Renourishment needed

[Striving for more]

Renourishment needed : temporary journal of renourishment. 

Feeling frustrated & impulsive recently. Feeling like i'm behind, stuck. Stuck in all areas. Comparing myself to others. 

Feeling pissed off I got only 1 (fake) Friend, who is lazy & useless, & although I've been that way before, I know he won't change:

YOU ARE THE PEOPLE YOU SURROUND YOURSELF WITH. 

Looool why I avoid the family, most people. Keep listening to the good music, actualized.org, keep telling myself I am the shit. 

 

I Will catch up. I will be rich. I will be a player. 

FUCK THIS > I'M GOING STAGE FULL STAGE ORANGE MODE, MAYBE A BIT RED EVEN. Too much exuces, no time to sit & moan & bitch & whine. 

FUCK THIS, I'M GOING FULL ALPHA MODE. INCREASE THE ALPHA, BECOME MORE ALPHA. 

PEOPLE SAY IT'S TOXIC MASCULINITY HERE, THEY ARE CONFUSED. 

Toxic masculinity = being aggressive bully, ALPHA is just a mode, a mindset. I can dial it off sometimes. 

FUCK HELPING PEOPLE RIGHT NOW, I'VE HELPED ENOUGH FAKE FRIENDS GOT NOTHING BACK. 

RIGHT NOW I NEED RESULTS, I NEED HIGH ENERGY, I NEED ALPHA ! 

 

FUCK THIS SHIT. I'M GOING HARD. HARDCORE MUSIC. FUCK THIS SHIT.

FUCK THISSSS SHIT THE WORLD IS MINE I'M TAKING IT STAGE RED !!!!!1

I WILL GET THE PUSSY, THE MONEY, TREATING LIFE LIKE AN ALGORITHIM NOW, EVERYTHING IS PATTERNS & ALGORITHIMS 

The stage green shit can fuck off for a bit. No more caring about others. 

FUCKING CRAZY MOTIVATION, 5AM WAKE UP AT 5AM NOW CMON FUCKKKKKKKKKKK FUCKKKKKKKKKK. IM SO FUCKING FRUSTATED. I#VE BEEN STUCK IN THE SAME POSITION FOR YEARS.

FUCK WHERE AM I GOING, I FEEL STUCK, AHHH NOOOOONOONOO

SUCESS NOW CMON

[Striving for more]

AHHHHH IM NEARLY IN MID TWENTIES. SO MUCH POTENTIAL DOWN THE DRAIN 

LAW OF FUCKING ATTRACTION, MANIFEST MY DESIRES. I'M TAKING IT

I'M TAKING THIS PLANTES RESOURCES, I WILL BE THE 1%, I'M GOING FULL ALPHA MODE. 

[Striving for more]

Feeling competitive now. 

Psycho time. 

Zero sum game. 

Only those supporting me i'll support you too,

Everyone else, you're competition. You're gonna lose bitches. 

Time to conquer the fucking world. 

[Striving for more]

Mediocre people make me SICK. 

I am mediocre in a sense. But true mediocrity is when you don't want to change, you don't care to change. EW DISGUSTING. FUCK YOU. 

 

I'M A WINNER. I AM DESIGNED BY GOD, A SOUL OF UTMOST IMPORTANCE.

I'M HERE TO CONQUER & FUCK.  

[Blackbeat]

[Michael569]

@Striving for more Look into the mirror and say "I love you for all your mistakes, you are perfect as you are!" Repeat 20 times 3 times a day. 

You need to start practising some self-love brother.