I feel like Beige

[Blackbeat]

99.999% people don't understand me beyond a surface level, not even my ex questionable mentor, so.... I'm pretty lost and I'm 'bad' with words in this state. I can't identify what I'm thinking even after a couple deep breaths..need help asap, already called some suicide hotline numbers like 3 times in a span of 2 days. Ye, I am apathy?

[mandyjw]

Have you tried stream of consciousness writing? Just writing whatever comes to your head, even if it's the word "fork" 200 times? Or going out for a walk or a run? Both of those techniques are great when you need to clarify your thoughts. I know it's tough because to identify what you need and to get help you have to be able to communicate it. Hope things improve soon, hang in there. Share more of what you're feeling or experiencing here if you can. 

[lmfao]

I feel beige when I'm so lazy to even stand up from my chair and grab water despite being really thirsty. I think that makes me below beige actually, since I'm too lazy to even follow my biological instincts lool 

[Megan Alecia]

@Blackbeat That's a panic attack.... Just turn your body off for a moment.

 

Edited January 30, 2021 by Megan Alecia

[Blackbeat]

1 hour ago, lmfao said:

I feel beige when I'm so lazy to even stand up from my chair and grab water despite being really thirsty. I think that makes me below beige actually, since I'm too lazy to even follow my biological instincts lool 

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