Nourishment

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1/22/2021 Food Diary 

Lunch: 

Half a bowl of oatmeal with some raspberries, black berries, cinnamon and peanut butter: I decided to try to some oatmeal today. This is going to sound really weird but I never had oatmeal before. I just never had it in the house and when I see it served in hotels with all you can eat breakfast buffets, I always thought it looked weird. I'm not a fan of mushy textures. I remember I did try grits before which is basically oatmeal but made with corn meal instead. It's a big thing in the south and grits is usually served with something savory like shrimp. Yeah, I wasn't a fan. When I tried grits, I ate the toppings and didn't finish it. I got made fun of and told I wasn't a real southerner lmao . I'm not surprised that it ended the same way with oatmeal today. I made myself finish half of it but then I said fuck it and ate the berries and the peanut butter. It's a no for me. Tbh it isn't even the taste, I'm ok with that. It's the texture that ruins it for me.

 

Snack: 

A handful of cashews: wanted something nutty 

A carrot: wanted something sweet

Water with half a lemon: wanted something refreshing

 

Dinner: 

2 pieces of salmon the way I normally make it along with some rice 

Sautéed vegetables: Has brussel sprouts, kale, carrots, onions, and bell peppers all cooked with olive oil. 

a bowl of cheerios with almond milk: just to get the iron and other nutrients in 

 

Snack: 

A glass of decaf green tea: I watched a video on japan and started craving green tea lol

 

Additional Notes: 

I woke up feeling bloated, sick, and done with life. I think it is because of the amount sodium I had yesterday. I notice that whenever I have more sodium than usual, I simply feel off. That and when there is too much oil in one dish, that also makes me feel really off internally.  I couldn't get myself to eat breakfast because I felt so stuffed. 

Edited January 23, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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The food in this video looks so good. I had plans of going to japan in 2020 but for obvious reasons I couldn't go. I remember my friends who have done the study abroad program I planned to go on told me on how the food there is amazing and how the foodscape is so different compared to the U.S. Now I miss all the food I could have eaten ???. 

Edited January 23, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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Food Diary Entries- The Way I'm Going To Do Them Going Forward

I've recently been getting bored of doing these food diary entries mainly because I have gotten into the habit of eating certain foods repetitively. That's not to say that I'm bored of eating what I'm eating but it is to say that I'm bored of writing the same things over and over again. To me, that isn't really giving much value to my journal. 

I originally started doing these food diary entries to keep myself accountable for my healthy eating and for developing habits for my over all diet change. I also wanted to be more aware of what I was actually eating. I felt that I really needed that sense of accountability because to me, cutting out added sugars, gluten and dairy was difficult at the time. Those things were often present in every meal. But now, my habits have largely been put in place so this as a personal practice seems a little redundant. 

Instead I'm going to do a daily check in of sorts. I noticed that on my food diary entries, the additional notes section is giving me more value and insight of what I need to be doing differently. I'm going to have more of that along with some habits I'm trying to implement like eating breakfast on a regular basis. I will also discuss any new foods I have been trying. 

I just don't want this journal to get stale and repetitive. 

Edited January 25, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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1/25/2021 Daily Check In 

For my first official daily check in, I thought I'd reflect on the goals that I set for myself to see how I'm doing. I crossed out the ones I feel that I have implemented successfully, bolded the ones I'm still working on, and italicized the ones that I haven't really done. 

On 12/25/2020 at 4:44 PM, soos_mite_ah said:

Future Goals

So in short my future goals going forward include: 

• Reducing the amount of meat I eat outside the house 
• Reducing sugar by doing the following: 
  • avoiding ice cream
  • switching gluten free tortilla chips with celery 
  • focus on portion control when it comes to desserts in social situations 
• Getting rid of my chocolate cravings 
• Introducing soy in the form of tofu and miso

• I noticed that on the occasion that I do eat outside the house I almost always have meat so that didn't really work out 
• I have reduced my sugar intake by a lot. I'm really proud of myself for that because it felt like an impossible task before. I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm at the point where when I crave something sweet, I just reach for a piece of fruit and I'm perfectly satisfied with it. The only added sugar that's in my diet is the cereal I eat and that's just 2 grams which I'm sure isn't a big deal lol. But as for other grains, I decided to keep them in my diet because I feel like my body just functions better that way. 
• As for my chocolate cravings, I found that after I let myself have chocolate, the novelty wore off as predicted and now I don't crave it as much. Before I was craving it almost after every meal and now it's once every couple of days.  I'm probably going to do a whole post on it later on. 
• Yes I have introduced tofu and miso into my diet. Though it was super recently, I have yet to notice anything going wrong/ right in my diet so there is that. 

On 1/13/2021 at 0:10 AM, soos_mite_ah said:

A note to self on things I'm going to try to implement

• Make sure I eat enough calories. I don't like counting calories but I guess I can ensure I get more calories by not shying away from healthy calorie dense foods that are a good source of fat and protein such as meat, nuts, and seeds. This is going to help me get a better metabolism since I did have a history of restrictive eating.
• Incorporate more fruits in my diet. I know some time in this journal before I talked about how I don't get enough natural sweetness in my diet and as a result I crave a lot of chocolate. I also talked about possibly not getting enough carbs and wanting to eat fruits more because they are simply not present in my diet. Incorporating more fruits can deal with all of these. 
• Eat breakfast regularly. This will help me get in more calories, boost my metabolism, and reduce any cravings I might have. It can also prevent me from feeling hangry or sad since sometimes those have a biological explanation which in this case is hunger, even if I don't feel it in my stomach.  Also another thing that will help my metabolism. 
• Try to exercise a little bit more. It doesn't have to be much or be super strenuous. I'm planning on going on walks and doing a workout or two video from YouTube.
• Incorporate foods that help with your iron deficiency. These include: 
  • Dark Green Leafy Vegetables (I personally like eating spinach and kale so I guess I could increase the amount I eat) 
  • Nuts (Eat these on a regular basis as well, usually peanuts but I can diversify with almonds, cashews, and macadamia nuts if I want)
  • Beans & Red Lentils (I like eating these so I guess I can bump up the frequency by incorporating them into more of my meals I already eat)
  • Pumpkin Seeds (also great hormonal balancers for the PCOS)] (might want to try that out) 
  • Broccoli (already in my diet) 
  • Millet, Buckwheat, Amaranth (literally never had these so there is an opportunity to try something new)  
  • Dark Chocolate (My favorite lol. But I still need to consider the quality by ensuring that it is dairy free, low sugar, and high fiber) 

• I'm not getting enough calories just yet. I know earlier in this journal I said that I'm not going to track my food because it can be a bit much but because I was already doing my food diaries, I thought I might as well track it on the cronometer site. When I do make myself eat, I get in anywhere from 1500-1700 calories in a day. That is less than the average 2000 calories but I think it's better than what I was doing before unintentionally which was around 800-1100 calories. I feel better and more energetic. Before I would always get the urge to go and take a nap around 2-4pm but now I don't have to deal with that and as a result my sleep schedule has been more on track. I was initially feeling super stuffed after eating this much every day since I got used to eating a small amount but now it's not so much that I feel stuffed rather I feel full all the time. Which brings me to the next point. 
• Incorporating more fruits was easier than expected I guess since I really wanted to do that. I just eat some as breakfast and some as a snack for when I want something sweet. 
• For the most part I am eating breakfast regularly. But I am still at the point where I feel like I need to force myself. I wake up every morning already feeling full so often times I don't have any desire to eat but since I'm trying to make it a habit I'm doing so anyway. Before I REALLY had to force myself because I would go to bed feeling stuffed however it isn't that bad anymore. I still have some getting used to to do. I notice that on the days that I do eat breakfast, I don't feel the need to snack and that my mood is more stable. 
• Because I have more energy, exercise has become easier. Before it was difficult for me to get myself to do anything since I was always done with life but now, I don't have many issues with exercising except feeling sore. 
• I have been eating more greens and broccoli I feel like and I have introduced pumpkin seeds on my salads so there is that. But even when I did that, I found that my daily intake for iron was low when I would enter in my food to the tracker. The cheerios really have helped me in regards to making sure I get my iron in without any of the negative side effects I got from the iron supplements I was getting before. 

And as a bonus, I feel like I'm much more in touch with my body and what it needs now a days than before so I'm also proud of myself for that as well. Also my skin is clearer and I'm rarely if ever bloated so that feels nice. 

 

In short, these are the things that I'm still working on from most to least important. 

• Eating Breakfast regularly- Just have to keep going. 
• Getting enough calories- I'm going to maintain the 1500-1700 calories for now until I'm 100% used to it before I bump that up to 2000
• Dealing with chocolate cravings- These are for the most part gone, I feel like I'm the last leg 
• meat outside the house- Idek to what extent I'm going to even address this for now since it is so minor but we'll see. 

Edited January 25, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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1/26/2021 Daily Check In 

Today I woke up feeling tired because I took some melatonin last night since I couldn't sleep. My tiredness was just the effects of the melatonin still lingering. I made myself breakfast even though I didn't feel like it as usual. Today I had two slices of toast with some dairy free cream cheese, a banana with some peanut butter, and a handful of raspberries. I normally don't have cream cheese but I noticed that the avocados I had in the fridge were hard as rocks and still no where near ripe so I thought I'd buy some cream cheese for the mean time. I decided to have my raspberries to get my fruits in and I had the banana so that I can get some more food since I was too lazy to make myself eggs. 

I felt pretty energized throughout the day. No tired feelings mid day or anything of that sort. My mood has also been keeping up well. My only complaint I guess is that my period is supposed to be here but it isn't so idk what is happening. I think it might be because I wasn't eating enough calories for a couple weeks earlier this month and my body interpreted that as a stressor along with me eating chocolate. Those are my guesses. Because other than that, I have been for the most part gluten and dairy free. 

Edited January 27, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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Some videos I found entertaining

Edited January 27, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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Someone in the comments section said  "Imagine being able to rule a country and have anything you ever wanted. Only to get killed by your crippling addiction to cheese" and that killed me lmao 

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1/27/2020 Daily Check In 

I did have breakfast today. I had a bowl of cheerios with some almond milk, some blackberries, and an egg. I remember I used to always think that making breakfast takes a long time but now that I got used to it and it's a part of my routine, it feels quicker, as if because it's a habit I go into autopilot and don't realize how long or short it's taking. Still feel like I have to force myself to eat breakfast because I don't feel hungry in the morning. But I'm starting to notice that this constant fullness feeling is starting to wane a little bit and I'm starting to get my normal appetite back. What I'm eating right now doesn't feel like a huge amount of food like it did a few weeks back. 

I have been feeling more focused and energetic today. Didn't have any amount of drowsiness at all. But I did feel my chocolate cravings come up but I didn't really fulfill them since I don't have anything in the house at the moment.  

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1/28/2021 Daily Check In 

*Just realized that I accidentally put in 2020 instead of 2021 for the date on the last post lol. 

Ate pretty well today. For breakfast I had 2 slices of gluten free toast, an avocado, eggs, and some fruit. Energy levels dipped at around 2 but immediately after I ate I felt much better. Today was pretty good over all. The only thing that deviated was this chicken sandwich I had from the drive through. I was on a drive and I got really thirsty so I decided to pull up at McDonalds for some water and thought might as well also get something to eat.

I haven't had their spicy chicken sandwich since I don't even know when. It's been years tbh. I'm not super big on chicken sandwiches but when I do crave something, I tend to be a bit of a fast food snob where I still try to eat healthy and I end up spending a little bit more money. Like I have this tendency where I will only have burgers from In n Out or a restaurant because the burgers in other fast food places taste too greasy and just not right. I'm the same way with Cane's chicken and I also tend to gravitate towards places like Panera bread which is more expensive than say McDonalds. It's just that I don't eat out super often so when I do have the urge, I want to indulge in something that tastes good instead of something that tastes fake lol. I honestly forgot how the chicken sandwich was only $1. I remember as a kid this was my absolute favorite sandwich so there is a bit of nostalgia tied to it. I took one bite and it wasn't bad but it wasn't AMAZING. I think I just liked this as a kid because I didn't know much else tbh. I finished the sandwich and I caught myself feeling slightly sluggish for the rest of the day. That's why I typically avoid most fast food (and if I find myself in a position to have some I tend to lean towards a lot of vegetables or a salad since there is little you can do to mess that up) because even though in the moment everything might taste fine (but not amazing), I do feel off afterwards since I 'm used to eating a certain way on a regular basis. And to me, that off feeling is enough to make me not want to get hooked to it. 

 

1/29/2021 Daily Check In 

I didn't feel like eating breakfast so I only had a slice of toast with some peanut butter. I tried to make up for it later on in between breakfast and lunch by eating a few snacks like a banana, some cereal, and some nuts, just so I can get my calories in for the day and so I wouldn't be fatigued. I also caught myself having some light chocolate cravings. Other than that, today went by pretty smoothly. 

I was also expecting to break out from the chicken sandwich yesterday because the bread was most definitely not gluten free and the whole thing was processed but my skin didn't act up.  Something like this also happened before and I'm starting to think that I can have gluten and dairy in small amounts granted I still eat enough for the rest of the day. I know that PCOS insulin resistance can get triggered because of gluten and dairy. Normally, I know my PCOS is getting triggered by the way that I break out. I think that sensitivity is exacerbated when I'm not getting enough calories since going too low on calories for the day can cause the release of stress hormones (because the body thinks you're starving) which then causes the PCOS to act up.  

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1/30/2021 Daily Check In 

For breakfast I had a spinach and banana smoothie along with an egg. I didn't want to have breakfast today and wanted to sleep more and since I wasn't that hungry I had more of an incentive to stay in bed but I dragged myself out of bed anyway. I'm pretty sure that's one of the main reasons why I have this habit tbh. Overall my day went pretty well. I don't have much to add. 

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1/31/2020 Daily Check In

Didn't have breakfast today. Had trouble getting out of bed because I didn't sleep well last night due to nightmares. I have this temptation in regards to whether I stay in bed or eat breakfast but the temptation to stay in bed overrided my general will power. My energy levels though have been pretty good so there is that. 

Edited February 1, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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2/1/2021 Daily Check In

For breakfast I had two slices of gluten free toast with some cream cheese along with an egg with a side of raspberries. My energy has been pretty good. However, I did give into my sugar cravings today. I had one soda and a little bit of honey on a banana. Don't know why I had this craving but yeah that happened. I don't think this is a regular thing that I need to be worried about but it's still nevertheless good to be mindful. 

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2/2/2021 Daily Check In 

Today was a bit of a crazy day. I woke up too late and I needed to be somewhere so instead of having my regular breakfast I just grabbed a banana and some toast with some dairy free cheese on it an ran. For lunch I had these tacos since I didn't have anything in the house. I felt sluggish afterwards and wanted to go to sleep probably because of the gluten but luckily, I don't feel super bloated because of it. I wanted to eat some cereal and I poured almond milk on it like usual but I ran out of almond milk so I used regular milk. I'm hoping to god my skin doesn't act up too badly tomorrow because of the milk and the tortillas I had from the tacos. 

Also, I know I mentioned my sugar cravings the day before. Yeah I have not one but two huge breakouts now. I also forgot to mention that on that day I had a slice of regular French bread and a couple pieces of chocolate so yeah.... I noticed that I can have regular bread on a sandwich and be fine or have some cheese or some regular dairy and be ok in moderation but I think I mainly react badly to things that are sugary and French bread in particular. Just something to keep in mind.  

 

2/3/2021 Daily Check In 

Luckily my skin didn't act up too badly. I have one small break out but other than that it wasn't too bad. For breakfast I had tofu scramble and some toast. Later on in the day I had a dairy free yogurt. I just saw it at the supermarket while I was shopping and I thought *hey I haven't had yogurt in a while might as well get one* The yogurt was ok. Too sweet in my opinion. I checked the label and I think I remember it saying it had like 12g of added sugar so there is that. 

 

2/4/2021 Daily Check In 

For breakfast I had a couple slices of toast with some peanut butter, raspberries, and pumpkin seeds along with two eggs. I felt pretty good with this breakfast and over all today went pretty smoothly. I know that I have been slacking in these last couple days so I'm going to try to stay more consistent on this journal. 

Edited February 5, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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Body Image Update 

I haven't had posts about my body image lately so I thought I'd give an update. I feel like I'm doing better in regards to my body image now vs like a month ago. I think I have gotten used to trying to pick up on how I'm feeling rather than what I look like since then when it comes to measuring how I'm doing with this life style change. Before, trying to change my eating habits and monitoring what I was eating used to sometimes turn into something obsessive because of my previous issues with body image. I have alleviated a lot of that and I feel like even though my diet isn't perfect right now, as in there is still room for improvement, I'm not beating myself up for it. 

But I would be lying if I said that I'm 100% confident in my body. I'm still a little self conscious about my acne. It isn't too bad but I do find relief in picking at my skin (bad habit I know) and I'm glad that I still have to wear a mask everywhere because of COVID because that means that I don't have to put on makeup.

But my biggest insecurity as always is my weight, particularly my stomach. I always have a little bit of pudge there no matter how skinny or chubby I am at the moment. I had this since as long as I can remember. I never had a flat stomach. My mom always made fun of me for that growing up and she still points it out and tells me how I would be so much prettier if I had a flatter stomach and if I was skinnier over all. Then there is society in general. I know that beauty standards for women change with the decades but no matter what the standard is whether it is the super skinny and tall standard from the 90s and the early 2000s to the curvy standard from the 2010s, a flat stomach is always there even when it doesn't make sense. Because lets be real, if you naturally have boobs and a butt, odds are your stomach isn't going to be completely flat. And I know that the majority of women don't have a flat stomach unless they are really skinny, but when it comes to flat stomachs, that's the only kind of stomach you ever see in the media, whether it is TV or social media. I think part of it is because it's mainly the people with flat stomachs that are posting pictures while the rest of us try out best to hide our stomachs or appear as we are flat (chubby stomach erasure lol). I've had people assume that I had a flat stomach and to me that sounded really weird because to me my stomach is huge and pretty much ruins every picture. 

I know the vast majority of people don't give a damn what I look like. I'm not trying to impress them. I just don't like the way I look to myself. But I am aware that this standard for a flat stomach is socially conditioned in me. That still doesn't stop me from disliking the way I look. This one insecurity is really at the root of a lot of my neurosis regarding food and body image. I probably said this in a previous post but I swear to god that I would be a 10 if I had a flat stomach. It feels like the only thing stopping me. I try to focus on how I physically feel as opposed to what I look like in this process but I do get the thought that I gained 2 in on my waist creep back up at me. I know that isn't reasonable. I went from a 25 in waist to a 27 in waist. I'm still relatively tiny. I'm tempted to call myself a bigger woman but I know I can't do that because I'm literally a US size 2/4 and people would get mad at me, but honestly I feel like a bigger woman compared to other girls. There are also some clothes that I don't feel comfortable wearing because of my stomach such as crop tops, swimsuits, and just tight clothes in general. I try to wear clothes that will hide my stomach as much as possible. 

Sometimes I do have to remind myself that I am feeling better health wise, how I have more energy, how my mood is more stable, and how I have a better relationship with food because I still have that intrusive thought that says "well you didn't lose any weight around your stomach so clearly you're not doing enough." I think it's so ingrained from diet culture that skinny automatically means healthy to where we don't emphasize the other factors of health nearly as much. I'm planning on starting birth control in a couple of weeks and part of me hopes that one of things that the birth control will do in addition to managing my PCOS is that it will help me lose weight. I highly doubt that will happen since if anything I always hear that birth control makes you gain weight but then again I also hear that managing the PCOS hormonally will help you lose weight so I have no idea tbh. I just think it's messed up that I thought about losing weight before I thought about managing my PCOS and taking care of my health. 

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2/5/2021 Daily Check In

I had breakfast today. It was the same thing I had yesterday except minus the eggs. Just didn't feel like having them today. I ate pretty well today. Dinner was a little earlier and lighter than usual. I also bought these protein bars today. I'm trying to get more protein into my diet and I'm aiming for roughly 70-90g a day. I noticed that when I entered my food to the cronometer that if I add a protein bar that's about 20g of protein I can meet my target easily. Also, I can get in some more carbs and calories without eating a large volume of food since those bars tend to be more calorically dense.  I'm eating these Cliff Builder's bars. They taste ok, you know as good as protein bars tend to be and they also scratch my chocolate cravings. The only issue that I have is the amount of added sugar (17 g) and the ingredients, but I feel like the ingredients thing is inevitable since it is a processed food. I try to avoid anything processed but I mean I don't have much of that in my diet so I'm sure adding a protein bar wouldn't be the end of the world. The only things in my diet that are processed are this and the Cheerios, which aren't even that bad since the ingredients are decent. Here are the nutrition facts below: 

Also, after eating this, I caught myself feeling a little bit more sleepy. Not like tired, sluggish, or unfocused but relaxed. I might be misremembering something or I'm just speaking out of my ass but I think I remember seeing something that was along the lines of getting enough protein in your diet can help you go to sleep. I don't know I guess I'll have to see in the next few days. I'm going to try to get my sleep schedule on track so that I can make myself eat breakfast instead of waking up and not wanting to get out of bed.

Speaking on seeing what will happen in the next few days, I started my period today. Which means that I'm going to start birth control today. I'm nervous about what this drug is going to do to my body but I'm hoping to god that it helps me with my PCOS. I heard a lot of horror stories about birth control and I'm hoping that I'm not going to experience any of that. 

Edited February 6, 2021 by soos_mite_ah

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2/6/2021 Daily Check In 

For the next idk how many days, the format and quality of my posts may be off because my laptop broke and now I'm typing this on my phone ? At least I have more options for emojis lol ?

Anyway, today for breakfast I had tofu scrambled eggs and a cauliflower tortilla. I also had my protein bar and I caught myself feeling a little sleepy. Idk if this is just me tbh. For the rest of the day, I felt really full so I ate a little less than usual. I know protein is satiating but god damn. I think if I were to keep eating this, I'll have to eat the protein bar at night so that I can still get my calories in from the rest of the day. 

As for the birth control, things are going ok. I haven't grown an extra limb or had any side effects.... yet. Let's hope it stays this way and that it helps. This is only my second day on birth control so it's still to early to tell. My period on the other hand is not really my period at the moment. It's more like spotting tbh. There is no pain or cramps involved but my period as a whole is barely there. 

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2/7/2021 Daily Check In 

For breakfast I had a handful of blueberries and some cereal with almond milk. I also had an egg. I had a shit ton of pizza today as well. It's basically the ultimate pizza with all of the vegetables I like that I referenced earlier in my journal. It was really satisfying and I had 4 slices. I was so filled up to where I didnt have dinner. Instead, I just opted for a protein bar. 

I felt a little sluggish after the pizza but it wasnt so bad. I just felt really full and that's about it. 

 

2/8/2021 Daily Check In 

Ok so I think the birth control is working. Normally, I would break out pretty badly with a meal like the one I had the day before. But that didnt happen today so that's a good sign. Still not getting any side effects from the birth control. 

As for breakfast, today I skipped. Even though I'm never hungry in the morning, I caught myself having to make the conscious effort to have breakfast. That's a good sign imo, it means that making and eating breakfast is becoming a habit that I dont have to think about. I also kept my food a little light in general today because that's what my body wanted. I have essentially been feeling full for the last few weeks straight so part of me was like *I need a break.*

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This video really resonated with me and is pretty spot on imo

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2/9/2021 Daily Check In 

I had 2 slices of toast with raspberries along with an egg for breakfast. I ate pretty well today and my energy has been good but other than that my day has been relatively unremarkable. The only thing I guess I can note down was that I had trouble sleeping because of the cold. 

 

2/10/2021 Daily Check In 

I woke up and I felt depressed as hell today. I guess it is a combination of not sleeping well, having nightmares about the things that give me anxiety, and the weather lately since my depression is influenced by the weather. I wouldn't be surprised if the birth control might have a part in it but I doubt it since I didnt have any side effects in the previous days since I started using it. There were some emotional things that also built up tbh that I wasnt proactive about in handling. Anyway, I forced myself to eat breakfast. I had some cereal with almond milk, blueberries, and peanut butter. I was tempted to skip all of my meals today and hide under the covers for the rest of the day since it is so cold outside but I did manage to make sure I ate enough food as well as go to a doctors appointment I had today. This might sound pathetic, but I'm proud of myself for doing the bare minimum which includes eating healthy, taking a shower, and going to the doctor. I really didnt feel like doing any of those things but I'm sure I would have felt worse had I dont none of those things.