Need suggestions for a coach to help me re-integrate back into the ‘material world’..

[pandaeyes]

Soo, I’ll try and make this as short as possible. I was about 2 years on the enlightenment path. Meditating 1-3 hours a day, a vipassana retreat, a couple of weeks out in the jungle doing ayahuasca, I wasn’t working, not going out or seeing people, no friends (was living abroad) and lost interest in women/sex, etc… and oh boy did I go deep… Seriously it got to the point where I didn’t care about anything anymore. I couldn’t even have conversations with people anymore. Nothing would come to mind, and when I would force myself to talk, I would just fizzle out. 

I realized I needed to start making money to afford some medical bills (some important medical condition I’m working on healing). I plan on healing my body and some emotional traumas I guess you can say. Then once that is good I plan on going back on the enlightenment path. There’s nothing like consciousness ❤️.

Since I made this decision to re-integrate myself I’m doing immensely better at handling life. But it’s still not enough. I’m still really struggling financially. It’s hard for me to find the motivation to find a good job (I have a bachelor’s degree, fyi). I started a business a few months ago, registered a domain, purchased a 1 year wordpress subscription and planned on building a wordpress site to sell my product, got hosting, and made a first small purchase of inventory; well since doing all that I never again sat down to finish making my site and haven’t sold anything. 

I have important stuff pending on my to-do list from over a year ago (that’s not even that hard to finish… I kinda feel like I have a block). I never tidy or clean my room/bathroom. For so long I was just trying to be conscious and present and do whatever I felt like doing. I never pushed myself. And now “suffering the consequences”.

I honestly don’t even have the motivation to write a good post now. I’m just trying to get the words out. Can someone please help me? Can someone recommend me a good coach for this? I know Nahm is a coach and I really resonate with what Nahm says but I don’t know if this is his area of expertise. I would also love it if Leo could help me but I don’t know if he is able to. Many thanks.

 

[Zigzag Idiot]

 

You might want to consider Emerald Wilkins. She seems wise as well as practical.   

I usually like her YouTube's