I need tips for making meditation more appealing

[BipolarGrowth]

I’ve been meditating on and off for years, but I only truly got a high level of benefit from it when I was doing it multiple times a day for about a month straight. I had two satoris that each lasted about two weeks a piece. 
 

Ever since then, I’ve gone back to meditating rarely and sporadically. Hearing Adyashanti describe meditation got me more interested in it for a short period, but I’m back out of that again. 
 

So, I’d appreciate it if you guys/gals could share resources that help keep you motivated to meditate regularly as well as share what benefits you’ve experienced from meditation that might help motivate others to pursue meditation more seriously. 

[fridjonk]

The ego wants benefits, and the ego does not like meditation. So you, trying to meditate to gain benefits, will always fall short of the true point of meditation, which is there is no point nor benefit. You simply meditate to feel better, to cleans your mind. You have to look within yourself to find a drive to meditate just because you wish to do so, not for any reason. Any motivation gained from an external resource will die down sooner or later. 

[snowyowl]

@BipolarGrowth so why did you stop meditating regularly after your two satoris? Having that level of insight from only one month of serious meditation shows you're a real natural. I wonder if like me, the problem isn't so much a lack of motivation but ego backlash holding you back from going deeper. 

Resources - well I know how to meditate by now, but I'm starting reading The Mind Illuminated as this year's project, to hopefully bring some more structure to my practice. 

Benefits - where do I start. Mental clarity, relaxation on all levels, physical, mental, etc. Expansiveness and spaciousness. Mystical experience of oneness. 

[Hello from Russia]

Make a list of all benefits of meditation. Why you really should do it? What are the real benefits? What are the opportunity costs of not meditating? What you will lose if you don't? 

I personally think there is nothing wrong in thinking about "benefits", it's just you gotta think into this direction deeper

[Nahm]

2 hours ago, BipolarGrowth said:

So, I’d appreciate it if you guys/gals could share resources that help keep you motivated to meditate regularly as well as share what benefits you’ve experienced from meditation that might help motivate others to pursue meditation more seriously. 

I feel like I really, really hear where you’re coming from. That is what I was thinking too when I put these together. These meditations are all feeling, awareness, love oriented, and the intention behind them is that they are joyful in and of the experience of the ‘practice’ itself. (Rather than contributing to a goal or cumulative effect). There is an apparent cumulative effect, of relaxation, inspiration, good feeling, joy, clarity, creativity etc, which actually ‘rises’ of it’s own accord, in the quieting of the mind and bringing equanimity to emotions.

There are however, not motive driven, they can’t be pursued, only directly experienced, and no one should take them seriously. Their really more about self discovery, or happiness. 

[BipolarGrowth]

@snowyowl I think it’s partially because experiencing the satoris took away that feeling of needing or wanting to meditate. Another reason is because I’ve just found psychedelics to take me so much further than meditation. I’ve also had a lot of awakenings without meditation or psychedelics. These have also exceeded what meditation has given me a lot of the time. I do agree that I’m a natural, but I think this makes it hard to commit to the more gradual of spiritual practices because I’m used to quick results. I hate the discipline it requires. 

[Surfingthewave]

@BipolarGrowth Why do you want to meditate?