contemplating art & love, magic mushrooms trip report

[UNZARI]

Come up:

girlfriend and i bought some albino magic mushrooms only taking less than 2 grams each (we wanted an easy trip to get back into tripping together, we had a traumatic acid trip before that a year ago). we take the 2 grams each and find ourselves tripping balls like never before. i never had visuals like this and at one point was on the verge of madness but i hugged a blanket and “plugged in” positive thoughts and dived into euphoria for most of the rest of the trip thankfully while my girlfriend was having a great time ?

The peak and insights:

i was glued to the floor with my blanket. i was euphoric, but on edge. my body was tremoring but it felt good like i was letting go of blockages and tension. i faded in and out of consciousness, and expanded in consciousness at points experiencing my girlfriends point of view as well as my dogs. i was warping so hard i couldn’t get up. finally at some point i was able to find my drawing pad and pencil. 

it was then that i became aware of true creation

as i drew on the paper the lines grew from the pencil to the paper. fractals on a plane of fractals. i was aware it was my mind or Mind that was creating this line. as i went threw loops of drawing intriguing scribbles i felt a deep impact that lasts to today. Love. Love is creation and creativity. and it is my sole purpose and mission to continue to be a creator because it is love. even just thinking about this makes me tear up. it’s utterly precious and unfathomable. i realized why i’ve been an artist my whole life and why i do any of the things i do at all. why i never cared what anyone thought, why i won’t let anything stop me from doing this. it’s almost a burden. you can’t not create because it’s in the name of Love. you would die inside without it. to birth anything into existence is your God given right as a human being. your gift that god gave your role as this particular creature (or gave yourself you could say). you must honor it if it’s by making art, building things, making new relationships, anything new that can be spawned in your heart and imagination. a vessel of light and Love, that is every humans potential. fuck i can’t help but have a speech when i think about Love.

another insight was that my vessel is embedded with nature. i felt very ape-like. it felt good, i felt exciting. i went into the backyard, i have very tall trees and i wanted to sleep outside on the grass. i began to resent modern life (always kinda have). i also saw that no other places exist because there is only one place, here and now. 

Aftermath:

at the end of the trip i was basically very contemplative with some mild visuals. everyday i wake up that love of creation ignited in my heart. if i’m sad or angry i remember the flame of creation and it gives me hope. i could lose everything but at least i’d still have Love

 

[Leo Gura]

Good work!

But keep digging deeper. You've yet to fully understand what Love is and that YOU are Love.

[Nahm]

@UNZARI

Beautiful. More speech please. 

[UNZARI]

On 11/21/2020 at 8:10 PM, Leo Gura said:

Good work!

But keep digging deeper. You've yet to fully understand what Love is and that YOU are Love.

man some days that’s all i think about is going deeper into it. i’ve been reading Tryptamine Palace by Oroc and his descriptions of 5meo and of course yours as well make me so excited but also anxious lol idk when i’ll be ready for that wild ride. i think i need more trips under my belt. ? keep making your amazing content you helped me to get here  

Edited November 23, 2020 by UNZARI

[UNZARI]

@AMTO the shrooms were dried, i wasn’t expecting much of a trip at all because about a year ago i took that much and only felt like i drank a couple beers and saw some visuals, so the intense trip was unexpected. and that realization was strange. i was looking at my house from outside and realized that it’s all one place. you never “go anywhere”. all places are just thoughts. like a school or a house or nevada, those are all just thoughts. as for people being imaginary i either didn’t go that deep or i just see it differently because that wasn’t apart of it