How to dig for childhood trauma?

[Nahm]

16 hours ago, EternalDream said:

The thing is I don't even feel pain about my past. I just assume that there has to be something hidden beneath the surface of my soul.
Maybe I'm searching after bad experiences to train my emotional mastery. But I guess I can only do that in Actuality.

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