Second 5-meo-dmt trip, contemplation on steroids!

[Javfly33]

Yesterday I took some 5-meo (not breakthrough dose since the batch i have is pure shit and it Seems i can't breakthrough on it no matter how much I take). Still i thought it was better than doing nothing on Sunday and since it still gives noticeable effects, I decided to took it a couple of times back to back and put myself to contemplate the whole morning

1. First i started to become aware of the internal dialogue of my mind. There was a space that opened up. In this space the voice of my mind started to become misterious. My whole life i have been assuming the voice in my head is Me and that the voice is the human mind. However I started contemplating that i actually do not know that. A possibility opened up that maybe the voice in my mind might be the voice of the Universe. Maybe the mystics when they say to ask yourself "who i am" is to actually realize the voice becoming Conscious is not an individual human but something else. Or maybe not. The possibility just opened up.

2. Second i started to look at objects and become contemplating how i know if I am actually not there. One of my biggest assumptions too has also been assuming that the Internal voice is happening inside the head behind the eyes (in the "brain") however it strucked me that i have no proof of this. I looked at my heater, and i wondered if the heater could actually be the one thinking the thoughts and the internal voice. Since the internal dialogue might not be happening in any place in particular.

3. A little glimpse of Infinity. I became aware that maybe this present moment is completely empty of substance and i have projected substance on to it. But no breakthrough . It's just a possibility. 

4. This is the BIG ONE. I actually got a little mindfucked and shocked and how clear i saw this one. I was looking at the syringe on the floor which I used to plug the substance 20 minutes ago. Then IT HIT ME. I am also ASSUMING that that is actually the syringe that i used. It was clear to me that I have no proof that is the syringe i used. Because it felt very clear that syringe i was looking was existing and being put into existence right now in that precise angle. So when I was looking to it in another angle, it was not the same syringe.

And that's it. A pretty good session and straightforward to contemplate reality. I probably won't get Enlightened with sub breakthrough doses but it really felt 5-meo facilititated opening my mind during the contemplation. There were some assumptions (like the forth one) which I can't imagine having sober. The mind is just too closed to start questioning those solid assumptions. Like the one about physicality. There's no doubt Psychedelics help with that. And 5-meo plugged is quite straight to the chase and with very little wacky or side effects as other psychs then to do..(5-meo inhaled is another story though)

Thanks for reading!

[How to be wise]

@Javfly33 I’m assuming you have a daily meditation practice. Otherwise it’s hard to believe you take spirituality seriously.

[Javfly33]

7 minutes ago, How to be wise said:

@Javfly33 I’m assuming you have a daily meditation practice. Otherwise it’s hard to believe you take spirituality seriously.

I do. I struggle sometimes with a daily practice due to work. But you can practice through the whole day! In the form of being more focused, practicising concentration, surrender to the moment...etc + regular retreats. Doesnt need to be meditation particularly.

[Nahm]

@Javfly33

Excellent work my man! 

To #3...might sound silly at first...look at the air. See the air....and look for ‘seeing’. 

 

But you can practice through the whole day! In the form of being more focused, practicising concentration, surrender to the moment...etc + regular retreats. Doesnt need to be meditation particularly.

? 

Beautiful. 

[Javfly33]

@Nahm Glad to know I'm doing my homework well ?

PD: @Nahm just tried what you said... Time got frozen a little bit... It wasn't silly dude... think i did it right ??

Edited January 11, 2021 by Javfly33