Christmas Cheer

[Preety_India]

I hope the Lord sees me through. 

This year had been tough for me emotionally and mentally. 

The Christmas holidays will give me some hope and cheer. 

I've been telling myself to calm the fuck down. 

Things have been so hopeless lately. I've been through so much trauma and I have been really exhausted, at the end of my tether having to deal with so much. 

The ex really left me emotionally drained and exasperated. 

So much for relationships. 

Fuck these relationships. They brought me more pain and tension than happiness. 

I'm so happy when I'm all alone. I never needed relationships. I have no idea what made me get into a relationship with my ex 

He was such a toxic piece of ass. 

And now I'm collecting myself and pulling myself back up again 

My struggle is heroic.. At many points I felt like I was very close to death and that's when I felt like I shouldn't ever give up no matter what. 

I will use spirituality to heal my life. To bring it together. 

To be in communion with God is my goal. 

As such, Christmas brings me a lot of joy. It brings me closer to God. 

It's the only celebration that makes me truly happy. 

I sometimes understand why people put up Christmas tree decorations all year long, too lazy to sort it or put it away. They do it because they subconsciously don't want to stop celebrating Christmas. They want the joy to continue. 

 

 

[Preety_India]