Random consciousness streaming notes

[Origins]

• you learn of the many energies that are present in consciousness, and through that awareness, the ability to let go (release) and the ability to move forward. Many of these energies are in competition with universal being, they prevent the full expression of the universe in this sense (the aspect of the universe of primary concern here being what I refer to as I, me, my, the apparent persistent existence of my consciousness, not to be confused with stereotypical "ego" and various other traditions I don't really follow/conform to)
• These energies flow up and down the subconscious of energetic being, and there are potentially millions of them, formed experientially, now moving around in consciousness, waiting to see the light of conscious awareness, and like vomit, even if only slightly, the energy flows out, or back in in a different way (like undesirably swallowing ones own vomit which in this case is due to mishandling consciousness content), at this point, as it appears you must attend to it (those or any of those energies) like it was your baby, soothing its every need with pure awareness and insight and then releasing it back into the universe leaving it to go where it wishes to, released from consciousness or into a new container therein amongst other formed, transformed and transforming energies 
• There is no clear agency behind the arrival of many of these energies, this agency comes afterwords, an agency of which is itself the dominating energy that makes up that which we refer to as true self, which is why free will is such a disturbingly obvious subject in the context of how easily traditional science gets this subject wrong, they see things solely through a cause and effect paradigm, not a geometrical energetic paradigm. Back to the initial though, due to this lack of agency, at least from the conscious aspect of self, these energies have no clear cause and effect with this moment, only that they appear to be the thing that wishes to surface in the ocean of this present. This is why it’s so important to place your attention (so ontological mastery), on the capital S Self, so that the Self can release itself, it is the primordial zone of the universe that is designed to constantly refresh, reiterate, dissolve and renew through what should be a constant seamless state of rebirth inside an intrinsic individuality spread across the collective sum of intelligence

Unknowns at this point:

what happens to energies when patterns between some energies that are related and others that are not, at least not directly, do they merely become a cognitive reference point, and a new kind of energy emerges, a combination of the sorts, reflectively (in terms of like a mirror)?

Edited December 23, 2020 by Origins

[Origins]

Releasing and renewing energetic content is now a relative breeze; depth is the strongest correlate to breadth. Universal being, something that is a natural unearthing, nothing to be found, touched or known, a simple slipping away of all forms prior and present that are reflected in that energetic releasing and renewal process. 

One step closer to theoretical zero universe, the exacting antecedent to pure phenomenal potentialization of being.