Winning

[SLuxy]

Hey guys!

I'm gonna talk through where I've been and where I'm at now.

Where I've been:

Depression, schizoid defence mechanism, suicidal ideations, PTSD, social anxiety, insomnia, low energy, low grades, hated studying.

Where I'm at now:

Depression is now 1/14 days, not 13/ 14.

Schizoid defence of experiencing the world as not real, and experiencing the world as if through a glass jar = not experiencing anymore

Suicidal ideation (18 months experienced everyday) = Gone

PTSD caused anger outbursts = Gone

Social anxiety = alleviating gradually, but significant progress made

Insomnia = Dealing with it

Low energy = Higher energy

Low grades = Now at medium grades, but the trajectory is on point.

Hated studying = Now look forward to studying

Thoughts

These things happen.

Big changes. Its possible to change. 

Stay blessed, stay peaceful.

 

 

[aurum]

@SLuxy

Congrats! Keep it up, this is just the start.

[SLuxy]

@aurum  Thanks!

Took another big step today. Left my group of friends from childhood and am stopping hanging around with people who I don't feel I have a healthy, or relationship I want with.

Am already seeing more worth in myself!

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[flowboy]

Awesome! Congratulations.

 

How did you get rid of PTSD? I hear that doesn't go away on its own

[Willie]

Well, that is a list of things to go through for sure! Sounds like you’ve made great progress, though! Keep going and see it through to the end, you got this!

[SLuxy]

@flowboy Thanks!

My PTSD may still be there, but the anger outbursts are mostly gone. I say mostly instead of gone, as they still come around maybe once a month, but it used to be multiple times a week.

Honestly, behavioural activation has been immense for me (essentially smart scheduling). I have also been in weekly psychotherapy for coming up to a year. However, the impact of that is hard to actually analyse.

@Willie Thank you as well!

 

 

Edited January 16, 2021 by SLuxy
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[Ajay0]

I like the way you systematically charted out your progress for total review.  Inspiring and educative indeed.

[Nomad13]

Sounds  like you got tiger blood in you.