Meditation Journal *beginner*

[levani]

20 minutes today and 20 on friday

 

best not to get out of the daily rhytm for me

[levani]

17 minutes today

 

back hurts like always  been sleepjng on thr floor to remove the tightness of ny muscles which fuck me over when trying to meditate (sad af)

 

[levani]

30 minute session this morning

back hurt in the beginning when i tried to keep it straight

huge resistance due to back hurting ao i puahed my mid back / lower traps against the wall and continued

felt juicy in the end i felt more "one" with the shit around me

 

#1 priority right now is to fix this god damn mid back pain ∵ clearly it's fucking up the most important habit i have

[levani]

another 20

back hurt even when sluching

number one priority is to fix this back pain rn, i had it for too long now something will be done

[levani]

25 minutes this morning

 

nothing special i guess was slightly hard to concentrate, did it first thing in the morning

[Raptorsin7]

Have you tried putting your attention on your heart, and from that space just accept whatever arises and surrender to it without resisting anything?

[levani]

@Raptorsin7 bro like, i don't think you understand, or maybe i don't understand but if i am to sit straight, you have no idea the type of pain i go through

 

maybe i do label is as bad but bro PAIN IS PAIN. whether i resist it or not it IS still there

and yes i try to focus/put awareness on my breathe

[Raptorsin7]

Try laying down, there's nothing wrong with meditating laying down.

[levani]

@Raptorsin7 no bro different meditations different posture requirments, as the instructions say innit 

 

thanks for helping anyway 

[Raptorsin7]

@levani that's bs. There's nothing that you can experience sitting or standing, that you can't experience through laying down in meditation.

Anyone who tells you that awakening requires a certain posture is a charlatan 

[levani]

1 hour ago, Raptorsin7 said:

that's bs

says you (no offence)

bro i think when your spine is erect it activated the chakras or the colour thingies in it, i'm almost sure a straight spine is not necessary but it's more optimal innit

 

like frank yang says posture doesn't matter but then Leo says posture matters, i personally feel more "flow" when the spine is straight

[levani]

20m today, skipped yesterday 

[levani]

skipped like 4 days like a lazy slug but did 30 minutes today

[levani]

30 min, super smooth today

Edited January 28, 2021 by levani

[levani]

i'm gonna check in once a week rather than once a day from now on

 

anyway if this helped anyone i'm glad

 

from the beginning or meditation to now no weird / out of the ordinary shit happened to me.

[levani]

tried laying down, definitely more concentration sitting upright i think

[levani]

tried Wim Hof, maaaad ting, i do it 2/3 times per day now

 

going to try it before meditation innit, helps me just "be"