Extreme psychosomatic tension

[Tboy]

Hello (I'm Toby), does anyone else suffer from huge muscle tension problems? The tension I have is a like a physical resistance to letting people see a certain side of myself, it keeps down a lot of anger and grief it seems. It covers my whole body, and is felt all the time, Sex is very difficult. I am doing some Reichian therapy with a specialist right now. I originally was doing a sort of David R Hawkins letting go/shamanic breathing technique to feel into the tension and let it go but my body spasmed so much that it felt very unsafe, I would hit into things in my room because the spasms, caused by being with the muscle tension, would propel me across the room. It was the only way I could let them pass through me. This sort of spasming stops me from being able to do other normal practices like yoga and meditation because it seems I have to move to let trauma pass through me and always seem to need more space. If there's anyone else out there with this, I would love to connect and talk about practices that have helped, for instance I can report back on the Reichian therapy i'm doing and see if it solves the problem.  

 

Peace