Here........now......... Is All

[adithyaunlimited]

Hey there everyone this is my first post on this forum and i would like to share my progress in self actualization,

So it goes like this one fine day when i was depressed that i couldn't talk to or even approach my crush....last year in november,on that particular day i had given her a potrait of her face as her birthday gift indirectly by passing it thru her friend.She came to me and thanked me in school but i couldnt say a word i was standing there blushing and smiling and then she slowly left...i was both happy and sad...she already knew i liked her but words wouldnt come out my mouth. That same day i searched on youtube "how to get a girlfiend" Leo's video popped up....i watched and got the exact opposite of what i was hoping for....i was mindblown...and so everyday i owuld sit and watch his videos and try to digest his advice.But i rarely applied his advice any where in life.When i saw his meditation video i began to do that everyday , the feeling was amazing..and when i saw his spiritual enlightenment my whole life changed....i realized so much in one go.

And so i started researching on spiritual enlightenment read more than 10 books about it....My favourite was eckhart tolles books i practiced intense presence every day it has changed my life a lot i never really regularly meditated but as im typing this im hearing the sounds of the keyboard and seeing the computer screen....im PRESENT.While researching and practing presence i had stopped watching leos vids and started applying.During the month of May or April i decided to confess my love to the girl i had a crush on for 2 years 9th grade to 11th grade....It took a week of trying gain confidence and trying to find the right moment and finally i mustered up courage and told her words came automatically out my mouth....when told her "i like u" she told me she knew then i told her 'I love u" she smiled and told me she didnt share the same feelings..i wasnt depressed i was happier than ever....i couldnt believe i was happy.....then my grandad died i weeped a bit but it didnt stick to me i felt so independent....and NOW i have started watching leos vids again and i am try to improve my other parts of life and feel so great.

Thank you LEO for completely changing my life for the better... U have no ideea how badly i want ot express my gratefulness    

Edited October 3, 2016 by adithyaunlimited

[adithyaunlimited]

List of things i want to achieve in the next 5 years:

1)to become a well known comci artist on the web 

2)to completely finish a full fledged comic book story online

3)increasing my level of consiousness

4)scoring good marks

Edited October 4, 2016 by adithyaunlimited

[ajasatya]

@adithyaunlimited wow, i feel very happy for you! let us see it!

Edited October 4, 2016 by iago iriarte arhatha

[adithyaunlimited]

Oct 5th

Today i've watched some Leo's videOs such as:

-Understanding neurosis

-levels of personal development

The second video made me realize a lot and opened me up to the fact that i had to apply so much more in real life to understand leos teachings

and the first one helped me observe my overeating habits even though i'm not obese at all and also my habit of lying for ego defense. Later i sat on my sofa in erect position and  felt my inner body to help me stay present then all ofa sudden i spontaneously asked my self "who am i?" which i rarely did because nothing really happened when i did so a half a year before but this time had questioned my self outside of my conceptual understanding and suddenly entered into intense state of presence.

One main thing I've noticed over the past few days is that I've been able so see a much wider angle through my than i ussually due( if that is actually significant in terms of Spiritual Growth)

[adithyaunlimited]

Oct 6th

"stillness speaks"-Eckhart Tolle

that on top is no quote it is just the name of a book yet it holds so much meaning. In todays 30 mins of self inquiry ........."who am i?"..... for whatever reason didn't work at all..then after the session i was about to sit on my computer chair to type todays addition to the journal i heard the subtle creaking sound of my chair or show do i say i listened to it. I've heard theres a huge difference between listening and hearing.. when i listened to it it hit me deep through my ears and brought myself to amazing state of presence /stillness speaks....and today i would like to reveal my my passion for art here check out me and my cousins art page on instagram we are making good progess in drawing potraits of celebrities and other drawings too...THE ART BROS <-----CLICK ON LINK TO CHECK IT OUT 

[ajasatya]

1 hour ago, adithyaunlimited said:

THE ART BROS

inspiring... makes me wonder if i can do it too!

[adithyaunlimited]

Oct 7th

today i've realized so much about surrendering...As a child me and my father had very less communication. He was working far in the middle east. Later when me and my mom came to where he was working to live with him it went pretty smooth in the beginning. I was 7 years old back then..even though we were pretty cool with each other the father-son bonding really wasn't developing. I knew very little about his behavior...when ever he used to shout at me like a madman i had done something i used get alert and defensive as hell at a very young age felt the urge to physically fight with him but obviously he was way stronger. where i come from that is "INDIA' beating your children if they didnt listen to is considered okay to do. But i always to took it as extremely offensive...so i've never asked for a gift or any other thing from him unless and until it was absolutely necessary for school needs or such...when he used to teach me math when i was in 6th grade or so we fought so much...and still it was fine but deep inside i knew there was a special ego defense mechanism built especially for my father.

But he would always end the fight with a joke for which i could never stop laughing.but the remains of hatred is still embedded within me and im trying become aware of that and surrender every time whenever i get into fight with him. He shouts at me mostly for my lack of achievements he compares me with other students who win prizes in many extra curricular activities...and i believe in doing extra curricular activities for the enjoyment of it for every step of it and not the award 

Anyway im studying in 11th grade right now and today we fought and i was unable to surrender through the fight...and only later did i surrender internally to reduce mental noise......because of sudden emotional outbreak my entire body feels so weak.So i plan to surrender every time we fight and he's not as bad of a human being as ive described him...ive seen worse...i need to practice surrendering and observe my ego. 

[adithyaunlimited]

Just now, adithyaunlimited said:

Oct 7th

today i've realized so much about surrendering...As a child me and my father had very less communication. He was working far in the middle east. Later when me and my mom came to where he was working to live with him it went pretty smooth in the beginning. I was 7 years old back then..even though we were pretty cool with each other the father-son bonding really wasn't developing. I knew very little about his behavior...when ever he used to shout at me like a madman i had done something i used get alert and defensive as hell at a very young age felt the urge to physically fight with him but obviously he was way stronger. where i come from that is "INDIA' beating your children if they didnt listen to is considered okay to do. But i always to took it as extremely offensive...so i've never asked for a gift or any other thing from him unless and until it was absolutely necessary for school needs or such...when he used to teach me math when i was in 6th grade or so we fought so much...and still it was fine but deep inside i knew there was a special ego defense mechanism built especially for my father.

But he would always end the fight with a joke for which i could never stop laughing.but the remains of hatred is still embedded within me and im trying become aware of that and surrender every time whenever i get into fight with him. He shouts at me mostly for my lack of achievements he compares me with other students who win prizes in many extra curricular activities...and i believe in doing extra curricular activities for the enjoyment of it for every step of it and not the award 

Anyway im studying in 11th grade right now and today we fought and i was unable to surrender through the fight...and only later did i surrender internally to reduce mental noise......because of sudden emotional outbreak my entire body feels so weak.So i plan to surrender every time we fight and he's not as bad of a human being as ive described him...ive seen worse...i need to practice surrendering and observe my ego. 

"Surrender is the inner transition,from resistance to acceptance,from no to yes"-Eckhart Tolle

[adithyaunlimited]

Oct 14

sorry i skipped 7 days of the journal because of preferences......Today was a really interesting day i meditated as ive been doing for past 4 days continously and day went pretty smooth i studied for the upcoming exam and watched some of leos very old videos from 2014 and learned a lot and th e most interesting part was when i sat down to masturbate after long time i suddenly told myself to become a aware there was this sudden contraction of this desire in me and it felt so amazing and for the past 3-4 hours up till now it feels like my head is filled with energy and i feel so happy and i also got to know know that i will be receiving my black belt after a few months once i complete my karate test

Edited October 14, 2016 by adithyaunlimited