All the suffering and the pain in the world happens because we WANT TO experience it

[Vittorio]

Tonight I woke up in the middle of the night and I had a crazy awakening.

Now I am gonna tell you what the content was, but let me tell you this.

What you are going to read is totally insane.

And I still don't understand it fully, but it may shake you on the inside

So, if you don't want to be disturbed from what I will say, please, don't read it.

Here it is (I copy pasted the content from my journal).

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EVERYTHING bad that happens and has happened to me, ergo all the suffering that I have experienced with my ex gf, with my job, with my former relationships, the fact that I had no clarity and all the backlashes I had until a few days ago (i.e. reinstalling video games and playing them instead of doing business or trigger myself with my ex gf) are not by chance, but I wanted to have them with the purpose of feeling bad and live those precise experiences.

So the evil does not originate from unconsciousness, but from the precise superior will to experience it.

Or better, it comes from unconsciousness from the "human" side, but from the nondual/simulation side, there is actually no good and bad.

Our universe is an entire, perfect and complete simulation.

Our universe is NOT a case.

We don't exist due to a random case.

It's all done on purpose consciously.

All the creation, ergo also the "bad" things like suffering, throats slithings, rapes, mutilations etc. are ALL voluntary.

We (for "we" I mean the unified form, God, the Creator, the Divine) want to live all those throat slithings, those rapes and pain.

Why is that? I actually have no idea why we want to try that specific side.

Perhaps because we made the simulation more alive and variegated and we want to experience multiple sides?

This is just what my intuition tells me.

But by coming back to the previous speech: it's therefore all intentional.

Nothing is random.

God/we cannot create things at random.

How could he?

He is timeless, boundless and infinite. He actually has an infinite intelligence.

Would an infinite intelligent entity really be so stupid to create things without a criteria? Nope!

Everything has been created with passion, commitment and as a work of maximum expression of love and creativity.

Every single pattern in flowers, the maculation of cheetahs, the complexity of the human body, our psychology, our biodiversity, stars, planet, parallel universes, black holes... are all a work of divine love, engineering and creativity.

Evil and suffering are also a work of creativity and love.

We are alive with the purpose to live this simulation.

We are not alive because our parents gave us birth.

And we just did not "randomly" evolve into sentient beings.

This is just a story.

That's what science tells you.

So, in the end, we WANT TO experience evil, we WANT TO experience suffering and pain.

We WANT TO die depressed and alone, we WANT TO jump out of the windows of WTC and splatter our brains to the ground.

We WANT TO be raped, mutilated and shot in the face from some drug cartel.

We did all that because, in the end, there is no real free will.

I know. I may appear to be deluded.

Maybe I am.

But I trust my intuition and I feel this is right.

This is totally crazy and insane and I am speechless.

But it seems to be all true.

I understood therefore WHY I suffered so much.

WHY I have had so many backlashes with video games in recent times.

They were not random backlashes and suffering.

They were put there with the purpose to experience them.

But why?

To give me the chance to improve myself.

In fact, all the difficulties that I have had so far, were born from repeated suffering.

If I had not suffered repeatedly, I would NEVER have moved to notice what was wrong and to improve myself.

No one moves for something that happens once or twice.

Ergo I had to live through the humiliations, the pain of abandonment in my previous relationships, backlashes with video games, pain body attacks, loss of control, the stalking in my dreams by an entity for over a decade and suffering repeatedly in order to open my eyes and to become more conscious, by solving these problems for good.

I found my actual life purpose due to this suffering.

I realized that I have a great mission and destiny to fulfill on earth, which is to help other people as a Transformational Coach/Spiritual teacher.

Precisely because I feel that I have to fulfill my destiny, I also feel that, in order to fulfill it, I have to change radically as a person.

Even if I reached a really high degree of consciousness, emotional mastery, knowledge and emotional intelligence and I got enlightenment (at least the basic form of it, there are many degrees of it), this is not enough for the grandiosity of the mission I have to fulfill.

This means renouncing even more my current personality, becoming even more mindful, increasing my emotional mastery and my life experience and renouncing to things I like (e.g. video games) that make me stuck and backpedaling.

I have to become successful, in order to fulfill my destiny.

This awakening has given me a great motivation to resist backlashes, emotional triggers, to become even more aware and stay on my path of improvement without deflecting and to continue until I have achieved the results I want in terms of life and coaching.

Because everything I'm doing now, I'm no longer doing for me, but for others.

I will become the best possible person for others. To have the best life experience to be able to inspire them and to understand and help them in the best possible ways.

And to fulfill my destiny before I die.

All this improvement is an act of supreme love that I must and WANT to do for humanity and the world.

This is my life calling. And I have just answered it.

I love you.

Edited December 4, 2020 by Vittorio

[Moksha]

10 minutes ago, Vittorio said:

I found my actual life purpose due to this suffering.

Welcome to the other side of suffering, a.k.a. Love.  ?

[Vittorio]

10 minutes ago, Moksha said:

Welcome to the other side of suffering, a.k.a. Love.  ?

Thanks <3 I now actually feel more complete and grounded than ever <3

[Javfly33]

I don´t know man, I really don´t know.

I just think the ego is free to do what it wants. And if it wants to create suffering, God will alow it.

[Moksha]

@Vittorio You are awake now. The real work is to be Consciously vigilant, and not fall back asleep. Allow its light to decondition all of those attachments that you suffered. Don't let yourself forget the suffering that led you to the sweet side of peace. The ego doesn't go down without a long and bloody fight. ?

[Moksha]

11 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

I don´t know man, I really don´t know.

I just think the ego is free to do what it wants. And if it wants to create suffering, God will alow it.

If God wants to stop suffering, God will dissolve the ego by suffering it to death.

[Vittorio]

13 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

I don´t know man, I really don´t know.

I just think the ego is free to do what it wants. And if it wants to create suffering, God will alow it.

Maybe it's as you say. But I recognize divine intervention/divine patterns in our lives I cannot overlook.

I mean that feeling like: "It must go exactly in this way".

And I don't mean it from a side of total acceptance, but from the side of a person that can "read" the signs.

Or maybe I am deluded and I have delusion of grandeur... dunno.

At least I don't believe to be Napoleon or Jesus!

[Moksha]

Just now, Vittorio said:

At least I don't believe to be Napoleon or Jesus!

Not to throw you, but...you are them too 

[PurpleTree]

Leo was talking about some similar things in one of his episodes

i think it was this one

 

[Vittorio]

28 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

Leo was talking about some similar things in one of his episodes

i think it was this one

 

Thank you. I missed that video. I will watch it! 

[Gesundheit]

You can close your eyes (you've finally learned that), but you can't hide the sun (obviously).

[Someone here]

9 hours ago, Vittorio said:

So, in the end, we WANT TO experience evil, we WANT TO experience suffering and pain.

We WANT TO die depressed and alone, we WANT TO jump out of the windows of WTC and splatter our brains to the ground.

We WANT TO be raped, mutilated and shot in the face from some drug cartel.

We did all that because, in the end, there is no real free will.

I know. I may appear to be deluded.

Maybe I am.

But I trust my intuition and I feel this is right

I prefer to stay away from delusions as much as I can. When I experience suffering there sure exists a desire to sooth onself with a metaphysical plan or divine plan "oh this is all for the greatest good this must happen because look xzy etc".  I honestly don't buy any conceptual explanation  for reality or any part of reality at this point. When you are experiencing suffering.. There is just the experience of suffering... No matter how sensical your story of "why the suffering is happening" it is still a story. Something that YOU are making up. 

Interesting story btw. 

Edited December 5, 2020 by Someone here

[Vittorio]

4 hours ago, Someone here said:

I prefer to stay away from delusions as much as I can. When I experience suffering there sure exists a desire to sooth onself with a metaphysical plan or divine plan "oh this is all for the greatest good this must happen because look xzy etc".  I honestly don't buy any conceptual explanation  for reality or any part of reality at this point. When you are experiencing suffering.. There is just the experience of suffering... No matter how sensical your story of "why the suffering is happening" it is still a story. Something that YOU are making up. 

Interesting story btw. 

It's not a term of "buying", it's a term of feeling.

If you feel beyond pain, you understand what are the hidden lessions behind.

And as soon as you understand that even bad things happen for a "good" reason (to allow you to evolve), you'll deduce that things had to do in a certain specific way, otherwise you wouldn't be where you're right now.

Try to listen beyond pain, self-doubt and such and you will understand what I mean.

[Nahm]

@Vittorio

I love ya brother, the transmutation is downright beautiful. Very happy for you. I would caution however to go through such thoughts & perspectives with the fine tooth comb of what of the basis for such views is direct experience, in comparison to extrapolation from personal experience to collective, individuations, and our source if you will. A YouTube search of Rupert Spira being asked questions on free will might yield some deeper recognition of the spontaneous nature of experience. 

[Vittorio]

4 minutes ago, Nahm said:

@Vittorio

I love ya brother, the transmutation is downright beautiful. Very happy for you. I would caution however to go through such thoughts & perspectives with the fine tooth comb of what of the basis for such views is direct experience, in comparison to extrapolation from personal experience to collective, individuations, and our source if you will. A YouTube search of Rupert Spira being asked questions on free will might yield some deeper recognition of the spontaneous nature of experience. 

Thank you Nahm <3 Love you too! I will watch his video to get a firmer grip on the issue

[LfcCharlie4]

@Nahm One of the title says it all for me- 

Free Will is The Echo For Absolute Freedom (Consciousness) 

 

[Nahm]

@LfcCharlie4

Fo sho.

 

[Someone here]

19 hours ago, Vittorio said:

 

And as soon as you understand that even bad things happen for a "good" reason (to allow you to evolve), you'll deduce that things had to do in a certain specific way, otherwise you wouldn't be where you're right now.

 

Yes things had to happen in a certain way. I know that everything is predetermined. This I became conscious of. However I disagree that bad things happen for a "good" reason. Good and bad are concepts. 

[Vittorio]

4 hours ago, Someone here said:

Yes things had to happen in a certain way. I know that everything is predetermined. This I became conscious of. However I disagree that bad things happen for a "good" reason. Good and bad are concepts. 

What I mean with "good" is that there is a reason and it's not at random.

I mean the same you mean

Edited December 6, 2020 by Vittorio

[Someone here]

2 hours ago, Vittorio said:

What I mean with "good" is that there is a reason and it's not at random.

I mean the same you mean

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