My Romantic Aspirations - Deep Penetration(sexy A)

[Preety_India]

A silly attempt at drawing things on the romantic side. 

 

I don't know what to add here, maybe my fantasies? 

Edited November 24, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Who wants a nauseatingly critical boyfriend? 

 

 

 

Be with me only if you can handle me with kid gloves 

 

Because my trauma is not my fucking fault. 

[Preety_India]

Leo put me to ease. I was having this feeling since last year. Like last year November to put it on the forum and I couldn't out of deep shame/guilt. 

It takes great open mindedness to accept female sexuality. And I'm grateful for the people on the forum for not making me feel bad for having thoughts and fantasies that are just normal. 

(cut out all judgement and criticism) 

 

 

[tsuki]

36 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

Because my trauma is not my fucking fault. 

I know this feeling. It's awful when you hear that you are evil when your past hurt takes the steering wheel.

Healing started for me when I realized that my trauma is not my fault but it is my responsibility.
I was letting my trauma manifest through me and in doing so, I was a Joseph to my wife's Preety_india.
My trauma was not my fault, I got it from my parents.
My parents' trauma was not their fault. They got it from theirs.

Someone's gotta be responsible, response-able, for it to stop. Think about your children.

Edited November 24, 2020 by tsuki

[Preety_India]

Just now, tsuki said:

Think about your children.

Lmao I don't have kids. I'm not even married. 

[Preety_India]

2 minutes ago, tsuki said:

I know this feeling. Healing started for me when I realized that it's not my fault but it is my responsibility.

Glad to know that you are healing. You're a wonderful person. 

 

[tsuki]

2 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

Lmao I don't have kids. I'm not even married. 

Things aren't gonna be fixed overnight. You may want them in the future.

[Preety_India]

3 minutes ago, tsuki said:

Things aren't gonna be fixed overnight. You may want them in the future.

Ahh! Gotcha. 

[Preety_India]

I don't know how to tell Andrew about my fantasies. So far the sex we had was just normal sex.. 

But I have deep rapey fantasies and sometimes there's a bit of guilt associated with saying it to him. So I never told him. 

I just don't want him to freak out. 

When I told Joseph about these fantasies like how I'm having rape fantasies he did not take it well. He kinda dismissed me and that created a dent in the relationship. 

For now my fantasy is just mine and I don't wanna tell Andrew right away. 

I imagine Andrew doing those things to me.. 

[Preety_India]

I want him to cuddle me, kiss me and want me. 

I want him to own me. 

These fleeting emotions. 

His romantic candor drives me nuts. 

I wish he could just grab me and make me stay.

His fingers over my neck. His lips on my lips. I want his body to feel my body. And him totally in control of me. 

How sweet is this feeling. He knows exactly where to touch me. He rubs my thighs and he grabs me and makes me rest on his lap. 

I sometimes feel like he needs to be a bit forceful. I want to see the passion in his eyes. 

 

[Preety_India]

My hidden inner dark fantasies. Even if it looks dysfunctional right now, they give me some meaning. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

When he whispers his kisses over my naked body, that's when the fun begins. 

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Edited November 24, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

 

 

 

I feel so free around him. He instantly channels me. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Even if it feels like a dysfunctional chemistry and all I want is his love, it's eternally satisfying. 

 

All my fantasies that I want him to know 

He should be so close to me. I want to feel his deep penetration. 

Last time we had sex it was so strong I fell asleep like a child. I was in another world. 

You make me crazy. 

[Preety_India]

Hey this was my way. Just to get a bit bolder with you. 

I want so much yet so little. 

I just want to keep it demure. 

I want to belong to you. You're my heart mate not just a sex mate. 

My repressed sexual fantasies are for you. I remember how I felt that night. But it's the romance that's even better than the sex.

The feelings that you produce in me. I just want to drink sitting next to you on the bed. Meanwhile you're doing your best to get my sexual attention. I want you to touch me there. Move your fingers in. Touch my back gently and tilt me towards you. Whisper nothing into my ears. Just stare at me like I know nothing. Give me that feeling once again like you own me. (Andrew).