Road To Success & The Obstacles

[Striving for more]

So I can't sleep still because of the sugar & chemical food. 

I have decided to painfully look back my journals (cringing). 

Dude, Why do I always over think so much? Why am I not just concise. 

Concise is cool but also useful, I'm even worse than Jordan Peterson, & his diarreah mouth is annoying. 

Tbh, I feel like I'm getting better, even my long posts recently, at least they have a lot of subtstance to them, lessons to them. 

Way more to improve though, I hope my thought process gets more & more concize, less & less words, but more & more substance. 

I don't know why but some point this year just intuited this was one of the most important skills to have. I mean I'm basically describing the abilty to think here. 

Thinking is a skill. In fact overthinking (1 of my major problems) shows a lack of thinking skill. 

And of course, Feeling is a very crucail skill too. 

How simple. 

1. Learn to think 

2. Learn to feel 

= << 1% of all people (including me).

Edited February 4, 2022 by Striving for more

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"Most of you are not energetically ready yet to resonate with the advice that you need". 

High, Status, Mentoring ... Program. 

Fucking, Epic. 

1. Have passively listened to the program & taken some notes 
2. Next > finish entire program 
3. Rewatch & take comprohensive notes + fill in any gaps I missed
4. Inmediately start doing Exercises & Schedule in at least 1 exercize per day
5. Continue to practice applying these principles talking to self in mirror (body lingo vocal range Marketing & persuasion telling stories ect..) , by writing stories & persuasive sales copy, by practicing continually selling myself on my dreams, consciously noting my lower day to day & higher self goals.  (Do this multiple time per day) 
6. Consciously apply this stuff in social + dating + biz interactions, but apply gradually 1 thing at a time, no overkill. 
7. Continously rewatch this program at least once a week, it is to epic to let it slip from my brain. 
8. Buy & read any books that owen advised in the program + Use my intuition, innver voice & future reference experiences to feed into my theoretical web of understanding (gained from the program) & vice versa. 

Curious to read > Levels of Energy. 

AH GO TO BED, Must go against my mind's desire for stimulation rn & rest. Stressful day tomorrow. 

... 10/02/2022 18:56

... I'm just divergently riffing here & conducting multiple threads & thought processes without purpose or structure. 

• Creativity, money & spirit. The 3 things combine to create a force that pushes through any resitance & changes the world, But only some people have the combinaiton, manye have just 1, many broke hippies, many souless entrepeneurs, many copy cats, many followers It's all about being disruptive.
• Reading random self- help articles this evening, without purpose or or plan, allowing my thoughts to take me somewhere
• "I know I still care what people think of me, I am still inhibited, I've wathced some utube videos on this already, yet the problem still persists, different perspective?" 
• Random google articles, Nice.

 

• Counterintuitive : Stop judging others, judging others feeds the background anxiety that others may be judging you. 
• Don't judge, just observe. 
• “We all love ourselves more than other people, but care more about their opinion than our own,” (Marcus Aurelias). 
• Marcus Aurelias, Marcus Aurelias ... as my brain registers the name a charge of energy is transmitted, energy directed to focusing longer & harder & processing the qoute harder, the brain fires up, better take this qoute seriously. 
• (So the exact same qoute by some random joe might not get my brain internalize). 

 

• Why? The Halo Effect >> Owen bangs on about the Halo effect a lot & I get why, some stranger or certain acquaintance say the wisest or genius thing  but we dismiss it because we haven't haven't pre-validated them, worse we may pre disregarded them. 
• So this is why influence & credentials can be important, even if it's all a pumped up marketing process, u might need to go thru all that to get to the point where people take u seriously & listen & value your thoughts, u gotta play in to this illusion to truly influence people. 

 

More Infield Experience Journalling coming soon : (> Detail another day tired)

• Turbulent fluctuating shift in states, winner & loser effect, dependent on other's reactions to self
• Did some physical opener approach, initial reaction good so perhaps inital attraction, but frame was probably weak, eye contact probably wasn't strong enough ect... (It would help if this was literally filmed, just a diluted memory to work with) 

 

• Did some physical opener/ escalation & She responded quite well/touchy, but got stuck there, let go, then the awkward dancing next to her & in my head the whole time thinking "ABOUT TO DANCE WITH HER SOON, ANY MINUTE NOW, GRAB  HER HANDS TO DANCE") So not very present in the moment, maybe 20 or 30 seconds go  by & I offer to dance, but I do  this weird Half hearted dance (more like a lame hand gesture) (PATTERN OCCRUING) > Where I grab 1 of her hands with my hand & then swing it up & down like a hammock, then I do the swirl her around thing then I swirl myself around, then I let go & dance myself for 20 seconds or some minutes, then I go back to her & this time grab both her hands & we do a slightly less half hearted dance (But still feels like cringy kindergarten dancing BS) ... Then she sees another friend & overtly offers to dance with him/her (a clear indirect signal of disinterest) > So then I leave alone. 

 

• But what I remember is her inital reaction was decent, but my dance game & non verbal communication was probably just too terrible, or she was just being nice in the first place & Was never interested, I wish there was a camera Because It's hard to truly learn without it in these scenarios. 

 

Turbulent Tide of state change : 

• I come out club & I'd had lots of good social validation some reason this evening, I come out & i'm walkin past & I thought I saw a girl smile at me in the que to the club, I walk down the road, then walk the way back & decide to approach "hey come to this club" this que looks slow, they look at me disapprovingly & say no thanks, My state was suddenly lost, just like that, it wasn't what they said, it was just there body language & I now felt awkward & low value, but I guess I learnt that that doesn't work, some girls wouldn't just randomly come to a club & drop what they're doing for a stranger on a dime, Unecessary Analysis > ((I dunno if those girls had a genuis level of quick analyical ability & actually went thru that thought process & then deduced "he is low value & doesn't understand appropriate social context & rapport bulding", or that was just their intuitive snap deduction represented as a feeling anyway I digress))

 

• So I walk out with this state loss & carry this with me somewhat into the next club. 
• I'm dancing with guy in group who's quite upbeat & seems quite humorous, on dancing floor I see him approach or gesture to a girl non verbally I think, then she hadnon verbal rejection or indifference

Now from this point ...

• Now I see his face drop & it was sad to see, he suddenly looks quite sad & demoralized, like a (whole poked into his brain & a charge of energy & dopamine was lost)
• From this point on he would dance but he just wasn't the same the entire night, he didn't approach another girl & he looked more awkward & sad, I could sort of read him from this, he wasn't the most attractive guy or dressed up that cool, just average at best, so maybe he had decided that was his defining characteristic & no girl could like him, or maybe he was just sensitive to negative feedback, I don't know, but given how easily I could read this guy's state change it's scary to imagine how good at this stuff girls are lool. 

 

• So I dance for a while & don't approach anyone, I see a girl with big breasts but she had Beaucoup makeup & prob kinda chubby, but I see her looking bored with 2 friends & I plan to talk to her but hesistate for at leas an hour, then i see her on the dance floor later & I decide "Bold phsyical opener!" 
• She's dancing in front & I grab her form behind & put my arm around her & raise my arm up, she doesn't respond well to that. 
• Not sure if that's my bad approach or it's more like "need big club & 2 out of the 20 girls will hook" (as leo pointed out) > So I'll have to ask about this // Think for myself about it too when I'm less tired. 
• I'm getting tired & it's getting late, I'm learning a lot & finding juicer videos & articles to read & getting > social experience every week.

 

Edited February 10, 2022 by Striving for more

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I watched old infield compliation of Rsd Tyler & Julian. 

Wow, haha. I actually needed to see that. 

Leo said his theoretical series was enough to get results & I agree BUT, I do think everyone needs to see some masterful infields ... It's one thing to hear a logical list of steps, another to see the end result in action. 

So feel like watching that completely changed my brain. 

Why? The level of entitlement & not giving a fuckness + the sillyness & weirdness of those approaches is just startling.

But the key lesson here is : Game doesn't need to be sooo fucking serious...

I have a short time left on this earth, & I don't wanna be like every other Joe any more holding this nervous face, "HEYY, WHERE ARE U FROM, WHATS UR NAME, NICE TO MEET U .... ERH SO DO U WANT TO DANCE? ... I'M GOING TO PERSIST NOW! ... NUMBER PLEASE?? ... "QUICK GET IN STATE, QUICK MUST GET THAT 9, BETTER CATCH HER, AROOH"

Like noo bro. The ultimate end point of game would be to get similar to how owen & Julian are in these random compilations, completely not giving a fuck, experimenting, completely entitled, 0% needy in any way, will approach any woman in any situation, when she's with a group whatever, just self - amusing, having fun & not taking myself so seriously. 

It might sound simple, but this imo a serious serious skill, to the level that I saw them do this in these infields, I have almost never seen anyone do it like that, especially in personal nights out or in the day, how rare is that lol. 

Starting to go on tangent a bit, look ultimately this is fucking comedy gold here, my work is very logical & boring, I've spent years being around low vibration people, It's a paradox, on the 1 hand I'm dead serious & observing patterns & I'm treating my life Like I could die any moment, & I'm dead serious in persuing these social goals, but the ultimate goal is the complete opposite : Complete presences, 0 self-consciousness, 0 approach anxiety, 0 needyness, 0 giving a fuck, 100% independence of outcome, & most crucially, self amusement, having fun, experimenting, trying wacky shit, it's just fun, people are funny & I'm excited to see what I can get away with, the shit I'm gonna pull off, & the person I'd have to become to be able to do this with ease : way more wittier, much more present to the moment, far less needy, more internally grounded, much better humour, quick wit, body language, bools.

Now, the key Frame shift I'm making - due to witnessing these compilations :

• Going to try out the frame of > DOMINANT + ENTITLED + SILLY + DETACHED FROM OUTCOME 
• "Come now, leave now, You're coming with me leave your friends, I'm out of your league" 
• (The reason Julian does this so well is because he's also very silly, (**I must intentionally infuse SILLYNESS with dominant frame otherwise I am just a threatening predator).
• "You can go now" 
• Funny accent imitations, stupid stunts ect... > This can all be worked on & this sounds pretty fun tbh, going to watch more stand up comedy also 
• * I'm sure this frame might not work too well at first, may even get me in trouble, but I'm just done with going half hearted, Gonna go full circle with the frame, anything too over the top is a calibration lesson.
• Intentionally going slightly over the top > Recentres & brings up the default baseline (this statement only makes  sence after watching tyler's marketing/public speach lessons)

 

Summary of Action Steps : 

1. Find wingman & fix logistical problems 
2. Try out dominant + entitiled + silly + detached frame 
3. Approach WAYY more (I have to deserve what I want to get it, & I have to earn who I want to become)
4. Get better clothes, get some wackier clothes + more smart clothes (to enter certain clubs) > & get some tailoring done
5. Next go out & not drink once, not 1 single drink
6. Learn better wit, accents & imitations & spontaneous convos 
7. Transition : observe > approach + statement > (Instant) Kino escalation & calibrate to reaction 
8. Internalise & practice kino escalation, step by step 
9. Meditate every day 
10. Internal validation frame & having standards > (both pick up & meeting friends) > I am screening others, I will not randomly just befriend everyone, I have standards & screen for people who fit my energy, my values & interests, even after befriending someone, I will not invest in them more than they do back &the less I know someone, the less I will invest. 
11. Self knowledge & Mental clarity > I must know exactly who I am, what I want, value & enjoy & where I'm headed > this enables me to create boundaries, to filter out the wrong people & situations & to screen for the right ones, to say no to the things/people that are an oppurtunity cost to that with which I resonate. 

Edited February 12, 2022 by Striving for more

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Medium.com Is fucking awesome. 

I read a couple articles from there a few years ago, but I let it slip. 

I didn't even realize it has a cool structure to it, a recommendation algorithm based on what u favorite & easy highlighting feature. 

I love Medium, reading their articles just works for me because they tell me stuff I didn't know or they reframe how I think about something in an insightful & engaging way, rather than just repeating the same shit in the same way like 95% of every fucking human does with their boring brains.

Ima do 20 minutes a day now.

Edited February 18, 2022 by Striving for more

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Meditation = HIDDEN SECRET TO MOTIVATION ??? 

• So I've just spent most of the day durping.
• I wasted the last few hours > Mostly environmental cause, couldn't find quiet environment to focus & work. 
• I go to a burrito shop & buy a big burrito, then I feel tired, but mostly due to the disappointment Of having durping all day, & doing some self help reading but not actually working on my life or my important problems. 

 

• So I finally cave in & realize, this isn't working, lets just embrace my procrastination, So I sit there & jus start meditating

NOW AFTER JUST 20 SECONDS OF MEDITATING, SPIRITUAL ENERGY FLOWS INTO ME, & I HAVE THIS HIGHER SELF THOUGHT/FEELING THAT INSTANSTLY CAUSES UPBEAT VIBRATION, IT'S LIKE THAT HIGHER SELF THOUGHT WAS WAITING TO SPEAK ALL DAY, BUT IT WAS BEING DROWNED OUT TOO MUCH BY NOISE. 

I am going to continue meditating now & then god forbid I will get to action.. can't be on here or any other conceptualverse too much. 

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The best self help concept I have learnt recently which is deceptively simple. 

Celebrate every small win of the day (Rsd Julian)

"YESS, "YESS Well done!" > This doens't make you lazy, it gives you more fuel!

& the mind has a Negativity Bias. 

So consciously build the habit of celebrating every micro win ... & finding every micro win in every situation & training my RAS to zoom in on that, rather than dwell on what I didn't get. 

I did a cold approach today & my mind instantly started to focus on how ... on how I talked too much or too long, or how I hesitated initially & didn't jump straight in ... 

But I still fucking approached! & I got the number. What the fuck. YESS!, what a win YESS. 

Also energetically celebrating too, so u just did an approach? > Jump up into the air & shout YESS!, reach your arms up like an athelete would after getting a medal. 

Do this even in "bad interactions & bad nights out", There's a lesson to be learnt here ... YESS!! 

I said outrageous offensive shit, YESS!, now I know not to say that again! WINNING. 

I did deep work for 20 minutes today, YESS!!, tomorrow I can do 40 minutes. 

I read a self help article but I didn't apply nada, YESS!! Well done for showing the awareness of how imperative it is to actually apply what u learnt, awareness of this mistake means a change in future behavior, next time u will inmeditately apply what you learn! Increased self awareness, YESS!

 

...  Recently I read an incredible medium article, this guy is so smart it's insane, the debt & complexity of his ideas are incredible, on another level, on another plane. 

I will have to paste my notes when I have time. Maybe, or maybe I should keep them to myself, you can't share everything

Edited February 25, 2022 by Striving for more

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In a certain kind of mood. I can't work or train or read any more, I can't be in logical brain any more right now. 

I want to go back to socializing and pickup, but I have to save money & also make money & do it quick & I don't know if I have enough mental bandwidth for social life again yet, but ahh life moves by quick, hurry up, get the mundane logistical garbage out the way. 

I don't know whether going against my urges is "delayed gratification & focusing on prirotiy" or it's just self neglect and burnout/lack of balance, no logical verbal answer will answer this question. 

Been thinking about death & how I can't take it for granted, I don't know how long left my mum will live, people sometimes just die & you assume they got another 30 years. Not just mum but general people, Owen Cook could die any minute, Leo could die, many interesting people could just die, & I'll never have a chance to meet or engage with them if I don't move quick, time doesn't stop. So many wholes in my life & spirit, so much to accomplish, but even more importantly so much to experience, so much I have to experience, I have to get the stage orange shit out of my way quick, I have to get there.

I feel a whole in my spirit & I feel like I am too in my head still, I need to get my finances sorted & my physical energy better because I want to focus on what matters, I want time & space for relationsips, I want to never go back to where I've been most of my life, lonely, bored, contracted & stuck. 

Time for some dark room Meditation. 

Edited February 26, 2022 by Striving for more

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 Writing out goals & habits for this month : 

1. Goals 
2. Visualization 
3. Mediation 
4. Structure (More neat journaling system & use calendar more often) > (Eliminate friction & decision fatigue) 

 

• Not using daily calendar is most ridiculously Imperative  thing I MUST ingrain as subconscious habit NOW. 

Fresh start to Month, a purposeful month, a month of achievement & optimism. Symbolic spring is here. 

 

Edited March 2, 2022 by Striving for more

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I just WASTED 30 minutes of my precious precious life on this forum. 

I have worked pretty hard recently brute forcing stuff but I had more in me, to continue going this evening. 

But then I thought "let me just scroll through the forum, "just a bit". 

NO. Fuck answering people's posts, fuck joining in, I don't give a shit right now. 

MY LIFE IS PRIORITY. Fuck this forum, I'll come back in a month or only when I have a specific question to ask I'll ask it & get some answers.

Fuck Loitering, whether in the supermarket or in the forum. Seneca Bitch! 

Big fucking dreams this year are finally gonna happen, and I've got a lot of pressure at the moment too, in the deep dark abyss & no one holding my hand, cutthroat business I gotta make it out the other side,

I gotta live where I want & I gotta go get the money. Go get the skills. Go get the value. Nothing else right now. 

Edited March 3, 2022 by Striving for more

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No forum time but I MUST offload my thoughts rn whilst my brain is sharpest. 

Random collection of "Important" thoughts : 

• Several persuits are the higest priority for my growth across multiple domains (Lifestyle, cognitive development, spirtual enhancement) 

 

1. A focus on GOING META

A.Solve the structure before I just go into more & more content. 

• Alongside just journalling day after day - I will spend a short (10-20 minutes) every day, decluttering + simplifying my 1note journal (towards a > efficient, simple, future proof, lucid format that is easy to connect & reconnect with ideas & lessons & set goals & learn skills from, no > clutter, a proficient system, TESLA). 
• (This will take time becoz I got bills to pay, but after weeks I think I'll get there, stay strong.)

Never listening to boring people ever again 

• I don't care how smart or successful or useful someones information is, if they're presenting it in a boring way, if the speaker has a monotone low testosterone uncharasmatic voice with no  passion humour & no public speaking & he fucking coughs & umms & erhhs & has a bland look in his eyes & shit then I'm turning that shit off 
• Why Neo? "So u just gonna go & listen to some charasamtica marketing guru who spews out nonsense to sell u shit?" 
• NO. U can have both, u can find people who are both intelligent & charasmatic, vocal, interesting huourous. I have high standards & besides, I never learn as much if I'm bored. 
• 1 Sorta Exception is Andrew Huberman > He isn't the most charasmatic speaker but he has gone through pain & problems & > life experience than most professors, u can see the pain & humility in his eyes & although he's defo no owen cook I allow myself to listen to him (if the topic is relevant to my needs), because he does engage me > than most boring professors & has some masculine energy & decent voice.

 

• More of a focus on only learning what interests me (Unless the boring thing is in inmediate survival category - gotta be mature & just brute force that shit) > Because Sometimes on autopilot I'm washing dishes & half listeing to some random podcast but lost the awareness that 1. this is fucking boring & 2. I'm not even concetranting 
• So > mindfulness throughout the process > more mindfulness on who I select to read listen to + mindfulness as I'm absorbing it whether I should continue, fuck sunk cost phallacy, if anything I listen to starts to get boring or unuseful or telling me what I already know, then gotta be mindful & inmediately find something better or meditate instead, sounds like common sense maybe but some reason my flawed brain often doesn't even notice this stuff. 

 

What does interest me? What I chose to zoom my selective attention on :

Heavy Interest : 

• Pick up, Socialization, social skills, charisma
• Lifestyle Design >> Logistics, Travel, Adventures, Time management, Side Hussles / Building passive income structures, Building "social currency" (through syndicates, status & social opps finding better biz oppurtunities & shortcutting my way to wealth (no fucks given this actually takes enormous work & initiave/requisite variety to build initially anywa) ,Networking, Contacts management, Integration between social life & technology 
• Public speaking, body language, vocal range  
• Energy work, trauma release, meditation 
• Marketing, copywriting, Persuasion, Influence
• Going meta, mental models, fast learning, efficiency, productivty, structure, ruthless organization, long & short term planning, 

Mild Interest / (Could become Heavy once I have > Mental bandwith to give & less stress) :

• Learning 2nd language, especially mastering it efficiently using 80/20 rule & zoning in on the accent & pronunciation (the most valuable & underated aspect of learning a language, ensuring that people 1. understand what the fuk ur saying & 2. actually want to listen to u rather than falling a sleep to ur slow, annoying accent - Not an easy task this, very hard but nothing is impossible)

No "Interest" but heavy priority - Must brute force this for my own self - love : 

• Saving money, discipline, long term planning, money management
• Emotional self control, anger management, manage cravings 
• Mercury detox, reduction in plastics, buy water filter again, stop plastic bottle use
• Quickly increase income so I can afford mecury detox & afford to eat organic, "safer" food & maybe Keto 
• Cut out heavy dairy use (Recent habit) 
• Find better less polutted place to live which is quiter & I have better sleep 
• Brute forcing health issues like energy problems, brain fog, anxiety, adhd,  persistant physical injury

 

 

Edited March 4, 2022 by Striving for more

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Whole in my heart, too long I been stuck in my logical brain, I just wanna feel something. 

At some point when I get the money & the girls I know I'm just gonna end up doing drugs & going crazy, we're all gonna die anyway, might as well enjoy it.

Melancholy pleasure, power & greed.

Music drugs & 10's.

 

Edited March 4, 2022 by Striving for more

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Mark Manson - On Elon Musk esque Efficiency : AVOID TASK SWITCHING. 

• Better to spend a whole half - day block or day, or 2 or 3 > working on the same thing 
• Constantly working on 1 thing actually drains far less energy than doing multiple things > If u work on 1 thing for 8 hours, U'll have much more energy than working on 8 different things for an hour each. 

Implications to my life : 

• Start Religiously pre scedulling every Sunday my time & tasks into blocks 
• Remove supermarket trips, cooking, cleaning. Cook Maximum Once per week. Remove all that bullshit from my life, long focused sessions towards my goals & skill developments 
• Follow scedule, hyperfocus. As for reading articles or books - have this all in 1 chunk, not scattered intermitently, fucking same with anything.
• Probably should start doing 24H Fasts & eat huge meals, except maybe some fruit in the morning & nothing in between 
• Only workout inmeditaely after waking up or before going out (state booster)

Edited March 4, 2022 by Striving for more

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Pick up questions to elaborate on or post to forum. 

How far should I push it in pick up? > I have a natural desire to "Push it", to go above my comfort zone, to go more boolsy & risky, not really as a technique to get lays, but as 1. Give myself reference experiences to understand what is possible & acceptable in different contexts & 2. To enhance my courage muscle, & transcend that self conscious muscle or unhealthy feeling of hyper-awareness of other's reactions to me (wow I need to rephrase this thought more concisely). 

So ... "How far should I push it?", How sexual can my opener be? I have a desire to just try out really blunt & sexual stuff, even vulgar stuff, not that I niavely expect it to work per se, but without direct experience of how girls would respond, how can I trust anyone's word on it? Also, even if they react horribly, if I can cope with approaching girl & spouting hilarious vulgar opener & then staying present in her reaction & feeling & breathing in the momentary tension, then I can cope with anything else.

I have gone out a lot the last couple months (currently have less time) > But almost none of my approaches are boolsy enough, they don't feel authentic enough & I feel like the real & true me is waiting on the other side of the boolsy approach.

Edited March 6, 2022 by Striving for more

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I went out again yesterday & I approached 1 or 2 (half heartedly) then throughout the night

I hesitated, & hesitated ... & hesitated. 

a la finale I did approach 2 girls and went for close, but they weren't even that attractive and it was an easy context

I've realized it's less about how many approaches I do, It's about the key moments of tension & how I react in those moments that count. Especially if I overcome these key moments early on, then by default I loosen up & could approach as many girls as I want after that. 

Still failing myself, aligning with my instincts in these key moments of tension : on a dance floor in an open fairly well lit bar , a group of girls com in & 1 of them is very cute. I hesitate & wait & wait & wait.. then it's over for me, but I stay there, just there in the venue idly wasting my time, my energy body is already castrated by the inertia & hesitancy the resistance strengthens until it feels like an immovable force

Reconnecting with rage, hesitancy makes me furious, time is ticking boy. 

WHY THE FUCK AM I HESITANT TO APPROACH A GIRL IN THESE MOMENTS, SHE GONNA STAB ME OR SOMETHING?

It's just a fucking woman man. 

Ima brute force my way to fearlessness. Way bolder & riskier approaches, way bolder in everything I do. Maybe I'll take some mushrooms too. 

Though shouh Intentionally go over the top, the slow exposure therapy shit doesn't resonate with me at this point, I don't plan to get old by the time I figure this shit out. I want the fucking 9's I'm taking them, I'm at war with myself, the only solution is jumping in, skydiving in. 

 

Edited March 8, 2022 by Striving for more

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I felt too tense so I fapped. 

But because I fapped now I feel to apathetic. 

Incorrect solution. I regret killing my 4/5 day streak. 

Need better, quick (healthy) solutions in place to release tension. Meditation isn't enough, Requisite variety needed.

I have dissipated my life force. Not helpful. 

The persistent support of regular Masturbation just startles me, I can't think of anything more draining, how can Leo still recommend this? It can help after several weeks of build up, but not regular, no fucking way.

Edited March 7, 2022 by Striving for more

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2 Hours of Evening speed reading > a lot of wisdom to declutter & recycle right now + additional recycling from previous programs videos & my own direct experience internalized thus far only to the surface.

These notes will all be made off recall whilst fatigued & stressed so may be fuzzy & blury & very unstructured, but I know that active recall is an important step in deeper learning, so I embrace this. 

Some of these points will be things I already know that I don't need to be told again, some will be things I "Knew" but didn't really know, others will be things I didn't even know I should need to know, others will be things I just learnt that I want to consolidate & recycle. 

• No need to judge billionaires I extract the useful & apply
• The mind is a crazy place & there's a whirlwind of infinite knowledge constantly expanding, thus 1 goes meta & learns the core, unchaing principles of thinking, understanding, learning, behavior of success: One learns "principles", or better put, "mental models". 
• Mental models & Meta understanding. 
• Mental Models are way more important than anything else, because they shape how you see reality, "80/20" is a mental model & meta concept, but to go meta meta is to acknowledge that 80/20 rule is mental model & that like with cognitive biases there's I think a whole list of these, gonna internalize the shit out of them. 

 

• Knowledge & skills come as a tree, and within a tree you have the roots & the trunks & the big branches, to which expand twigs & leaves & all the micro elements. 
• Always start with the foundations, especially foundations of thinking & life that can expand & connect across multiple domains, being a specialist is overrated, the "expert generalist" is underrated. 
• 10,000 hour rule is highly overacted & parroted except for sports & other specific domains, but doesn't apply for something like business success & much of life success. 
• You don't need 10K hour rule if you chose a profession or skill or business model that is both rare and valuable. 
• Many professions are valuable but not rare, therefore competition is too high, in that case you need 10,000 or 20 or 30K hours, and you still might not make it.
• If I select a rare and valuable micro skill, then I could technically achieve world class status within 100 hours, especially if I'm the first to invent this skill, furthermore, when you combine unique combinations of rare & valuable micro skills, the world is now yours, & at a fast rate too. 
• Select a small pond in unknown territory, where you can't get eaten by the big fish & over-saturation is non-existent
• Mathematics Implications : The infinite nature of combinatorial possibilities. When u combine any 2 disparate elements together, you obtain a unique combination, the bigger quantity of elements to combine = Exponential (not linear) increase in the amount of potential combinatorial Outcomes. (A+B=AB, A+B+C = AB OR AC OR BC, A+B+C+D = AB OR AC OR AD OR BC OR BD OR ABCD OR ABD OR BCD OR ACD...)
• This translates to the combinatorial power of diverse knowledge or skills for creativity, especially rare/unique + valuable ones. 

 

Focus, Visualize & Brain storm > what could go wrong, not just the positive outcomes

• Further consolidated & reminded me of the pre - mortem concept, (TANGENT, PERSONAL FAILING : I must be honest, I watched Leos vids & I half applied it in my notes, never came back to my notes since & left it like that, no benefit to my life so far, just a theory in my head)
• But I'm going to start taking this practice seriously & gonna apply it properly this week 

 

Success isn't merely about success, it's about not doing the things that cause failure, I've got to stay more humble in any endeavor I take & remember that 1. my brain is not wired for my success  & fulfillment nor the world we live in, Ima slave to tons of  psychological biases, emotions (wrath, greed fear anger hubris sloth envy jealousy addiction rumination) & faulty prioritization)  & life is infinite & unpredictable, so without a pre mortem meta tackling  foresight of all the myriad of obstacles that could come to attack me, my defences won't be ready to handle them as they come. 

Avoid Russian Roulette Games : Just because something is unlikely to occur, if It could destroy , it is not worth the risk 

Use decision trees > positive Outcome > probability of occurrence >  magnitude of positive effect 

Negative outcome > probability of occurrence > magnitude of negative effect 

Calculate : Probablity * Magnitude respectively >> subtract negative from postive 

** The importance here is not on getting specific numbers, but the insight gained from this type of thinking. 

Soon I will study (The 80/20) major cognitive biases & relate this to my past direct experiences & my how to manage & dance with these)

Key Examples (I can recall) : 

• Sunk cost phal lacy
• confirmation bias 
•   "1st choice bias"(?) > (correct title no lo sé) but we have tendency to choose the 1st oppurtunity that comes are way & we rationalize to ourselves that it was the right decision, failing to consider the Oppurtunity Cost to better opportunities & then after investing in it we double down & create a sunk cost, I've fallen for this issue before, (probably several times).
• Liking Bias (Very simple, but gotta remind oneself of how irrational we all are, we vote for who we like & support who we like) 

* Oppurtunity Cost (although such a simple concept), it is one which I'm truly starting to "understand" & develop strong awareness for, I thank Owen Cook for reminding & consolidating the strength of this neural node for me & nudging it to the forefront of my brain, it's gradually impacting how I think & interact with the world, (partly just down to more conscious awareness of death & life's brevity)

Steps to Rapid Learning & Insight about the underrated meta skill of Skill Selection

• certain micro skills can be worth minimum wage whereas other micro skills are worth $1000/Hour, it matters what u choose 

Time Ferris's DSSS Method 

D - Deconstruct > Deconstruct skill into it's foundational core components (& into stepxstep process ?)

S - Select > 80/20 methods for building skill 

S - Sequence > Chose the order of steps for developing skill 
S - Accountability ... Find consequences for not taking the actions 

Lasting Relationships & Networks are Crucial > But they won't happen by accident

Network Links (*Mindmap would be more suitable right here) :

• Buyer - seller dynamic >> be the buyer not the seller, always have a screening checklist written down > internalized for any form of relationships I enter : 
• Oppurtunity cost

Examples : (Screening, Filtration system, do not even give anyone who doesn't fit the list a chance, I have lost a lot of time & potential to the wrong friends, wrong connection, wrong employers before, never again). 

• X + Y values 
• X + Y midset, goals ambitions 
• Genuinely enjoy his/her company 
• Values connection & team play as much or more than personal success
• Sense of humor ect.. 
• Disqualifiers = X, Y, Z 

(Less fresh info recall > Owen Cook's High Status Mentoring (or communication whatever) Program : 

• An epic epic program, I will watch this again when I have more time & recurate my notes 
• The sweetest word is "You", you don't wanna bore your prospects talking about yourself, you mention THEM, you MAKE IT ABOUT THEM
• "Double Your Dating" > Double = Benefit, "Your" = THEM 
• Features & Benefits, not subjective statements, "I'm awesome, ooh i'm rich oo yeah" = EWWW. 
• No, "This product contains x & y features & it will benefit you in x & y way"
• Program completely revolutionized my understanding of & respect for the importance of marketing. u can literally sell people anything no matter how toxic or stupid, for any fucking price u want, with the right marketing. 
• Crazy thing : the price u set actually makes little difference to whether people will buy, sometimes increasing the price actually increases sales. 

 

• Meta Point - Despite all the gd tips above & many more avaialble on marketing, the most underated aspect is : Developing yourself energetically , this entails that u get to a point where anything u say & do, has impact, because captivating just becomes who u are, you could whisper & still people will pay attention. 

Hook > ?  > Show Authority > Captivating Story(?) > Close > Call to Action 

CALL TO ACTION > KRYPTONITE TO THE "WAYNE NEWTON". 

• This is 1 of the best fucking concepts I'lve learned from Owen, it's so obvious yet so simple. Maybe 50% of my all my failures in life were down to Wayne Newtons : 
• U speak to girl & u flirt & DHV for 2 hours, but then U WAYNE NEWTON, U don't close, u don't get the number, (or I'd say even getting the number for me is a wayne newton, cos when the fuck does that lead to anything), a part of me wants to just give up on asking for numbers now ""Burn the boats, it's a live pull or nothing")
• U meet a really cool guy & u speak for hours & have a great time > but u don't arrange to meet again or u forget to get the social 
• I watch a youtube video or read a book with clear techniques or action steps, but it becomes a wayne newton, how many fucking times Have I done this? It's so rediculously wasteful & laughable yet humans like to be lazy & shiny object syndrome, off to the next dopamine hit. 

Tai Lopez "here in my garage" Recall notes : 

• Production choice (u have 2 choices in production > professional vs personal) > tai chose personal (holding phone in 1 hand close up using back camera) >  Increase authenticity but lacks authority (which professional production choice exudes) 
• To compensate this Tai strategically shows authroity & constantly reminds the viewer of his authoirty 
• "In my ted talk where I talk about how I read a book a day", (shows camera to the lambo then back to the bookshelf then the lambo again)
• The lambo & book shelf is also a very clever Hook that he uses to draw in the audience & hold attention, not just any audiance but his targeted niche of young ambitious men who want wealth 
• He then leads to a STORY** > Which gives him more time to hold the viewers attention & lead them down the funnel.
• He grounds the sucess story into a relatable path ("yh but who says I could get ur lambo tai?") > "Not long ago back when I was in a mobile home with $47 bucks in my bank account ... But then I found a MENTOR & another mentor 
• So the story now more relatable + he slips in mentor > He hasn't even mentioned the product hes selling yet BUT > He's already creating the sales message (& it's like an implicit pre-sale technique) that the mentor is the step to wealth, duh he's the mentor. 

Tired & can't remember or don't even wanna try recall much more of this Tai section, it's boring me rn .. 

OHH & STORIES. ANOTHER HUGE INSIGHT (Thanks Owen!)

• Stories are everything > It's how we passed down traditions & wisdom for pre - literate millennia, we are literally evolved to be engaged by stories 
• "Hey I'm awesome buy my product, or this product is great it has x features" 
• Features & benefits are important, scatter them in to a captivating story, u can turn anything into a story & I intuit that the hardest part would actually be the energy work & public speaking ability more so than the mechanics of effective story - telling - (Not too complicated)
• Hm > Hook > Build authority > Relatability? > ? > Close > Call to action ?
• ^^ Find notes

To Read : Kickass copywriting secrets of a marketing rebel, & probably couple other ones. 

Recall over - Random Conecept consolidation links : 

"Spend less time trying to be brilliant & more time avoiding stupidity". 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited March 8, 2022 by Striving for more

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On 3/1/2022 at 10:52 PM, Striving for more said:

 Writing out goals & habits for this month : 

1. Goals 
2. Visualization 
3. Mediation 
4. Structure (More neat journaling system & use calendar more often) > (Eliminate friction & decision fatigue) 

 

• Not using daily calendar is most ridiculously Imperative  thing I MUST ingrain as subconscious habit NOW. 

Fresh start to Month, a purposeful month, a month of achievement & optimism. Symbolic spring is here. 

 

+ Pre - Mortem. >> Combine Pre- motem with G calendar > Can schedule monthly & annually pre mortems. 

1. Goals > Half there & been writing down daily goals but still need more specificity & create sense of urgency with more macro or mid term goals. 
2. To do list/Prioritees list > Half there again & doing well on daily timeframe but to zoom out to weeks to months simultaneously & use my Sundays more strategically & proactively as Life Architect Day.. It's hard because on Sunday temptation to relax & "Durp" is highest, then again if I can my life architecture done in the morning, then Sunday evenings I can catch up on the soccer highlights & eat an ice cream & "enjoy the shit out of it".
3. Visualization > Consistently doing 5 minutes per day so far > Adding 5 more minutes before sleep because night time mind is most imaginative & subconscious. 
4. Meditation > Consistently daily last 2 weeks
5. G Calendar > Yes, started using this more frequently recently, must ingrain schedulling habit
6. Structure > Seriously lacking, still drowning in a sea of valuable information I just can't find the time to restructure my personal journals, my mind struggles with simplicity & minimalism but it is what I need most

Edited March 8, 2022 by Striving for more

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I'm on a break & decided to jump into the manosphere rabit hole.

This guy just keeps doubing down on it lol. 

Gotta be careful because I'm tryna be ultra focsued & these type of youtube videos are HIGHLY ADDICTIVE, so I apologize for condoning & perpetuating idle other - centred content consumption addiction, I could easily watch these videos for 5 hours straight & I know myself, so I decide to end this right now. 

Anyway : Elliot unconsciously contradicts himself "women should be monogamous wives yet ... "a key that opens many locks is a good key but not the inverse blah blah"

^ So you're saying it's good for men to sleep around , therefore it helps if the locks are easily opened so that means that it would help women sleep around too lol! 

Reminds me of Hasanbi qoute (I do not watch him no more & generally plan to stay away from these type of videos, Bad for your life addictive! BEWARNED!!!) 

But : "slut shaming is dumb because if women are "sluts" then they're more likely to fuck you, you fool" lool. 

The contradiction is so dumb, You wanna be a player & moan about how "uptight & demanding" women are but when they have casual sex, they're just a "slut". 

I've had many dumb ideas like all of us but thankfully I never fell for the slut shaming narrative, some reason I saw through the idiocy of it at a young age. 

People can do whatever they fucking want lool, these discussions shouldn't even need to exist ... "Wanna have kids? > Great for you!" (I don't, but I coudln't care less if someone else does, wanna have relationsip great!, wanna be a "Slut" Great! I love "Sluts", I think they're carefree, open minded & sexy but I don't have a problem with a woman marrying her childhood sweetheart, who gives a fuck lool

Stage blue is what it is, it's cringe. 

I genuinely feel sorry for Elliot Hulse, I genuinely love him & believe he has good intentions at heart, he had some potential, but he's too far gone, look at how speaks his energy.

Lool I think he probably shoulda fucked more women in his life (Not because "THAT'S HOW REAL MEN SHOULD BE"). But my guess is he wouldn't be so idelogical & crazy obsessed with these boring fucking conversations lol. 

There's amazing architecture & plants & music & Travel & just plain meeting different people & laughing & being in the present moment all this & he's obssessed with this shit, I genuinely feel sorry for him, he really is missing out.

 Issues with dan bilzerian or elliot hulse is     (both very different ideological focus but ultimately the same root problems : the same traps of the mind) cannot go meta, locked in paradigms, driven by insecurity 

OK RANT OVER >> NO MORE OF THESE YOUTUBE VIDEOS, I KNOW IT IS AN ADDICTIVE PATTERN CONSCIOUSNESS, I have goals back to focusing on myself & no more of this this month. 

I felt like pointing this shit out, but this kind of content is not for me, I wasted hundreds of hours addictively watching this type of meta content (not elliot hulse vid but vid of another critiquing or satirising elliot hulse & other ect..)& while it has it's place for when I was getting locked into cringey ideas like red pill, the student is ready to disappear & only entertain myself with content I love, like looking at gardens & plants (Soo beta lol) or watching the big soccer games. I Chose to entertain myself with what makes me happy, no longer what makes me triggered

Edited March 9, 2022 by Striving for more

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Fapped to porn 3 times in last 2 days. 

Eaten some chocolate today & yesterday. 

Ocd & adhd extremely bad, but went away after porn ( & replaced by numbness). 

Watched 2 hours of reactionary YouTube videos, which I said I would not watch any more of, 

but excuse was "Im cleaning & tidying my room so I will watch these". 

Problem with this : 

1. That's a dangerous excuze that carves the groove for watching more of it in the future 
2. This is multi-tasking, I always do this, listening to audio staff whilst doing chores, it works with automated behaviours : hoovering washing dishes, doesn't work with rearranging stuff in room that requires constant micro - decisions & focus, even listening to leo is still problematic if im also doing tasks that require some conscious attention : slows me down.

Gonna  start scheduling even my learning times because it's bad if it's multitasking & doing my tasks slower & not absorbing it probably kinda futile, I want true understanding & need to take the time to do the exercizes & extra research, real gains not passive "Learning". 

porn & chocolate probably response to : Disrupted sleep, decision fatigue, stress, overwhelm. 

I can't fathom any other solutions than eliminate the sources of stress & achieve everything I need to, intimate sex would be than porn or chocolate & I am excited to introduce that aspect to my life once I climbed up maslow's pubes.

• I addicted to coffee again
• Becoming addicted to chocolate & porn? apparently? 
• highly addicted to overthinking, either this an addiction, due to brain toxicity or genetic disorder
• I must develop meta skills like prioritization 
• This is the year that I finally become organized, I want to say this month, I really want to, I have so much to accomplish  experience this month but I feel pretty pessimistic, I think the workaholic money thing will probably work out, but the social stuff, I have not planned for it & never underestimate the organization & strategy needed for social & logistical
• Here I am again, overthinking, not concise 
• This is the year I become a master communicator 
• This is the year I do mercury rounds & upgrade my brain (Highly pessimistic about if it will work out, all I know is ocd, add, brain fog, it's all I ever know, all I know is sucking at everything

 

Edited March 13, 2022 by Striving for more