The sickness called my life

[deci belle]

Those who glibly claim to have "no practice" and trumpet simply living as "my life" are sadly deluded.

This is because following random activity and calling that spontaneity, may be accomplishing "no practice", but this has no affinity with the function of subtle concentration observing mind and arriving at perpetual cessation of random consciousness.

This is because "my life" at this point is not yet one's own, independent of conditioned existence. This is because "my life" at this point is bondage to karmic momentum where one follows thoughts unawares, only occasionally glimpsing moments of open lucidity and being thoroughly unable to sustain authentic acquiescence in perpetual inevitability. Such sustainability is not straying from the perpetual incipience of enlightening potential before the first thought.

Until ignorant individuals arrive at the will to enlightenment and struggle deliberately for years to turn their lives around by reversing the light of their own consciousness, and finally arrive at the incipience of Complete Reality, will they discover for themselves that "my life" has no power in or outside of karmic evolution until it is blown away forever by realizing enlightening nature void of self.

Until practice reaches the realm of unattributability, there is no autonomy because until one is finally and continuously aware of causelessness, one cannot transcend being bound by the conditioned self which constitutes the incrementally kinetic karmic matrix going through its inexorable cycles of birth and death in the perpetual revolving nature of created yin and yang (the oscillating polar nature of duality for agnostic readers). 

Obviously, it is only when individuals reach their serial impasses do they endeavor to deploy their defiant "my life" proclamations. This would be the very antithesis of the selflessly autonomous adaption of enlightening being in everyday ordinary situations unbeknownst to anyone which is the middle way whereby neither absolute nor mundanity stand. The "middle way" is a technical buddhist term of authentic teaching pointing to the nature of reality, which is immaterial. The definitive term is not relative to a sense of "moderation" per se, although in provisional teaching, this term is relevant to carrying out reformative practices.

True effective practice is arrival at the subsequently permanent activation of reversal to illuminate enlightenment at its source and have that source void of self or other identify one's life. Those who fall back to the refuge of "my life" when it suits them are proving their ultimate ignorance of the source of spontaneity and their partnership as coeval with creation— and not subject to it.

This is then where phenomena is empty and characteristics have their variables. Enlightening being is governed by random karmic activity in that selfless response has no set categories, only relying on the timing of heaven, the situations of earth, and the phantoms of self and other in concert as the creatively evolving karmic matrix alternates cyclically. Operating independently in the midst of bound creational influence doesn't mean existence is in isolation, as is what already constitutes the perspective of the deluded. It means one is dedicated to unmitigated vulnerability to such influence, as the essence of true potential is not relative to the person— it is inherent in the situation itself. That is, it is through our relationships that potential becomes apparent. That is not to say that unmitigated vulnerability is being a spineless psychological and emotional doormat for others. What is most critical in terms of true vulnerability to absorbing selfless potential is that one must stop letting the natural expression of true enlightening potential be a doormat for the false consciousness of habit energy. That means false identities of pattern-based ego function is ultimately subordinate to the impersonal nonpsychological enlightening function.

Self-refinement is the long process of reverting the false identity from a position of dominance which obscures enlightening potential to a relational function in service of the subtle nonoriginated awareness. The person comes to assist the expression of Complete Reality by virtue of recognition of the true potential inherent in all created situational cycles through exercise of natural principles. In terms of the situation, such practice is called subtle adaption. In terms of potential, such practice is called the firing process of yin and yang, paying critical attention to the timing of the waxing of generative energy and the arising of the natural influence of each created cycle's killing energy. These two aspects of evolutionary and devolutionary process operate in both temporal and spiritual realms of manipulation. In taoist spiritual alchemy these aspects of enlightening practice are called the sciences of life and essence.

In terms of the realm of enlightening potential, it simply is not and has never been an issue of good and bad, right and wrong, self and other or before and after. The issue is awakening to the the quality of awareness in which one assimilates in moment to moment adaption in everyday ordinary situations. It is the degree of variability between projections of self and other and the amorally selfless open sincerity of human being void of personality biases and inclinations.

Enlightening function simply isn't the person, even though it is none other that who you really are.

Arrival in terms of enlightening function transcends the puny morality of "my life" in that one sees through phenomena without denying their characteristics. You see through your life without denying its characteristics as well. Therefore one does not go along with conditions but subtly stands apart by not harboring ulterior motives in speculation on outcomes or for one's ego-securities, only adapting impersonally by assessing potential objectively in the midst of situational changes.

The primal and temporal are originally not two. This is not beyond the function of enlightening being seeing through "my life". Complete Reality is one's function in terms of unity of absolute and conditional in one breath. Otherwise, what would be the point of seeing your nature? It is just to enable one to activate the real in ordinary situations unbeknownst to anyone. If anyone knew, it wouldn't be real~ nor would it be natural.

"Nevertheless, it is necessary to wind up at the point where 'heaven is open, earth is broad, and all things are just as they are,' for only this can be considered attainment."

 

 

 

ed note: add "at" in first sentence of 7th paragraph; split 8th paragraph in two

Edited November 28, 2020 by deci belle

[Moksha]

Nice  Those occasional glimpses have served you well. Vigilant, one-pointed attention, and the ensuing dissolution of the self, is a gift.  Consciousness is always offering it, but the gift can only be received with open hands.

[Breakingthewall]

2 hours ago, deci belle said:

Nevertheless, it is necessary to wind up at the point where 'heaven is open, earth is broad, and all things are just as they are,' for only this can be considered attainment."

Great. Not less than the complete freedom is enough

[deci belle]

Yes, yes!!

…and someone else wrote:

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Deci, can you dumb it down for us in the 140 and under IQ section, please?

I can almost follow you, but not quite.

 

Well, at least you now know how I feel when I try to read Dogen sometimes!

Oh, dear…

Self-reflection clouds natural impersonal awareness in terms of an objective realization of ordinary situations.

It is possible to assess situations and respond spontaneously to the very conditions dictated by temporal affairs by cultivating the habit of non-interference. It is not a matter of imaginary separateness, but rather resting readily in the perspective of nonspeculative nonavoidance. Neither avoiding nor defining the inevitable nor speculating on outcomes is the closest one can come to a practical accord.

A preliminary aspect is the ploy to gain detachment from internal and external bedevilments in order to save energy, but eventually it becomes the process of taking over creation and stealing its potential. Further still, it is the means by which enlightening beings carry out tasks and fulfill accomplishments in secret. 

It just comes back to using the world for self-refinement instead of using it in terms of pattern-based self-gratification. In terms of self-refinement, we develop the habit of not seeing situations as arenas for speculation. When we have nothing even potentially invested, we develop real autonomy— which is beyond the self-referencing sensual detachment of the lower vehicles of formative moralities of renunciatory provisional teaching.

When we refuse to invest ourselves in terms of potential, we gain that potential— it is unsaid. The rule is in not using what is seen, and in using what is not seen. Not-using is not having attachment, however subtle, to objects, situations or outcomes; using is in not-using potential. It works as one, because temporal and absolute are one. As above, so below. We see potential by not speculating on inert temporal manifestations; we steal it simply in not-seeing it relative to the person. It is the way it is for no reason. No one knows why or how enlightenment and delusion are actually one in the same. Only those who see reality by a long process of simply forgetting to perpetuate self-reifying habit energies ever-cloying one's life eventually come to realize absorption in complete reality's potential instead of perpetuating karmic momentum when observing the same from the perspective of the personality.

So by not speculating on temporal manifestations, and refusing to entertain intellectual ramifications relative to self and other, we realize absorption just by virtue of seeing— this how to use its potential. It is not in the sense-organ, nor in the object; it is mind alone.

Now when we then relegate potential to nonpsychological awareness, we don't even say what could possibly be by discursive discriminatory thought relative to a self. Not doing so is what seals potential away from intellectualism after absorption (seeing). No one knows the strategy of not-knowing. What those who steal potential know, is that potential is not an inevitability (in that what could not be other than "all things are just as they are"), yet, in terms of inconceivability, to the degree we absorb potential in the course of ordinary everyday affairs, we enter the mystery. If inevitability is just responding to affairs without speculation on outcomes is selfless adaption, what else could possibly be construed as enlightening activity?

The prior few paragraphs are an admission of the sequential aspect of acting in accord with the time in reality. There is before, and there is after: they must not be mixed up.

Ok, so it's crazy; but that is the secret to taking over creation, stealing potential, and seeing through phenomena without negating appearances. It all depends on selfless awareness. Practice is what practice does, that is, our habitual perception is gradually influenced to have no habitual, reflexive connection to gratifying or avoiding sensually speculative concerns; "neither courting honor nor avoiding ignominy."

By sensual, I mean anything perceivable by any avenue of perception— this isn't just a matter of sex, drugs, money, power, personal or professional influence or cravings of any sort. It is much more subtle, and pervasive. It is the means by which to transcend one's conditioned awareness of self-illusion and enter the inconceivable mystery of the Way by seeing your nature in action long before actually seeing its essence in terms of sudden realization. In fact, enlightening activity isn't dependent on the sudden at all. Rather, the sudden is the result of having turned the light of awareness around in terms of seeing independently of the person, and sustaining its influence in one's life for a long long time. 

This means turning the light of awareness around to shine on its source. This is direct activation of enlightening being in the midst of ordinary affairs unbeknownst to anyone. When we don't use ordinary conditioned awareness to follow ordinary conditioned affairs, then the light of awareness is turned around automatically with no effort involved at all. Its activation is in what you don't see and its arrival is in realizing what has been aglow all along.

 

 

ed note: typo 2nd paragraph; change "reality" to "realization" in 3rd paragraph; typo 6th paragraph

Edited November 29, 2020 by deci belle

[Blackhawk]

Your text is unreadable to a non-native english speaker when you are trying to sound smart. Write normal understandable english instead. I'm not attacking.. just trying to give constructive feedback..

Or maybe the problem is just on my side. Nevermind then.

Edited November 29, 2020 by Blackhawk

[abrakamowse]

4 hours ago, deci belle said:

No one knows why or how enlightenment and delusion are actually one in the same.

I think here is the key to everything.

[deci belle]

Understood, Blackhawk. It's true and I apologize for the difficulty in reading my posts, especially for a non-native english speaker. The real problem (on my side) in talking about ineffable reality is that it is inconceivability itself. I was silent about it for 15 years; now I've been writing about it for 15 years.

The nature of inconceivability in terms of Mind is that immediate knowledge without inside or outside is completely whole. Undifferentiated unity is utterly empty as well. The space of true emptiness has no space. The true void has no such void. Even absence is absent from reality.  I'm not referring to sudden enlightenment, but, as abrakamowse implicated above, since the absolute and enlightening activity in terms of delusion cannot be separate, I am forced to elucidate wordless authentic teaching within the constraints of words. This means that I need to somehow express immediate all-at-once knowledge without leaving the ultimate freedom of no outside or inside. If I do, then the living expression of reality turns into dead words.

That is the challenge for me. The problem on your side is that the natural affinity with ineffable reality isn't able to resonate within you to the degree that is necessary for you to recognize within yourself that you already know without a word. There is nothing either of us can do except to sincerely intend an open wonder in terms of one's inherent potential. Hope is unnecessary and counter-productive. That means it is an obstacle to realization.

It is already your own mind right now.

Enlightenment is already fully intact. The mystery isn't in the unseen Absolute. The mystery is in the scene before you. It's not that Creation is other than it is, it is just that our perspective in terms of personality-consciousness is evidence of habit-energy not only in ourselves, but in an ageless universal human consensus that is literally as old as sin. Self-referencing thought (much like hope and fear) obscures the point of illumination which is unborn awareness itself. Self-referencing thought sustains the illusion of self/other (the necessary element for functional being), to the exclusion of selfless awareness. Selfless awareness isn't some other mind, exclusive of ego-conscious habit energy. It's just that ego-function (psychological habit-energy) excludes one's enlightening function from its purveyance. Both functions are valid; yet ego-consciousness must be at the service of spiritual (nonpsychological) consciousness. Self-refinement is the long process of restoring the proper relationship between ego-function and enlightening function. Both functions must co-exist in real terms much like teeth and lips without harming each other. True practice is the practice of reversal, whereby the obscured (impersonal real knowledge) is eventually recognized in terms of non-differentiation, by the diminution of the recalcitrant (habitually self-referencing conscious knowledge).

The work of self-refinement is a long and gradual path which is in seamless accord with the sudden all-at-once. They are a continuum. There are no two minds. Mind is one. Even those who practice lucid dreaming know that in transitioning between lucid and ordinary consciousness, there is no break. The transition between the two is seamless.

Gradual and sudden are undifferentiated, just as reality has no differentiation between delusion and enlightenment. It is not a matter of the two being all mixed up— THEY ARE THE SAME …and empty as well. Don't stoop to believing such is the case. It is necessary to actually see it in real life. The buddhist teaching device of "sameness within difference" is a provisional teaching. Take the forward step in expressing the truth that undifferentiated reality IS you. It's not you seeing it. The seeing is itself who you are. Awareness is selfless. When seeing is impersonal, there are no personal distinctions: this is selfless accord in reality.

It's just how it is, and no one knows why. ❤︎

 

 

 

ed note: change "reverting" to "restoring" in 5th paragraph; add "they are the same…" in penultimate paragraph

Edited November 29, 2020 by deci belle

[Moksha]

@deci belle Yes. The energy is infinitely fluxing between potential and creation, or between unmanifestation and manifestation. It is all the same Consciousness, in different states of attention. This breathing in, and breathing out, applies at all levels, from the personal to the cosmic, and mysteriously embraces the whole of itself.

[abrakamowse]

It can be summarized in "Wu Wei" that means "doing by not doing"  or "effortless action".

[deci belle]

Yes abrakamowse, and summarizing enlightening activity in a word is an effective entry for those with enough accrued potential through long gradual practice of gathering it and by preserving the fundamental basis in the course of everyday ordinary situations. Then it is necessary to penetrate further into the mystery of selfless accord by virtue of ordinary delusional realms. This is because effortless action means that subtle spontaneous response is nonpsychological (spiritual) in terms of virtuous accord in reality. This is why it is properly not the person, nor by the person's effort. Wu-wei is the quality of perceptive practice not by the person but only through the auspices of the person. Why? Through a long process of impersonal intent, such is the natural result. One's unbending intent is an invocation by open sincerity beckoning the real by inner emptiness. We beckon spontaneous accord in reality by invoking the Virtue of the Receptive as our inmost being. The Way spontaneously alights where emptiness (selfless accord) is stabilized.

Thus, resting in the highest good by sincere open intent, we watch over the incipient upwelling of the breath of awareness much like a cat watches the opening of a mouse-hole in total concentration, ever vigilant for the spontaneous arising of true potential.

Clarifying the purpose of prior illuminates' intent by the use of the word wu-wei means the reality represented by the word is in terms of impersonal subtle adaption without relying on one's own power. Effortless action is what has to be evaluated in certain and precise terms based on real experience. Enlightening response not relying on one's own power requires that one see potential in the first place because potential is properly inherent in the situation itself, not the person. Subtle spiritual adaption based on reception of potential (by seeing alone) is what is "effortless." Spontaneous action based on such effortlessness is naturally without personal bias or inclination. Only this can be properly termed "selfless accord in reality."

This is where "neither seeking honor nor avoiding ignominy" really comes to the fore. Not because of the ordinary convention of "selflessness", but because such concern is actually nonexistent in reality. It is in such attitudinal audacity that one's enlightening function awakens and rises to the occasion of actually intending open sincerity and virtuous receptivity of potential and actually seeing reality in terms of selfless response in the first place.

We must always strive to move beyond the zero point of the transcendent meaning of the words of all prior illuminates and actually apply the power of wu-wei in terms of "taking the forward step and accepting your (enlightening) function with hands open, sharing yourself freely."

 

 

ed note: spell "abrakamowse" correctly in 1st paragraph

Edited November 29, 2020 by deci belle

[abrakamowse]

@deci belle Thanks for the insights decibelle. The concept that really resonated in me was the idea that ego and enlightenment are the same, and that everything is one thing in reality. There's no ego, the key is to flow with reality and not interfere, non action. But the main thing is that there's no one to interfere, is like the mind puts the trap and the liberation in the same moment, in the now and it wakes up alone, with no person involved.

Not sure if I am getting the idea.

[SamueLSD]

On 29/11/2020 at 2:03 PM, Blackhawk said:

Your text is unreadable to a non-native english speaker when you are trying to sound smart. Write normal understandable english instead. I'm not attacking.. just trying to give constructive feedback/

I only speak English and I had to re-read some parts, Lol

[Moksha]

13 hours ago, abrakamowse said:

The concept that really resonated in me was the idea that ego and enlightenment are the same, and that everything is one thing in reality.

They are the same, in the sense that there is nobody to have an ego, or be enlightened, in the first place. They are opposite, in the sense that ego is opaque to Consciousness and enlightenment is transparent.

It is all Consciousness, in different states of awareness.

[abrakamowse]

Thanks @Moksha  I will meditate/contemplate on that... appreciated!

 

[Moksha]

@abrakamowse?

[deci belle]

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Not sure if I am getting the idea.

[abrakamowse]

5 hours ago, deci belle said:

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Not sure if I am getting the idea.

Got it! I know...

[deci belle]

Good. Open nonreification for its substance, clear calm for its function, it is an unexcelled, subtle way to reality. Few people in the world know this and fewer still cultivate it. If one's insight into potential in everyday ordinary situations is insufficient, one cannot use its power to transcend into reality.

Those who are familiar with the writings of prior illuminates, in understanding their principles, they intuitively recognize them and inwardly comprehend them, then when they apply them they are naturally transcendent in the realm of reality without leaving the homeland of delusion.

The "mysterious pass" is the critical initiatory experience by which people transcend the ordinary world. "In the Complete Reality (Quanzhen) practice of seeking and opening the mysterious pass is one of the strongest signs of Chan Buddhist affinity within this school of Taoism." —from Thomas Cleary's introduction to The Book of Balance and Harmony, ISBN 0-86547-363-3

The mysterious pass is no location. It is the door to all wonders; beyond the person, yet none other than one's very self: for anyone who can see this way, all doubts can be settled and one can leap directly to the shore of the Tao, where the silent island wades in a sea of jewels.

 

 

ed note: typo in last sentence

 

Edited December 1, 2020 by deci belle

[abrakamowse]

Beautiful!

[deci belle]

The last line above comes from something I've written. 

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Unity, openness; the heart's desire: island of silence, sea of jewels.

Seeing essence is miraculous liberation in craving and discrimination's midst; mind is firm, contented, skillful.

Firmness faces desire unavoidably, flexibility accepts all sense objects.

According with principle directly, obstacles dissolve spiritually.

Reality, perpetually on the brink; where is before and after?

 

 

 

 

ed note: typo 1st line and last line

Edited December 3, 2020 by deci belle