Feeling Emotionally Numb

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I have been feeling emotionally numb, lately. There’s no other word I can use to describe this state.

No, there’s nothing wrong or shocking that has happened in my life. 

Still, I feel this. Sometimes, I feel a sudden void pervade and percolate in my chest and I feel like crying, and then I am numb to tears, as well. I do not know why, though. I do not know what triggers this. 

I do not understand what the root of this problem might be.

I do not know if I am blocking my emotions, or if this is just me logically assessing everything, and then, not letting my otherwise vulnerable emotions flood into the domains of everyday life. 

I am an emotional person. I am very empathetic. Hence, this numbness is confusing me. 

I just want to ask if this is normal. 

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What does spirit dimension stuff mean? 

Why did you call it a lesson? 

Yes, music sure does help. I listen to some Gregory Alan Isakov. You should definitely check him out. I love his album, ‘This Empty Northern Hemisphere.’ It’s calming. 

Also, about talking to people — I do not know how to verbalise it, and do not know if people would comprehend the nature and intensity. 

I do not express my intrinsic emotions to others. I have a problem being vulnerable with others. It has been like this for the longest time. I mean, that’s not an issue, I think. I cope with things myself — always have. 

No, I do not know an advanced empath. 

How do you cope with it? From when have you been feeling these bouts of numbness? Are there any triggers?

@neutralempty

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No, I do not restrain my emotions for the sake of keeping up a superficial image. It is just that my self-preservation instinct is very strong. I am super intuitive, and I pick up on emotions very quick. People share themselves a lot with me, and every time I talk to people, I begin to understand that at the deepest core, most people are very transactional, and hence, I keep them at a distance from my emotions. I want an understanding that has no transactions attached to it — emotional or otherwise — I will find it some day, but today is just not the day, haha! 

 

Also, you are so cute. That video of that bat was sweet! I will forever associate you with that image of the bat, hahaha!

@neutralempty 

 

 

 

 

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Mild?

 

The kind of exchange that I am talking about is an open-minded one. Of course, there needs to be an exchange, but the exchange should be freeing, with a desire to navigate through the myriad territories and folds of life for the pure joy of it, in this finite time of humanness; wherein the only condition is that the person shouldn’t use something you are very vulnerable about as a weapon that may end up hurting you. I mean, I am not rushing for it. Let time take its turn. If the universe did want to bless me with something of this sort, I’d be very happy.

I will build myself first, holistically; then, I’ll see how things play out.

I do not expect much from people, anyway. Still, in all honesty, I am yet to reach the stage where I expect nothing.

I am happy for you that you’ve reached that stage.

P.S. Uhm, I’ll make myself clear — I do not want to be vulnerable in any kind of a relationship that has material transactions attached. I would not disregard anyone outwardly, but I would not try to integrate myself with them emotionally, as well. 

@neutralempty

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[xxxx]

You are kind. Thank you for the wishes!

A question:

How did you turn your vulnerabilities into weapons?

@neutralempty

 

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I shall definitely look into certain mental/physical exercises. 

Will try yoga, to see if helps.

My diet is pretty healthy, so I do not think that it is the case. Nevertheless, I will delve deeper into this issue.

Thank you, @neutralempty

 

[mmKay]

If you have been a year or more into meditation it's common to experience a phase of numbness leading you into a dark night of the soul.

If you want to experience emotions, for me what allways work for example , listening to some beautifull singing, alcapella or even busking on the street, some animal rescue videos or some pictures of beautifull women make me emotional as well. Oh also, there is no way I watch a David dobriks vlog without smiling all along the video.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

different people feel emotional in different situations, but there are overarching themes as we are all suposed to be coming from the same species lol. So that would be Alturism, colaboration, laughter, approval from big crowds, etc.