Something casual

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Hard times force you into your true colors. Talk is cheap. You can say whatever you want during easy times, that's meaningless and it don't count. I don't approve of anyone who claims enlightenment unless they're tested over and over again all the time, which does not really happen, so nobody ever who claims enlightenment is actually enlightened. I can sit here and philosophize about death all day, it means nothing, because I know that when my time will be up, I will panic like a motherfucker. Fear of death is what keeps us alive, but just the right amount. Too much fear is paralyzing. And no fear at all is dangerous, which is why we don't see fearlessness, because fearless people die quickly (suicide, martyrdom, etc.). Control is made of fear. The more control you think you have, the more fearful you will be. But fear is not necessarily a bad experience. The ego-mind is a genius and it can create positive experiences out of fear. For example, love is just a twisted form of fear. It is the opposite of what Leo says; He is delusional, and everyone that agrees with him. Psychedelics are not a portal to truth or God. They're a portal to delusions and the devil. Fear is the source of everything. Accept it. Accept the truth. Nothing will change, and that's okay.

Edited January 15, 2022 by Gesundheit2

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Life is an abusive experience, since you're always exposed and interacting with the external world. And for that reason, personal development is simply the act of seeking the best coping mechanisms possible.

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These two songs remind me of the 9th grade. I remember when I was not allowed to play video games and so I would cheat on my parents when I'm alone at home and supposed to be studying, and then play FIFA08, UEFA Euro 2008, Mario64, and some Harry Potter game, probably The Order Of The Phoenix at the time. Video games were a serious addiction for me, and being forbidden made me want to play even more. Here, the 9th grade is kind of a big deal, so naturally my parents placed too much importance on it and created certain rules for studying to reward me with video games afterwards. I did great and scored 96.12% in the final exam. But I was not allowed to play during the exams. So, the desire started getting bigger and bigger, it started creating energy inside me. The way I used to outlet that energy was by dancing to these two songs above. Eventually the exams ended and I returned home as fast as I could just to run my PC and start playing, I thought I was gonna find some sort of heaven while playing for hours finally, but I was surprised that I got bored very quickly after only a couple of hours. It was my first mystical insight so to speak, when I realized how empty all of the longing was. I felt cheated by myself this time.

Still, 2009 was a great year, I used to watch a lot of trending video songs on TV purely for the hot women in there, but some of the songs stuck and I liked them. Live Your Life by Rihanna, Fire Burning by Sean Kingston, Eenie Meenie by Justin Bieber, and others. It was the golden age for music back then, up until 2012 and Gangnam Style, which set the trend for sucky music. There's rarely any good music anymore.

 

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More memories...

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Depression, neurosis, OCD, anxiety, delusions, mania, you name it.

How did I get rid of them? Lol.

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I hate the cold, dude. I fucking do. I'm okay with it, but okay is not good enough. I'm not okay with being okay. Okay is for losers and incapables.

This is the probably 8th winter we have to endure the cold without a heater or anything like that. It's ridiculous, but it is the case for many Syrians. I feel paralyzed, like I should enter some hibernation state like some bears do. I will make this dream come true haha.

The only people who are still in Syria are the deluded, the evil, the weak, the incapables, the retarded, the disabled, the incompetent, the poor, and the ones who are hoping and actively trying to get out asap like myself.

Edited January 21, 2022 by Gesundheit2

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The whole week is officially off due to poor weather. To me, it's technically more like a week off from distraction and useless nonsense at med school.

Awesome! That should give me a boost and increase my progress on my more important goals.

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I remember the first time I watched porn. It was at work, and I was around 12-13 years old. There were a couple of videos, one was called "the sweetest bath", and the other "wedding night", both roughly translated from Arabic.

Exciting story, for sure. Something you don't read about everyday. I'll add more details later... But now, off to sleep.

Edited January 26, 2022 by Gesundheit2
or maybe not, you're not worthy

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Taking life seriously or not so seriously is an irrelevant inquiry. Life is to be taken correctly.

The opposite of knowledge is opinion.

God is the real deal. All else is placebo.

It's a very good rule of thumb, perhaps even the best, to assume that all humans are crazy and mentally ill. Life is a lot easier that way.

Edited January 30, 2022 by Gesundheit2

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Death is inescapable and all-encapsulating. We can only fight it and postpone it, but never kill it. It's already death.

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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Nobody gives a fuck about you. You're all alone.

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There is no hope. It's bleak. And it will end terribly for you.

Don't listen to your positive thoughts. They're lying to you.

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Life is a bitch. You're cursed, and unlucky.

Don't get over it. There's no "over it". There's only "under it", and it's only worse.

No resolution. Only dissolution.

How many times have you tried and failed? Well, why would this time be any different?

The playing field is as skewed against you as much as it ever could. What are the odds?

Clarity won't save you. You will only suffer in HD.

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I absolutely hate sickness. Three days in bed, and still no recovery.

Watching Jordan Peterson and listening to his delusions. It doesn't help at all.

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Muslims are unknowingly trying so hard to fit in the modern world. They're bending over backwards to adapt to mainstream trending values such as human rights and freedom of speech, even though Islam is about exactly the opposite. If you want the real Islam, it's Salafism. Salafism basically means following the footprints of your ancestors, after filtering out the "bad guys".

This debate is a two against one debate. The guy in the middle of the thumbnail is on his own against the other two who even though come from different schools and countries, still share the same perspective. Islam is not a scholar, and he believes that the historical baggage of religion should be dropped because it contradicts basic human rights, etc. That's not his main argument, though. He presents his arguments in a very scientific manner and provides examples and proofs. He's still a Muslim, but he's the one who cracked the code for me back then.

The other two guys are trying hard to sugarcoat the bloody nature of Islam, while claiming that it's a peaceful and humanitarian religion, which is completely false. Get over yourselves. Muhammad was not a hippy. He would actually spit on you and chop your heads off for heresy rather than accept you as you are and understand the difference in opinions.

One thing Islam got right are the punishments, in particular the theft law. You steal, we chop your hand off. Steal again, and the next hand follows. Modern theft laws are stupid because they are not very serious. You steal, and you get away with it for a little punishment. They don't chop off your hand, and that's just stupid because it enables theft, and already modern society enables theft (which is essentially what inequality means). But on a more elevated level, you have to ask, who's benefiting from this? I mean, why don't they chop off hands anymore? They say because it's inhumane, and tto that I say BOLLOCKS! It's actually because that would hurt capitalism and the rich, and ultimately the nation against other nations, but I'm not going to get into that here. I just know for sure that the bigger heads don't give a fuck about humanity, or the environment or any of the modern trending issues as they claim. The reality is that everything is economically/politically-driven, and if something is advertised as important, it's because it affects the wealth or power of the bigger heads. I pity the fools who believe in such causes, because they're not any less delusional than a religious person, and yet somehow they convinced themselves to think that they are. If you're vegan (or any subtype of that), you're stupid unconscious and full of shit, basically just a tool for the bigger heads, and I mean tool technically but also metaphorically. Same thing if you're against veganism, you're still a tool. Society has become way too idiotic because of the abstraction of power.