So I've stopped with psychedelics for a while, but a few months ago I had the most crazy experience on 275ug of ETH-LAD (my absolute favourite psychedelic, always felt really deep and amazing). To compare it, it feel probably stronger then 750ug of LSD, it's INTENSE. So I took it and a girl messaged me on Discord while I was coming up. I could barely text, but somehow managed to start a call, but I could barely say anything. The idea of what a girl even is kinda started to dissolve. So we broke up the call because it was impossible to talk to me, since I was already hallucinating crazy fractels and could not talk.  I wasn't expecting much to happen, so I just continued by watching music videos, I watched "Girls like Girls" by Heyley Kyoko, and I was just SO IMMERSED in it. At some point I kinda got the feeling that I'm actually really god and everyone is me. I looked at the girl in the video, and I was convinved she was me, all the views on the video were from me, I made the video and all the other videos I saw. Then it get's fuzzy, since I think I blacked out a few times during the trip. I ended up on my bed, and in my head I just involunarely started repeating "Everything is one, I'm one, one one one one ONE!!!! It felt like I finally realized something so obvious and just shouted it in my head over and over. I also had such an intense feeling of love. I kept repeating in my head "I love everything so much, I love you SO SO MUUUUCH OMG!!!" (I know there was a duality there). It was very weird and I can't put these thought processes into words very well, it was so insane. It felt like EVERYTHING in my life was constructed to lead me to this realization, all my friends, everyone I passed by on the street, my family, all of them were nudging me towards this. It felt like everything, even the Coronavirus had a purpuse and was absolutely perfect, it was just the perfect dance of the universe. It also literally felt like I was at the steering wheel of the whole universe, and everything was watching me.  I thought of other people, famous people, and it was like as if I was just revealing that all of the were just me. Leo is me, all the other Youtubers are me, my friends are me, Taylor Swift is me and so on. It felt like as if I was revealing that love is the true way, and I think I was thinking about "bad things" and was like "NO, LOVE IS THE WAY!".  At some points, I felt like no one, including my family existed, at other points, I did feel like they existed and they were aware of me realizing that I was god, even though they were asleep and I was in my room alone at night. I had clear audatory hallucinations of them walking around and being so shocked about my realizations. I also did weird things, like at some point I bit into a chocolate orange candy I had in my room for some "profound" reason I can't remember and then just made a mess with the chocolate all over my bed without realizing it. Something that I realized later was kinda dangerous is that I also had other drugs lying around. When the morning came, I just felt so confused, I wasn't even sure if I took a psychedelic in the evening or what even happend, it just kinda came to me later. I was so shocked, I just cleaned up the mess on my bed, took a benzo and just slept it off. I never experienced any fear during the trip, it was absolute bliss, but when it ended I was just so shocked, overwhelmed and wasn't even sure anymore if any of this was true or if I just deluded myself. I have weird glimpses of the groundlessnes of the Universe and also felt like I was completely empty and had no personality on high doses of ETH-LAD (200-250ug) and LSD (up to 750ug). But I didn't really know what it was, I think I just understood it when I saw Leos videos. But also, I watched Leos videos about oneness and love before that trip, so I'm not sure if I just diluded myself during this trip because I had these ideas, since I think you can also get extremely dilusional on psychedelic trips. I would just like to hear other's opinions about it. Thanks for any replies <3