Road To Success & The Obstacles

[Striving for more]

Hollowness. 

• Having a cavity, gap, or space within
• Deeply indented or concave; sunken.
• Without substance or character.

Most people get stuck here ^ way in to middle age's & beyond, often until death. 

This is the look I saw in my cousin months back. 

"I drive a train yes for my son, it's a bit boring uhh ...

"Ah u want to go travelling ... I wish I went travelling in my 20's ..." INTENSELY PAINFUL EXPRESSION OF REGRET 

Hollowness, Regret, lack of fulfilment, loneliness at work, married his wife over political dogmas.

Only 35 but had already resigned himself. I pity him yes, BUT FUCK THAT MOFO FUCK THAT I WON'T BE LIKE THE HERD. NO! MONEY, POWER, CREATIVITY, JOY, SUCCESS, ART, NATURE, EXCITEMENT, ON THE EDGE, BURN THE BRIDGES, LEADERSHIP, UNFORGETTABLE, ALPHA, SUCCESS, DEVINE POWER, CHARISMA, CHARM, MAGNETIC FORCE, UNSTOPPABLE. 

I've always had a painful tendency to ruminate, to regret the past. It's a travesty of the mind & a painful, Unrelenting habit. 

Diet didn't help, exercize didn't help, none of that shit works because ultimately when you feel hollow & regret & alone, no physical empty thing like food will change that. 

My life's moving too slow & I'm still mediocre, in spite of doing tons of self help stuff, books everything u can think of ... but because I haven't sorted the basics : my environment. 

So so important. I still can't think of where to move, or how to move, I'm not good at "requisite variety", because I have such a picky apetite for all the list of conditions i'd need in my environment, & so far unless I burn through cash like crazy person spending 2-4K a month, then I can't find anywhere ... Unless I could move to mexico ... BUT WHEN? WHEN THE FUCK WILL THAT BE POSSIBLE ahaha I just want you so much, Canada, please have me NEEEEEEEEEED.

NEEEDINESSS > I NEEEED YOU!

I really want to go Mexico, but I don't know how ... or when? These restrictions may never stop it feels like. Authoritarians doesn't wanna quit ey 

But I need to find a good place, I know i'm responsible but my morale is just so low, I struggle to put in the work to be earning big bucks like I could be, I know I could be if i moved somewhere good & I don't just mean money I mean I'd be doing so much, I can see it & I've known this for years, I just need this basic infrastructure, god please help me reach my potential in all ways, I command the subconscious mind to find me the right environment, the right physical, spacial, naturalistic, spiritual, infrastructural, social environment.

I need some balance in my life. I want to do martial arts & hobbies again & work on my nascent passions some time & going back to the whiteboard & churning out business ideas for fun,  & expressmy unique self more & I want to listen the music I like loud as day & go pick up girls & bring em round after a long hard day of hard work & fuck their brains out & travel &  meet cultures all over the world. & take mushrooms & kambo & I want to play soccer again for once like I always used to, I used to be so good & I just love to play, just haven't really for years & I wish did, need to join some teams but ah there's just no time it feels. 

 I know I can see myself as this alpha, fun, creative & successful guy ... no longer in stuck in my head ruminating, but fully in the present, too  busy to think negatives, to happy to care. Successful, confident, proud, on top of the world. spreading these vibrations on to others. Making the world a better place, not by being "good" .. but merely by shining a light on these troubling times, being that vibration that lifts a room, makes a street glow, makes an old lady smile.

OK NOW I'M JUST BLABBERMOUTHING BLABBER BLABBER... BLUBLU. 

TIME TO GO VISUALIZE, PRIME THE SUBCONSCIOUS MIND, REVIEW MY DAY & HAVE A GLASS OF WINE. 

TIME TO PRACTICE SELF LOVE, & TRY FEEL IN TO MY  EMOTIONS, REGRET, HOLLOWNESS, NEEDINESS, DESPAIR ... FEEL IN TO THEM "LOVE THEM TO DEATH". 

MELT IT AWAY WITH LOVE.

Edited May 1, 2021 by Striving for more

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But the problem is I struggle to believe anything. 

As napoleon hill says > u  need ABSOLUTE FAITH

FAITH & FEARLESSNESS. 

Do you even need leo or any book if you have these? Not even.... This is the path to power. 

I CHOSE FAITH & FEARLESSNESS. 

I WILL NOT QUIT, I WILL NOT BE NEGATIVE. I WILL PRIME THE SUBCONSCIOU EVERY DAY, EVERY FUCKING DAY & I WILL PLAN & ACT EVERY DAY EVERY DAY

I need my wine fuck off now but we all get the message. FAITH & FEARLESSNESS. 

 

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COMPLETE MSITAKE. 

Shouldn't have drunken wine. I had a third of a glass... I have severe brain fog today, it's feels similar to if I had smoke some bad quality weed. Not good at all. 

I also ate some sushi yesterday terrible idea. farmed salmon is not good. It's so easy for mind to rationalize bad behaviour, need to be strict NO FISH, ESPECIALLY FARMED FISH, NO. NO SOY. NO PRESERVED FOOD. 

& I masturbated twice this week, doubt that helps.

Maybe I have delayed reaction to gluten too, I ate piece of bread yesterday not good either. 

I dunno but I don't feel good at all, I will still keep going & find a way to move city.  Get away from my disgusting father & deranged neighbours & dark room & this fucking place. 

I will try & enhance my life & environment regardless, the root solution, must take ownership of my life, where I live, what I put in my body, who I interreact with, as Leo  said. 

Can not ever quit. I pray that I will feel sharper again soon, & I will increase my energy & my IQ By at least 50%, they say anything is possible. If it takes weeks that's ok (BUT IT'S NOT COS I HAVE NO FUCKING PATIENCE & I WATCHED LEOS PATIENCE VIDEO 3 TIMES & I TRIED MEDIATATIUNN& FASTING 7 ahh ahd  fuck fuck fuck fuck give me give me give me shit fucking right now FUCK. 

I'm so desparate. 

Ok, OCD is too bad, I can't right on here anymore, I can't do this anymore. Leaving this forum for several months. 

 

Edited May 2, 2021 by Striving for more

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Today I worked hard, in spite of the brain fog & OCD. 

I messed it up by using cheap shampoo that I decided to use as an experiment. d

Really really itchy head, headache, can't sleep. 

I'm never using shampoo again. 

It makes my hair all flaky & over soft anyway, & I don't want any of these chemicals.

I bought a "natural biotin shampoo" but its expensive & I don't know if it's full of shit. 

Time to cut out soaps, deodorants.

It's a shame because smelling good is such an advantage to attraction & I want every advantage, I don't wanna do oger game (lol)

So many fucking chemicals in that shampoo when I looked at the truth. 

Lol, we in the dark ages. But I wanna be butterfly man !  Nah fuck that, I'm still NEO.

Edited May 2, 2021 by Striving for more

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Seeking love through macdonalds. 

This evening I went to much effort to "seek love" through macdonalds, & in fact the macdonalds tastes incredible. 

But the worst thing is I ate it so late, so now I will have disrupted rem sleep, there is no benefit to eating late ever, I just forgot to eat. 

I just don't like the situation I'm in, I've made change so much slower than it need be, keeping myself stuck through my own low EQ, I'm not lazy or indifferent, but there's so much more to a low EQ than being lazy, because you can work superhard for years & then blow it all away in a day, there's tons of aspects of EQ that you need to get right, otherwise life will hit you with an infinite boomerang that just keeps reverberating to smack yall face, the sad thing is it was actually YOU & you're low EQ that threw the boomerang, but it feels as if it's just life doing it to you. 

 

The fragmented psychee of mine. Meditation, Visualizations, reading books, starting to deep work ... & also some gambling & wasting time & macdonalds. 

My problem is that I'm not happy enough, I'm not depressed, I'm not even lazy, I just need to change environment because nothing else will really change much.

Lool sooo many fucking macho lesbians working in pubs in this area hahaha, they always look like they wanna fight you when you walk in, nah fuck the pub I don't wanna give my details & sit inside the garden & give money to those normie cunts anwyay, Fuck normies, I wanna fly to the moon & take all the non normies with me. 

Oh yeah, doing tribalism am I ? FUCK NORMIES, KILL THEM I'M FUCKING LIKE HITLER BUT WITH NORMIES. Oh shit I just killed my family then hahah. 

No I don't actually want to kill people, but the moon would be nice. Take me to the fucking moon. 

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I'll pathetic i've been this evening & this week. 

I am so much more capable than this, Life can be 9 millions times richer, more fulfilling, more exciting. I just have to see it & focus. 

I am so scared of aging & death, I have little time left. 

I need this next year to feel like 10 years. I must do so much & manipulate the flow of time & undergo infinite novel experience, I must develop myself to the highest. 

& fuck it, I want quick results, sorry Leo, but I'm not waiting around. No not results in a day, but I want massive fucking results in a month & HUGE fucking results in 3 months, I'm not waiting around. 

 

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GIANT 3 MONTH GAINS. 

3 MONTHS COME FAST  & SUDDEN LIKE AN ERECTION, 3 MONTHS TO SUCESS.

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Mr alpha biohacker just ate a giant mac donalds & coke at 10:45PM, & Masturbated 3 times this week. 

It's stupid because it's not even a " moment of weakness" I used to feel addicted to that stuff but I dont, I consciouly chose to do it as if I had intentionally resigned myself to mediocrity becuase I'd gotten tired of life. 

It's a shame because in 10 or 20 years I would think but he still had his life ahead of him wtf, but the mind tricks u makes u panick to think no its too late lol crazy, again all stemming from fear of death & aging - & ironically this fear sometimes makes you act as if you're not afraid - just to forget the subconscious fear, sometimes it helps, it all depends from what place it's coming from I guess, the thought "my time is limited" can either get you up in the morning & get you running to your goals or it can crush you, today it crushed me, tommorow lets do the opposite. 

 

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Leo's Videos : 

• I've re watched many of leo's (practical mostly older) videos again recently : oh boy did I take these for granted, I "listened" to them before, but through one ear out the other, nothing changed in my life, when I listened 1 or 2/3 years ago. 

 

• This year I want the books I read & leo's teachings to seethe deeply into my brain, a deep incarnation, embodiment
• I will listen multiple times & apply to my life, & connect his key sayings to past experiences & problems of my own life, & to my own intuition & I will put action first, with a good ratio of action to theory, theory comes first, but action lasts longer. 

 

Best Leo vids to apply & Deeply embody into my brain, my psyche, my subconscious, my behaviour, my life : 

• How to be strategic mutherfucker
• The power of self - acceptance 
• The no.1 Rule for Acing life (oh boy this one is so simple but its always the "hard choice", time to commit to this one for good) 
• Learning = making distinctions, observation, behaviour change
• Requisite Variety (Blog Post) 
• Awareness alone is curative 
• Life is counterintuitive (This video hooked me to act.org, the god videos equally put me off haha)  
• The power of asking questions
• Self love is the highest teaching 
• Commonplace book video > Already watched & applied 1 note long ago, so fucking important, just need to organize my 1 note a bit better, but it's definitely getting refined every week, 5% neater clearer, but I need to define & escribe my goals more & actually remember to remind myself of them, although I know my main goals, I need more sub goals / sub steps to guide my journey 

 

Books to Finish / APPLY 

• the organized mind 
• 48 laws of power 
• The 50th law - with 50 cent (Audiobook listened, amazing book)
• think & grow rich 
• Elite dating secrets 
• Deep work 
•  How to win friends & influence people 
• The power of now ( not started yet)
• 7 habits of highly effective people 

& Take key notes > apply to my own life & GO SLOW - DEEP & IMPACTFUL UNDERSTANDING = EMBODIMENT = LASTING CHANGE 

Ask questions : "what were the top 5 ideas from this book" ect...

 

& Remeber ... In spite of all this & books are great, MUST ground myself to direct experience, can't just limit myself to book smarts ... all smarts. 

 

 

 

Edited May 6, 2021 by Striving for more

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So fucking pathetic. 

Being such a pussy recently. 

Why did I go macdonalds yesterday? It's not the bad food that matters to me so much, it's the wasting time and late eating. I have more important matters & dreams, disgusting mediocrity no. 

I had such a good early morning going, meditation, books, visualization & was gradually planning more & more & gradually gaining strategic action. 

I've got a great rhythym with thsese habits, some years old, some months old, some weeks old ... just keep going results will come. 

I give myself TOO MUCH LOVE TO WASTE ANY MORE TIME OR TO QUIT. 

As Jocko wlinkin puts it "FIGHT, GO DOWN SWINING.

But I don't even need to fight in a sense, because I actually want to be efficient with my time & chase my goals & be healthy, so I don't need to fight my natural desires. 

But I fight the weakness till the end. My time here is done. Time to go after my dreams, I start fresh again, I clear away my neurosis, todays a new day, I chose to be in the present & let go of the frustration.

I chose to fight that negative feeling inside becaue I am not a broken man, I am not a happy guy or successful guy in anything yet, but I chose not to be broken like those weak & lost rich kids with $Billion parents who won the lottery of life. 

Still feeling not goood, mind & writing has limits, I will do some trauma release now & get back towards my goals, pick myself up, journal my half a day backlash. Yes I'm perfectionist, I only set high standards  nada mas. 

 

NOT GOOD ENOUGH. TIME TO ACE LIFE EVERY DAY THIS WEEK. "THE HARD CHOICE".

I CHOOSE TO READ MORE, STODY MORE, MEDITATE MORE, GROW MORE,  WAKE UP EVEN EARLIER, EARN A FUCK TON MORE MONEY & NOT LOSE ANY AGAIN.  I CAN DO ALL THESE THINGS AT ONCE, RIGHT AWAY, BECAUSE I'VE BUILT UP TO THIS FOR TIME & SO THE MINOR BACKLASHES ARE JUST FALSEHOODS

THIS IS WHO I REALLY AM. A FUCKING WARRIOR. I WAS BORN TO BE A WARRIOR, A LEADER. 

I AM STRONG. & I CHOSE TO LOVE MYSELF. I CHOSE THE HARD CHOICE, THE RIGHT CHOICE, FULFILLING CHOICE. I CHOOSE THE WAY OF THE HERO. 

NO ONE WILL PUT ME DOWN. NO ONE WILL INFLUENCE ME. NO NORMIE WILL AFFECT ME, NO MEICROITY WILL CROSS MY BRAIN, MY RAS WILL ONLY NOTICE GREATNESS, FOR THAT IS ONLY WHAT I RESONATE WITH. NOT JUST WEALTH OR CAREER, GREATNESS IN EVERY AREA OF LIFE, IN EVERYTHING THAT I DO. 

I allow myself to be free, I chose freedom, I chose to fight. 

Edited May 7, 2021 by Striving for more

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Today I force myself to become emotional. I force myself to get passionate. 

Keep feeling trapped by my environment, my growth feels soo stunted. 

Some Restrictions have been lifted now, I must take the leap of faith. Stop eating food to distract myself, Feel the pain, & harness it. 

I must move country. I must do this as soon as possible. 

No more planning, holding back. No more worrying about money. I have enough, just enough, In fact people have moved with no money at all, even that's possible. 

I must move within a week. I need a big change. 

So much fucking shit I wanted to do the last few years, but didn't. All cos of my environment. 

Money, fame, power, sex, friendships, spirituality & Joy could have come to me, but my environment crushed me. It's my fault, for letting it. 

I am still young, but there is no time, I will be dead tomorrow, 80 years old & forgotten, crumbling with regret. No. 

I can't plan today, Had some wine. 

But I will channel the power of faith, because I the courage & the drive to just fucking move. 

I need to feel alive, I need a breeze, I need nature, I need art, I need inspiration, I need my own space, I need novelty, I need to get away from this twisted culture of apathy & get away from the rain & all the fucking misery western fucks. 

I need change. It's been too long. 

I know I'm capable of being creative, businesses & art & creativity & success & a social life & challenges & all of that. I can gain all of this, just need the environment, the space, the inspiration. 

Time to go now, time to fly away, the heroes journey. 

No more time to mess about. 

I will message every single youtuber who has recently moved, & ask them how I do it, tell them I'm desparate. 

I want my own youtube channel, I have so much charisma & wisdom & "art" to share. But fuck doing youtube where I live, I'm going a beautiful country & then, & then I have the scenery, the inspiration, the art, the space, the peace. 

I need to explore, I need to feel alive for once. I can't take this anymore. I'm waking up at 4AM tommorow, no exucuses. 

I can sleep once I succeed, once I've moved, then I can sleep. 

I have to go now, I have to fly away. I prey to fucking god that this comes quick. I need the spark, the match stick, my environment always douses the flame, NO. 

I NEED THE FLAME, THE FLAME IS FUCKING EVERYTHING. 

FAMILY, CULTURE, THE WEATHER, TOXIC PEOPLE, ALWAYS DOUSING THE FLAME. 

You know what? ALL THESE PEOPLE MAKE ME SICK. SICK! DISGUSTED. 

I NEED TO FIND WARRIORS, EXPLORERS, LEADERS, RISK TAKERS, GODS AMONG MEN, & No shallow dumb girls, FUCKING GODESSES. These people I will associate. I will find them.

Think & grow rich is the only book I will read again this week, nothing else needed. 

FAITH, SELF - LOVE, SEXUAL DESIRE. ALL WILL BE TRANSMUTED INTO MY GOALS. 

I watched porn yesterday, I ate junk food the last 2 days ... WHY? Because I lost touch with a purpose. 

My purpose is to move, & that isn#t easy, it won't come by being lazy. 4AM I Wake up. I listen to jocko willink. 

I WILL SPARK THE FLAME AS MUCH AS I CAN, I WILL KEEP IT GOING INDEFINITELY UNTIL I HIT MY GOAL. 

 

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Feeling super sick & tired today. Really struggling to be effective. 

Strange because I wasn't yesterday, it was sudden... Have eaten some high thiol foods this week, It could be that or just general metal toxicity. 

I have aching jaw, stomach ache, bloating, low energy, weird digestion & fog. 

I was relatively productive yesterday, towards my goal of moving ... But I still have a lot of sub steps to go. 

Thank god I have enough savings to keep me going several months, I would struggle to find hope if I didn't,  I had backlash this week & wasted stupid money on alcohol & jewellery & fast food. I prey to learn the lesson & have more boundaries with my self, exercise more self control & self respect. 

And I prey that this sickness is temporary, & not continuous ... but leads to more appreciation of health & a more careful diet. 

I need energy, physical & psychological, to carry out my present goal, a burning mental desire still but I prey for health to accelerate & ease the process. 

Lots of small steps, some physically draining, some cognitively demanding. 

I am a very suggestible person, 1 key reason why I must make the move, for I know of no healthy nor successful nor creative people around me,  I have very high standards of who I allow into my life, & that must even include neighbours, the vibrations of a town. 

In spite of the sickness, I will act towards my goal, as much as I can, but I must also watch my diet & be careful. 

I am reading Andy Cutler Chelation once again... it turns out I missed so much! So many sneaky sources of exposure ... Like the silver rings I wear? Like Poultry & Bakery Products? Like Paint in my house ? 

Some people might see the term "normies" as snobbish, but as a suggestible person you must weed out the normies, for otherwise you'll slip right back in to "normie life", "Normie thought processes" ect... 

I used to be a normie anyway, & guess what? My life had no hope, I accepted the hollow fate of everyone else, believed  strongly in the education system as the only path, ate crappy food & absorbed the binge drinking culture of my country, accepted my "role as a normal guy or perhaps less than normal"

"Don't try to hard, don't dream to hard, it's all bullshit, it's all a scam" "It's not easy to move country" "you need mucho money to start a business" 

"Don't approach that girl, because you'll embarrass yourself, don't be a creep!" "Don't bother going out on your own, it's weird!" 

"You need a Mercedes to attract women"

>> Lool I've gone off on a tangent. 

Anyway, back to the goal ... I will keep journaling, keep reading, keep tweaking & changing my habits & diet, not lose sight of my burning desire, burning obsession to move & find a different life, a different culture, to have a more inspiring environment, to be in a bustling yet peaceful city, filled with both Vibrancy & Serenity, modernity & historical awe, inexpensive yet exuberant.

I know what I want, the question is how do I accelerate the process? 

I am not the most naturally organized & conscientious, but this 100% SOMETHING MUTABLE

it certainly can be changed > for this reason I keep studying technology, I keep tweaking my routines, how I process & categorize & utilize information. 

I was such a mess, cognitively, psychologically, informationally, only a year ago... I have grown so much ... & I thank journalling as 1 big reason, a habit I only really made consistent about 6 weeks ago. 

I write this post for self - love, for relentlessness, to keep my spirit & morale high. I decide that I was born to be a warrior, I listen to Jocko Wilink, I listen to soldiers, I always keep my headphones on in public as the average vibrational  frequency of normies in this specific area is as low as the mice that run around beneath me.

I say thank god for technology > for it allows me to keep my vibration high, I am not necessarily an introvert, but in this place it is very wise to be an introvert, in any place in fact when you expect such low frequencies from the outside world. 

This will all change when I move. Now I may have 1 health question to ask this forum  about mercury exposure, after that I log out & continue striving towards my burning obsession. 

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I love journalling, I still fee kind of sick physically but there's such a STRONG wave oh psychological desire pulsating through me that I feel ready to go anyway, ready to take some risks, to confront boredom & do menial tasks I have to do, to bite the bullet, step up to the challenge & FIGHT, GO DOWN SWINGING, as Jocko would say. Go fucking down swinging. 

I leave on this note, this note of high vibration.

Edited May 25, 2021 by Striving for more

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Looking back at my journals I constantly reminded of how neurotic I actually am... In a sense though it is partially just my nature. 

But PARTIALLY, some of my journals ... which are unapologetically unfiltered transparent reflection of my internal state & thought processes seem almost forced, like I'm just unable to accept the present moment, stuck in a loop & unable to accept dall my flaws & shortcomings & trying to squeeze out pointless repetitive thoughts. ..

It's like i'm tryna take a shit, but there's no shit there, but I'm trying to shit & god is saying " just let it go bro, it's not time to shit today, you'll have your time".]

Maybe I need to journal less frequently, but with better timing. Sometimes I feel really insightful or refreshed after a paraphraph, sometimes I just feel like I went to take a shit & there was nothing there (and that really is the perfect and only analogy to articulate my point here). 

(You don't understand until you actually experience that scenario  

Edited May 27, 2021 by Striving for more

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I'm feeling a bit stuck in a rut ... 

I keep wasting so much money on fast food & lattes & other stuff. 

All my shit keeps breaking, I still don't have the infrastructure I need, & I wish I just sorted it out ages ago. 

Time to get going soon, but small steps, I have to have low expectations & gradually raise the standard again, because I'm in a rut right now. 

Each day I raise the standard again by 20%, if I go higher great ... but I can't be disappointed because standard is low. 

Aim low, Dream big. 

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AHHH. I have to recover mentally now & get out of this rut. 

I can't delay my goals like this. 

Injury or not, I'll work it out, I'm not staying in this place. 

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I just completed a small half step of a little step of my to do list. 

On to the next ones, 1% then another, then 0.5% then another ... until I am Batman. 

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Diverse sources of learning: 

• I spend too much time on this forum > not even as procrastination, but my downtime is heavily leant towards actualized.org ... when there are other great sources to learn from 
• Actualized.org is a limited resource & a limited perspective
• This forum is great, but there are other sources that have a different style, a different format, different expertise ect... 
• This website is good for the big picture ... & sometimes good for specific hacks & tips 
• But there are other websites, teachers, videos, books & forums that also teach me different stuff, in more detail, from a different perspective 

There's many ways to learn & study, there's online or in person courses, workshops.

Learning in 1 way or using 1 medium stunts your growth

There's direct experience as king too, the means to integrate & synthesize all the mind's collected data > e.g. doing projects 

In my late evening sessions, I will be still on here, but I will have a balanced ratio to other sources of learning

 

One interesting service I'm looking into now is called Gia - looks juicy

Edited May 28, 2021 by Striving for more

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Ok to so masturbating daily and eating cheap "convenient" food = Sleeping 10 hours and waking up to pee 4 times, waking up foggy, worse skin & a slight headache. 

It's also expensive "cheap" quality, but $10 for a burger & fries = 3-7 days of organic chicken. 

I just realised my pillow, my dressing gown & perhaps even my bed sheets are all polyester. 

Maybe this is one factor why I get so hot at night & always struggled in the summer. 

I dream of silk sheets, silk & linen clothes, perfect materials for all weathers. 

 

From today I decide to restart the clock, ditch my "Loser effect" and create a "winner effect"

• Meditate & Visualize my dream life with soul lifting music > 10 Minutes
• sell everything I own I don't need 
• Get all items e.g. keyboard fixed via amazon warranty 
• Sell my PC & monitor & get a good laptop because I'll need one on my journey 
• Study hard hard today, learn about a mix of subjects
• Spend 4 hours of deep work towards my online career 

 

• EAT NO JUNK MEAT OR FRIES TODAY 

These are all ideals, it's fine if I do 50% or 20% or 10%, I'll do my best , as long as there is consistency that's all that counts, I refer to Atomic Habits to clarify this mindset 

Edited May 29, 2021 by Striving for more

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Meals eaten today : 

• Flax seeds, banana & coconut milk smoothie 
• Mixed nuts 
• Cucumber 
• Olives 
• Full pounder of grass fed meet

Old habit / Urge appeared > The shops nearby, lets go buy some popcorn & dr pepper mmm (It's a Saturday, lets have a rest)

... NO, I'm OK Thanks. I'll let that thought fly away

 

Finished eating about 2 - 2:30 PM >> FUCK IT, Lets do 24 hour fast. No food (Except morning Tea) until 2PM Tomorrow 

 

Room = Half tidy & minimized > Clearing out all the junk I forgot to remove, just idly taking up space 

Jordan Peterson Time. 

Found out I have been using polyester pillow, pillow case & duvet case for years ... throwing that shit away & ordering 100% cotton. 

Now I go & continue, I rebuild myself, I tidy my room, I tidy my desk, tidy my computer, clear my emails, arrange google calendar, sort out one note, write key priorities for the week,  I order the utility items I need, I list photos of everything to sell & sell em all. 

soon I must book flights, I must make this move real ... until I booked the flight it doesn't exist