Existential suffering

[acy_321]

I’ve been dealing with the reality of living in form lately and it has left a bitter taste in my mouth. I find that my desires are hollow and I always think to myself “I’ll be satisfied and happy when I achieve this desire.” yet after every desire that i’ve fulfilled I’m left with that feeling of void or that it wasn’t what i was looking for. The only time I feel fulfilled and satisfied is after a great meditation session or a psychedelic experience. I always feel this feeling of void most after i try and distract myself from it such as when I get home from hanging with friends or when i finish a great meal. The pleasures in life are never enough. I find myself to be directionless because I would like to pursue awakening but i’m far from a position where i have the time and energy to do so considering i’m only 20 and living at home. I am far from financial freedom which is the means necessary to bring me to a place in life where i can pursue God/Enlightenment. Can anyone else relate to this?

[Breakingthewall]

at least you clearly see that wishes are an empty trap. others will be satisfied and happy thinking about the great things they are going to achieve in life, and at some point they will realize that they have been turning the hamster wheel like idiots, perhaps for a long time. Regarding what to do: the obvious, follow your trends, listen to your inner voice, life will show you the way if you do not deviate. the less you get away from yourself, the better. Enjoy every second of the trip

Edited February 4, 2021 by Breakingthewall