Why am I always stuck in critics?

[chath]

Even I can see there is no problem on my side, I tend to stuck with a critics. I connects past incidents to that problems and the result is stuck in a loop. When I am in a group, someone in that group did some thing wrong, when investigation happens, I'm trying to control my body language to not to look suspicious.  I do journaling and affirmations. It really helps.

Also when I got to a bank, I also feel some kind of fear. Thinking that "Am I suspicious to security officers?" and tend think how suspicious person act in a that kind of situation. Try to control the facial expressions to not to look like a thief.

 

What is going with me? Journaling and affirmations helps in short term. But I need to understand the root problem here.

 

Sorry for bad English.

[Gesundheit]

Sounds like you could benefit from Shadow Work. Work on correcting your self-image.