This forum is a complex place. It's much more different than what I thought before. It's a rabbit hole of a different kind.  A strange dynamic operates here which is very difficult to encapsulate into words.  There are just too many layers here and feels like you can relate to each layer and yet at the same time every layer begins to look unrelatable. Like a rubik's cube you keep twisting and turning it and at the same time get twisted in the same process.  Tbh the world is a much simpler place.  This feels like a funneled down version of all the complexities that exist in the world neatly packed.  You're simply scratching the surface but as you scratch deeper, you feel like you're slipping down a slope so hard and at the same time the slope keeps tilting higher giving you the hope that you will gradually reach the surface on the upper side.  Learn to keep yourself simple here lest you slip deeper on the slippery tunnel.. Often we're blind to ourselves and how our own psyche operates and in the same breath we don't have an ideal psyche to compare our psyche with, so there's no possibility of a switch, and for the same reason, we end up using our psyche the way we do and the systems we create are a reflection of our psyche, the systems are just as complex and complicated as our fucked up psyche, at the end of the day, the only savior is you yourself, because nobody else will do that job for you, even if the grammar is perfect, the content is confusing, and any chaotic piece of system that exists in the world, no matter how big or small is a reflection of the chaos inside and is thus a road to stupidity that masquerades itself as intelligence..    Goodluck.