Can’t find peace / feel very stuck

[VictorB02]

Hey everyone, so I don’t even know where to start, but I’m looking for general advice and what you guys think could benefit me.

im 20 years old currently and live with my parents. I have a part time job cleaning offices which provides me with the money I need to make all my ends meet, treat myself, and save every month. I have YouTube channel and love uploading videos, in accordance to my Life Purpose and what I want my career to be. I don’t play video games and I dont watch tv, I workout, meditate, read, and learn cool things.  
 

but no matter what, I always always always feel like I’m not at peace. Like I’m stuck. Like something is wrong. A lot of times this will manifest in my relationship and I will self sabotage and create problems. I hardly ever feel good and alive. I feel dead inside. I’ve had moments where I’ve felt exhilarated to wake up, alive and excited, but it’s been few and far between. 
I basically just want to feel peace and feel happiness, and feel a general optimistic sense towards life, which I feel like I used to have when I was younger, then it stopped somewhere in my teens (around when I had a spiritual awakening) 

I often feel overwhelmed by info, what do I read? What’s the best way to live life? What should I do? are questions I ask a lot.

but yeah, I basically just feel deflated, dead, lifeless, and down. I don’t feel alive. I feel stuck in a routine. I don’t feel strong. I feel weak.

any advice? Thanks 

[Nahm]

19 hours ago, VictorB02 said:

Hey everyone, so I don’t even know where to start, but I’m looking for general advice and what you guys think could benefit me.

im 20 years old currently and live with my parents. I have a part time job cleaning offices which provides me with the money I need to make all my ends meet, treat myself, and save every month. I have YouTube channel and love uploading videos, in accordance to my Life Purpose and what I want my career to be. I don’t play video games and I dont watch tv, I workout, meditate, read, and learn cool things.  
 

but no matter what, I always always always feel like I’m not at peace. Like I’m stuck. Like something is wrong. A lot of times this will manifest in my relationship and I will self sabotage and create problems. I hardly ever feel good and alive. I feel dead inside. I’ve had moments where I’ve felt exhilarated to wake up, alive and excited, but it’s been few and far between. 
I basically just want to feel peace and feel happiness, and feel a general optimistic sense towards life, which I feel like I used to have when I was younger, then it stopped somewhere in my teens (around when I had a spiritual awakening) 

I often feel overwhelmed by info, what do I read? What’s the best way to live life? What should I do? are questions I ask a lot.

but yeah, I basically just feel deflated, dead, lifeless, and down. I don’t feel alive. I feel stuck in a routine. I don’t feel strong. I feel weak.

any advice? Thanks 

“Something is wrong” is not a feeling, it’s thought, concept, perspective.When you believe that thought is the feeling you create the suffering and peace seems distant. It is the peace which lets the thought go. 

[Opo]

Take some beginner psychedelics. 

It will help you see the world trough the eyes of child again. 

[DianaFr]

To be honest, the impression I have about you from how you have described your situation makes me want to suggest that you don’t focus on advice given by other people too much. My instinct says that the way you currently feel has a lot to do with your journey and all the personal insights you are meant to have. It is something that can be approached and discovered from inside by becoming more and more aware of your inner world and the role your negative feelings have. It’s like you consciously know what you want and you do your best to achieve that, but a huge part of you is lost, it’s not taking part in your activities, and there could be a deep longing to find yourself. If I can go against what I said about you not taking advice and still give you one, I would like you to stop reading and start writing instead. To find a way to express your feelings and make sense of them. It could be great if you could find somebody to talk to, somebody who could listen to you without imposing their world view and help you see yourself. Something tells me this could be important to you.

[VictorB02]

8 hours ago, Nahm said:

“Something is wrong” is not a feeling, it’s thought, concept, perspective.When you believe that thought is the feeling you create the suffering and peace seems distant. It is the peace which lets the thought go. 

Thank you Nahm. Much appreciated

[VictorB02]

6 hours ago, Opo said:

Take some beginner psychedelics. 

It will help you see the world trough the eyes of child again. 

I definitely will again soon. My past trips have helped tremendously

39 minutes ago, DianaFr said:

To be honest, the impression I have about you from how you have described your situation makes me want to suggest that you don’t focus on advice given by other people too much. My instinct says that the way you currently feel has a lot to do with your journey and all the personal insights you are meant to have. It is something that can be approached and discovered from inside by becoming more and more aware of your inner world and the role your negative feelings have. It’s like you consciously know what you want and you do your best to achieve that, but a huge part of you is lost, it’s not taking part in your activities, and there could be a deep longing to find yourself. If I can go against what I said about you not taking advice and still give you one, I would like you to stop reading and start writing instead. To find a way to express your feelings and make sense of them. It could be great if you could find somebody to talk to, somebody who could listen to you without imposing their world view and help you see yourself. Something tells me this could be important to you.

Thank you, that comment helped a lot