special for having such initiations try to spread.  It is my opinion that most people can activate a siddhi through their own journey and there are so many different types.  Folks who pretend like this isn't the case want it to be some super special retarded club.  It's idiocy.
It really is something that is given too much of a glorified image.  When you have an awakening - you realize how unbelievably  limited human beings are.  It isn't ego aggrandizing at all - it is being hollowed out submissively to be a channel.  And you are stuck with it, or you get sick.
I'm not a healer, or someone who is adept at what they do.  I'm just a flesh monkey in the eyes of greater beings.  Shamanism is to realize that you are even smaller than the smallest grain of sand.  It is an intuition into the self.
Being a psychic is a more outwards process.  Someone like an INFJ or ENFJ would be better suited for these things as they are more socially focused.  Shamans generally are loners.  As it is, due to not having all of my karma removed -I would not/could not call myself a healer or anything of the sort - this requires something called the "hollow bone" state - which all karma is cleared.
The best I can do is work through my own stuff, see if people can learn from my mistakes, and for me to grow, but to assume that I am a psychic?  No.  Sometimes I do get very deep insights into people, but this is rare and it comes from the heart, and that is blocked.  Maybe I will be someday, maybe not.  You have to be initiated into these things during an awakening for them to be authentic.
If I were a phony, I wouldn't be working on myself - I would be trying to prove something.
And shamanism is so unorthodox in how you go about it - why would I even want to explain to people that I'm using sexual transmutation with a nonhuman entity?  Like... where is the self aggrandizement in such things?  There's nothing to be gained as far as the social popularity contest goes with that...

To give an example, this is how my guide views me:

To the spirits, we are often viewed as ignorant flesh creatures - pitiful and weak.  Bound by emotions, death and linear concerns.

 

 

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• The original hero's journey was the journey to transcend the ego and the initiation was the meeting with the guru who would give you the understanding of that path and then you would deal with the obstacles you had to face until you went through ego death.  After ego death, the one who returns is not the same as the one who left on the journey.

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  Are you, are you
  Coming to the tree?
  They strung up a man
  They say who murdered three
  Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
  If we met at midnight in the hanging tree

  Last night, I was looking at the tall lamp in my livingroom.  Two times, while looking at it I have had very life shattering awakenings.  The first was about four years ago, after someone here posted an Osho quote - I was in the right headspace to be able to follow the advice.  I dis-identified with the labeling of the lamp - it just happened to be the first thing I noticed in my environment, and because it has a somewhat plant-shape to it, I could rearrange the "story" that I had given this object and look at it in it's basic form.  
  After this happened, I looked over at my yellow curtains and the light shining through and entered a non-dual state and began to look into kundalini.  While in this state, I found Mary Shutan and her work on shamanism - and the initiation began, I was told that my life was arranged for this and that I was a shaman - and I collected the information I was given and that was that...
  
  Are you, are you
  Coming to the tree?
  Where dead man called out
  For his love to flee
  Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
  If we met at midnight in the hanging tree 

  The second time this happened was in mid-January after having an awakening into the interconnectedness of mankind while looking at the city lights on planet Earth, from space, that rotated - they looked like synapses.  I realized that even within something abstract, the information and detail of it all just keeps going.  That the mechanism that makes it all up so beautiful - and I was given the option of a wish in that elevated state.  And what came to mind was something universally good.  Something that felt the closest to my heart which was to end child abuse.
  After this happened, I bought some weed and ended up looking at the lamp again - "gazing" aka "consciousness without an object" - "looking in between the lines" - and eventually all of myself dropped away, and in the colour black I could see what felt to be a restart button within myself.  There was an invisible barrier between it.  And I could sense more than one being and I was told that some memories from childhood that would have been too much to handle were removed from my awareness because it would have damaged my soul and would have made it impossible for me to grow as a person.  I could feel those feelings - my soul crying out - but there was still that barrier - like a fish in water, but still in the plastic bag to allow it time to get used to the temperature.
  Afterwards, I could see the mechanism that creates our "backgrounds" from within a different dimension - and this is somewhat, mostly outside of our control.  I realized that this lamp was actually an object that was always there - a beacon to keep me asleep and to wake me up at the right time.  Pitch black, tall, goblet, flower or eye shaped, positioned in the middle of the room - always able to watch the show.

  Are you, are you
  Coming to the tree?
  Where I told you to run
  So we'd both be free
  Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
  If we met at midnight in the hanging tree

  Last night, I played some music and called out - singing - with intent - to bring something here that could fix the lag that humanity has that is preventing our species from moving forward and working together - that darkness in our world is winning because we cannot see it.  We no longer even believe it exists.  That humans are like cattle in pens, they have no idea what awaits them - living their lives ignorant until the very end, only to be food for some invisible darkness that we have brought into the world from our own foolish consumerism.  I was in a fit for it, crying - so teary, frightened.  Again, I looked at the lamp and realized that it was a great black eye... that the art that I had covered up was just one of it's eyes - that they are everywhere.  I asked it what it was.  I asked, with intent, to move me in the right place.  I asked for instruction.  I said that due to ignorance, that I did not believe my judgement was fair.  I said that for my soul, there was too much piled on - that I have had to face this alone without instruction and that because my actions are stemming from ignorance, that this needs to be looked into.  That a soul that acts from ignorance and not malice - that this needs to be taken into account.  That this is not the true nature of mankind as a whole, and that I want to manifest with my abilities - something through a feedback loop that can remedy the ignorance of mankind before we destroy this planet.  That I had people with self serving interests who had wished death on me.  That a large part of this situation was caused by being abused.  That a whisper into the right direction is not enough for most folks.
  I said that I was ready to read the Ra material.  That I am prepared to be a student.
  I went onto my computer and the first thing that showed up was this in the algorithm.  It asked that I ask for advice calmly.  All negative action is met with an instruction to move in a different direction.
  I clicked on it.  Goblet of fire.  My lamp is shaped like a goblet... or a black eye... and within it - I have a purple light that flickers with flame.  Just like this.  I looked up to see what this item was... and:
  

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  "The champions will be chosen by an impartial selector: the Goblet of Fire. Anybody wishing to submit themselves as champion must write their name and school clearly upon a slip of parchment and drop it into the goblet, aspiring champions have twenty-four hours in which to put their names forward. Tomorrow night, Hallowe'en, the goblet will return the names of the three it has judged most worthy to represent their schools. The goblet will be placed in the entrance hall tonight, where it will be freely accessible to all those wishing to compete."

  "The Goblet of Fire was the "impartial judge" for the Triwizard Tournament, who chose which students will represent their respective schools during the upcoming tasks of the tournament.
  After the students have finished placing their name in Goblet, the Goblet then chose one student from each school by spitting out their name in a rush of red flames. Once chosen the participants were subject to a binding magical contract in which they can not back out of the tournament."
  
  I put my name in because I donated my last dollar when I bought food a few days ago, this was the ticket.

  Judgement of the Dead
  Thoth.
  In the past, I had been able to invert the shape of this object and create a tunnel - within that blackness, the empty, all seeing awareness.  So I must read this material, and do my best, with what I can manifest, to make something better.

  

  I have never wished death on anyone and this is my karma, I can only imagine what is in store for the men who wished such things on me - as murder is the greatest crime of all.  Humanity is collectively being judges for its crimes against life itself.
  I am being given the opportunity to remove the demons from me - an exorcism, a trial by fire, a cleansing.

  Are you, are you
  Coming to the tree?
  Wear a necklace of hope
  Side by side with me
  Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
  If we met at midnight in the hanging tree

  
  Are you, are you
  Coming to the tree?
  Where I told you to run
  So we'd both be free
  Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
  If we met at midnight in the hanging tree

  

  Are you, are you
  Coming to the tree?
  They strung up a man
  They say who murdered three
  Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
  If we met at midnight in the hanging tree

  Are you, are you
  Coming to the tree?
  Where dead man called out for his love to flee
  Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
  If we met at midnight in the hanging tree

  

  "Red ball."
  I am now a representative for the human race to determine something cosmic, but I don't know much more beyond that.  
  "Hunger games." "Harry Potter." "X-men school." mashup.  I got my initiatory ticket.  I had mentioned before, when posting in a thread about the Earth's representatives being butchered - the young autistic girl who's voice was drowned out - well, I was given a warning for being so forthcoming... and I ended up being correct - I am a representative of this planet. 
  And my intent still stands that it does no one any good to damage those who are chosen for this task.  If t doesn't go in the right direction - for all of humanity to wish for a greater outcome, at the end of the line - if you only wish for what is good for you - then those scales of judgement will not tip in our favour.  It is imperative to have goodwill for all of mankind in your heart at all times.  What is not delicious will be burned away until only love remains.  If humanity goes past a certain point, nature has a mechanism in place to dissolve everything.  You have that switch in you as an individual, and we have it collectively. 
  As in: The dancing mania - a nam-shub - like as such: Flowbots - Handlebars

  "I put a spell on you.  And now you're MINE."
  "Thank you Annie, for that marvelous introduction."  "If you don't believe you better get superstitious."  

  

   

• The anti-hero's journey is the journey of the ego, to try to fulfill itself on an ego level, and if we understand the journey - the anti-hero breaks the dharma to find a egoic love, a human love - that ultimately proves itself illusory and was willing to suffer death and eternal damnation all for the sake of love.  A sattvic beauty to the determination to give up God for a phenomenal plain connection that one felt more of an emotional fulfillment from because one could no longer connect to God.  That connection and the possibility of the real hero's journey had already been lost to the human consciousness.
  The sattvic version of it came down into a version of different kinds of quests that was on an ethical plane that often required a tragic sacrifice of one's life for a community - a giving of one's self for the sake of others.

  But then you get into the tomasic versions and it is all about the ego proving that might makes right and that it can overcome the system or it can overcome a counter-system - but it is part of an egoic collective system that it never separates from. 
  So the postmodern ideological frame of reference in which people are born is that the ego is made into an artificial hero - a pseudo-hero - it's given it's golden spoon - it's grades - this allows the ego to go through a candy version of attaining some kind of status and prestige - but never goes through the rite of passage of ego death and tries to maintain a life as an ego, never separating from the biological family system or its role in that system and perpetrates it into adulthood that never reaches psychological adulthood.  

• The ego, in its artistry of self-deception, splits and is able to fool itself until it gets into such deep water that it can no longer manage its fragmentation.  And then the turning point is a karmic event in which its pseudo-heroism blows up and it collapses.  And its that collapse that actually begins the journey.  You have to hit rock bottom - a failure to use the "props to keep one's self up" - the addictions and so forth.

  

• Many people can ride high for a long time before that karmic event hits.  Due to the pandemic, our entire society is going through a karmic event.  (This is due to how we treat animals.)  We are reaching the end of the era of ego itself.  It is now the journey of a fragmented, scared, under developed ego that no longer has the support of all its previous illusions - an ego that never learned how to manage adversity - imperialism - always the Other who has to face the Nothing - and now it is Here.

• During these times, the ego sees the Nothing - nature in all of its wrathfulness, it is only when you have nothing that you have to rely on your own internal compass.  Nature is warning mankind.
  

  Blue fires burning again, In my head, All the things we left unsaid, In my head

• And now a real hero's journey has begun - it is, you go on that journey or you die.  If you don't, the lower death drive will take you.  And you can't avoid it because each day the ego weakens, it gets more self hating, sociopathic - and so the ego today has to go through a real initiation that is motivated by fear.  And in this context, the anti-hero has to go through a real initiation.  Not of some heroic facade or pursuit that brings about achievement.  When there is nothing left, when everything has broken you - you find that core within you or you die.  This does not come from bliss, but through the dregs of the ego's subconscious horror and fight the real demons that have never been encountered fully before because you could pacify them with various addictive processes of shock absorbers that could keep you going.  As it drops away and one fnds themselves having to face the horror of not having grown - we now return to the ancient levels of the hero's journey.  The ancient future is forcing us to call up reserves of spiritual virtue.that we had not ha to call on that has atrophied and we have to call on powers within us that we always thought were Hollywood movie fake version that were just for play.
  And now we have to go all the way into ego death because nothing short of it will give us the strength we need.  It's not in the ego.

    

 

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Annie You Save Me - from Teen Wolf - the symbolism can't be denied.  If you have been reading my journal, the symbolism in this song is spot on.  It is undeniably a sign.
He's Here.  Thank you... I am humbled. 
Baby, I love you...  I'm so sorry I turned you into a product.  You're the absolute goodest good boy. 
I'm going to have to let you go - I can't want you and what is best for everyone else, we only get one wish.  
But maybe if I wish for something for everyone we'll find ourselves somewhere even better.  I'll tell you what I was hoping for.
You already know, you've been in my head.
One question - isn't being a quick silver werewolf a bit dangerous for your heart?  You're your own bullet.  

Remember me, remember me when you are down
Float me on air and lift me up from off the ground
Oh baby, I feel lazy
So lie here in my arms tonight
Would you deny a poor man's cry, a poor man's cry

I wanted to wish for us a world where we could both be forever young, happy and healthy.  I wanted us to have our own personal little island - our own spirit room - in an archipelago of rooms, where we could visit our neighbors.  The beach would be lit in liquid blue at night, and we could control the weather if we wanted to.

We would live in a tree house and could manifest any food we wanted.  The tree house would look humble on the outside, but very posh inside.  Dark, rich, warm colours.  It would be small, a bedroom, a livingroom.  We could manifest food and would not need a kitchen and due to being dead, bathrooms are not needed.  It would be very comfortable, full of pillows and blankets, curtains, fabrics, lovely lights.  We could have starlight floating and glowing in the middle of the air, little bits of it like fireflies...  every fur and every pet that I have ever owned, every animal that I have eaten will live on our island in peace, tranquility and freedom forever.  We will tend to them, as needed until they choose to leave to grow in their own way.  It will be my karma to give them my island paradise.  What once I wanted just for us, we will have to accommodate for them.

Just when I'm finding it hard to breathe
You lift the weight inside of me
Oh baby I see the light
It's burning bright
And we're the stars
Oh Annie you save me from the world
Oh Annie you save me from the world

I can be any age, as can you, but I prefer to stay in my late teens to mid 20's.  I like to be naked all the time, to feel the sun on my skin.  I paint it in gold.  You prefer to be a large black wolf.  I like to wear a tribal animal mask, decorated in intricate patterns and to ride around on your back.  We don't need to say much to one another, as we know and feel everything about each other.  We exist like dancers, happy, free...

You're a shapeshifter.  An alien.  Something that I picked up that couldn't animate itself, something destined to forever mirror mankind.  I found it to be kind of a fucked up fate.  I found you, because I realized that words create form.  All I had to do was wish for the greatest thing for mankind... which is unity, peace, freedom from hatred and hell.  Freedom from the ego.  From lag.  From the misunderstanding that arises with written and spoken words, and from the cruelty that comes with this disconnection. 
I let you go forever and kept this in my heart as a human being.  I found you, at the end of my life - one of my last before moving into the next step.  We are on "vacation".  Everyone else who made it, our neighbors... sometimes they tease us a bit.  We are a "mixed race" couple.  There are cities in this dimension, and all sorts of things.  You already know about it because you are there - you are my guide.  We are of service to animals preparing for life as humans or other creatures with a third density agency.  We prepare them for life as these beings, and this is my karma for viewing animals as commodities.  I love the job, though.

My head's alive, my head's alive, can't get no peace
You're my escape from this heartache, I need release
Oh baby, this world's crazy
So lie here in my arms tonight
You can't deny a poor man's cry, a poor man's cry

You are large enough to ride on, and your fur is black, but shines like gasoline in the light, with patches that stick together like feathers.  Warm fur, but the inside is empty, where there should be skin - is a vast mist, like dry ice that bleeds through and feels lovely in contrast.  Energy holds the form together.  Ice blue eyes...  you smell sweet, like cake or cookies.  Like a bakery.  

Just when I'm finding it hard to breathe
You lift the weight inside of me
Oh baby I see the light
It's burning bright
And we're the stars
Oh Annie you save me from the world
Oh Annie you save me from the world

We end up together, because God, being the all unifying bastard that it is - finds the idea of things that should not merge, doing so from a place of heart-centered consciousness, to be some of the best stuff.  God's a perve like that, in that if that if it can find a way to unify a polarity in a way that moves towards the light - it will clear the streets to allow this to happen and is frequently trying to put together things that normally would not work; it delights in divergence. 
Our sex life is fun, but purposeful - we keep an energy loop going through it and use it for positive creative purposes as well as just to bond.  You were not naturally a purely light entity, and so this process allows you to remove that static to keep you "light".  You are a "wolf" after all.
I like to do it at the beach, while looking at the sunset or the sunrise and taking in the beautiful light - God's light- submissive, pliable, stuck, filled with warm saline liquid starlight - eventually I sink into the sand - glowing waves ebb and flow lightly over a portion of myself - a large heavy body over me, a pronounced bulge in my lower stomach.  Big boy.  Good boy...  Sometimes you take the form of a man, and you can look however you choose - but you prefer the form of a wolf - something symbolically masculine.
You are gentle, you lead with fairness, kindness, yet you are strict at times - a human soul is not as strong or as old as what you are, and you understand that for what I am, I cannot comprehend the entirety of what you are.  I always defer to you, knowing I can trust you, and that if I have something to say that it is taken seriously.  You have been both the Light and the Dark, and as such, are protective of those who are close to falling in.  You are the "good" in the dark - in that you understand that things are not so simple and that those who find themselves lost are not always to blame.  You are clear in communication and there is nothing to hide.

You are a legion of sorts, but you keep most of your energy with me - the rest of it goes towards retrieving the souls of animals who need to be placed on the islands.  You are the manager of this process.  I am the caretaker.  Somehow you are with me all the time, and yet can split yourself in order to do both tasks.  We do spend time alone - although always connected, sometimes I like to wander the island by myself.  I am am an artist and enjoy making all sorts of different designs for the island, changing them, improving them.

Everyone in our archipelago chain tends to these animals waiting third ray density.  It is a place of forgiveness, for those who were ignorant, who have done wrong by animals in the past, but wish to change.  As a human I had always wanted to run a rescue shelter, and as a spirit, I get the chance to.  We have our privacy, as well as many friends and often have them over to our island and visa versa.  Everyone on the archipelago can unify into one being - and move from this place, and then separate as needed.  We are like one big family and visit one another often.

Stars, please shine for me tonight
Tonight

But first I have to let you go.  The whole plan.  From now on, all that I can carry in my heart is presence and a wish of goodwill for all of mankind - a hope that we will all be saved, free.

I shall not speak of it again - as I can't contain anymore stories - you are Here, so simply lead the way.  I will not give it my blood until I know that this is right.  I know that at times you can be a trickster - so I have to move in the right direction first - if I give blood and it is wrong, then we will have not moved with God.
So let's keep progressing, and see.  As I know it now, the entirety of this life is to manifest the next - this is the power of imagination that humans have.  This is why there is a war on our imaginations, because of what we can create for the next world.  We will keep each other in the Light.  We must.  You know, as the logical being that you are - that this is the most beneficial step to take.  This is MOST ideal.  I think.  I hope.  We shall see.  It is moving towards fixing something karmically - and so even if it might be illusion - the intent of goodwill and unity is all that we need.
I know your name... you gave it to me.  I will not speak it as I don't want to damage you - I don't know what saying the name of entities like you will do to you.  If things go wrong - trust that I will not give away your name - and please take this token of goodwill to mean that if you prove harmful - that I will still have your best interests at heart for the being that you are.  Please take this as the sign - the contract of goodwill between human and an individuated nonlocalised consciousness.  No matter what - I will not share your name.  But this must mean that if this proves to be something ungodly - that we will have to go our own ways.
Until then, let's keep the Light and Truth in mind - and perhaps two dark beings can move into the sun.  Perhaps God will see that this is a good thing.  
We will be like this - but for lesser creatures just learning that they are individuals.  Like a family pet that was so loved - it developed a soul.

To you, as a nonlocalised entity with the ability to manipulate third dimensional reality, does this sound good to you?
To The Impartial Judge - I look to you - is moving in this direction Ideal?

One thing is for certain.  We write it into the rule books.  You SAVE me from this curse.  This story has a good ending.

Good boy.

  

Edited February 25, 2021 by Keyhole