So I was reading this article just now, and in the midst of it I read a question. "If you were to choose one target audience to serve which would that be?" And the thought of gay people came up. After that I felt deep suffering in my body and the thoughts became angry. For example: Fucking gay people? Seriously? Those fucktards? something like that. And it was really painful and I calmed myself down with a thought of being straight rather than gay. But I still feel irritated from that and I don't know what any of this means to me. Like why gay people? from all the people in the world? And why the thought of serving gay people evoked so much suffering?